Ok, i hear you and do understand you. I am the Author of This Particular Thread. I am not or declared myself as A "Christian" for many might give me that label. Like the devil worshippers in "Antioch' who gave the followers of Jesus the title name "Christians" meaning at the coined time of the word created. meaning , "a new religious cult who are "Cannibals' who drink blood and eat flesh and practice incest and they are "Atheist" by following the Teachings of Jesus Christ.
Since then, there are many definitions of the word "Christian" and i am sure you have your definition too.
And out of 2.6 Billion christians in the world they have theirs too. and I do understand and i do not condemn any.
For me I have been "Born from ABOVE" like many others, not born again but "BORN FROM ABOVE"" Born of GOD" I have had a Heavenly Birth, Born of HIS SPIRIT and wash inThe Blood of The LAMB of GOD and have become
"A NEW "CREATURE" in "GOD", And My Citizenship is in HEAVEN, For I am a "Pilgrim" only passing through this corrupted and Temporal World that my FATHER will one day DESTROY every thing that has been "Created' on Earth and HEAVEN that can be shaken and everything both Invisible and visible. Space, time, Sun, Moon, and all of The STARS that exist....He will roll it all away as if it was a scroll. When it has done and finish its purpose.
Now He has A BOOK written that has describe these events. this Book is only written for "THE ELECT" of GOD to understand "The CHOSEN FEW" and we are Commanded to walk in
"SANCTIFICATION & HOLINESS" And Our Father who is in HEAVEN has made this POSSIBLE for He has given us a "ADVOCATE" The PARACLETE to walk beside us and to EMPOWER us in HIS WAYS. For without that power which is "pneumatic" we could not have The "ABILITY" to do what He has Commanded us to do. And when we sin and practice such ways it "Contaminate us. and pollutes our soul and breaks that connecting fellowship that many of us have with The SON and The Father. And we are "FEW" in numbers. And some belongs to the group that calls themselves "Christians". And among those Christians there are only a "FEW" who has been "Chosen by GOD". And yes we all suffer, for we are called to suffer. and bare our Cross, and some are called to die violent deaths. We are call to be a "WITNESS" [Martyr's]. and to LOVE JESUS and By Loving Jesus The FATHER WILL LOVE us too. For He has so Ordain it to be. And there is only one way to get to the Father for Jesus Christ is "THE WAY" and The only way you can get to the SON The FATHER has to DRAW you to The SON then the SON will REVEAL Whom He Pleases to The FATHER.
Do we suffer yes, do we rejoice in our suffering yes. For our suffering is more precious than "Silver and GOLD"
(2 Corinthians 4)KJV
"But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellency of the power may be of God, and not of us.
We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed;
we are perplexed, but not in despair; Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed; Always bearing about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life also of Jesus might be made manifest in our body. For we which live are alway delivered unto death for Jesus' sake, that the life also of Jesus might be made manifest in our mortal flesh".
Note: if you keep sinning and you are a Child of GOD he will whip that sin out of you! He is going to put that "WHIP" on you

and when he gets through, you are going to think "the Devil" is "Choir Boy" compared to GOD the FATHER. And you cannot called the police on HIM!
God Disciplines His Sons (Hebrews 12)
4Ye have not yet resisted unto blood, striving against sin.
5And ye have forgotten the exhortation which speaketh unto you as unto children, My son, despise not thou the chastening of the Lord, nor faint when thou art rebuked of him:
6For whom the Lord loveth
he chasteneth, and SCOURGETH every son whom he receiveth.
7If ye endure chastening, God dealeth with you as with sons; for what son is he whom the father chasteneth not?
8But if ye be without chastisement, whereof all are partakers, then are ye bastards, and not sons.
9Furthermore we have had fathers of our flesh which corrected
us, and we gave
them reverence: shall we not much rather be in subjection unto the Father of spirits, and live?
10For they verily for a few days chastened
us after their own pleasure; but he for
our profit, that
we might be partakers of his holiness.
11Now no chastening for the present seemeth to be joyous, but grievous: nevertheless afterward it yieldeth the peaceable fruit of righteousness unto them which are exercised thereby.
He will whip
hell right out of you! Because he does not want you to be condemn with the World! And he is not going to shed a tear.

And if he happens to kill you, He can bring you back! and repeated just in case you didn't get the message the 1st time.