It's just over a year ago when I happened upon this website and how life has changed since.
It was in the Easter holidays. I was off work. Mum had another operation to go through and after contracting MRSA the previous operation I was very worried about Mum and desperately unhappy (I wanted to cease existing because everything seemed so painful). I think I typed in Jesus or talk to Jesus in my search engine in the vain hope I could find some answers from God. Then I arrived here and I think the first thing I did was post a prayer request of desperation in the shoutbox and was unprepared for what happened next.
Following that first contact, I entered the chat room out of curiousity, just to listen to Christians, hear them talk and it all seemed very friendly and so I joined in the chat. At one point I nearly left but I received a pm which got my attention and held me here. From there I learned so much and then started a journey which lead to my expression of that journey through poems which were my first ever posts here. I was becoming curious about Jesus. I always believed in Him as a figure but not as a friend and saviour. I thought I believed because of my upbringing, exposure to christianity and wanted to believe but deep down just didn't really buy it.
However, one evening in chat a flood of bible verses were filling the screen. I wrote them all down and as I turned off the computer at about 6am I read them frantically and they ALL spoke to me ... BANG I believed, I understood, I was elated. There through God's word I had an amazing experience that morning. I went downstairs to Mum the next day and she said I was like I light. I knew I'd met Jesus.
I prayed in a different way after that not "Please take me as well as Mum" or "Please make her better" or "Take me instead" I prayed "I trust you with Mum, in your hands, I'm scared, I don't want to lose her but in your hands"
Things started to go crazy following this as I got stronger with Jesus as my friend, mum got physically weaker. She took a turn for the worst and began to lose her fight against cancer. I finally felt strong inside yet my whole world (my mum ) - the only human being I trusted and adored was beginning to struggle more than ever. I was strong for her but what was happening?
It got very hard but I started to post here for help/prayer or just a listening ear when I was most frightened for Mum. This is where I begin my thanks because everyone who responed to each and every post carried me like Jesus (footprints) through such dark and traumatic times. I'm certain that without that support the experiences to follow would have been deeply painful and too much for me to bear. Thank you all those who replied to that thread 'My Mummy' you blessed both our lives and many more...
to be continued...
It was in the Easter holidays. I was off work. Mum had another operation to go through and after contracting MRSA the previous operation I was very worried about Mum and desperately unhappy (I wanted to cease existing because everything seemed so painful). I think I typed in Jesus or talk to Jesus in my search engine in the vain hope I could find some answers from God. Then I arrived here and I think the first thing I did was post a prayer request of desperation in the shoutbox and was unprepared for what happened next.
Following that first contact, I entered the chat room out of curiousity, just to listen to Christians, hear them talk and it all seemed very friendly and so I joined in the chat. At one point I nearly left but I received a pm which got my attention and held me here. From there I learned so much and then started a journey which lead to my expression of that journey through poems which were my first ever posts here. I was becoming curious about Jesus. I always believed in Him as a figure but not as a friend and saviour. I thought I believed because of my upbringing, exposure to christianity and wanted to believe but deep down just didn't really buy it.
However, one evening in chat a flood of bible verses were filling the screen. I wrote them all down and as I turned off the computer at about 6am I read them frantically and they ALL spoke to me ... BANG I believed, I understood, I was elated. There through God's word I had an amazing experience that morning. I went downstairs to Mum the next day and she said I was like I light. I knew I'd met Jesus.
I prayed in a different way after that not "Please take me as well as Mum" or "Please make her better" or "Take me instead" I prayed "I trust you with Mum, in your hands, I'm scared, I don't want to lose her but in your hands"
Things started to go crazy following this as I got stronger with Jesus as my friend, mum got physically weaker. She took a turn for the worst and began to lose her fight against cancer. I finally felt strong inside yet my whole world (my mum ) - the only human being I trusted and adored was beginning to struggle more than ever. I was strong for her but what was happening?
It got very hard but I started to post here for help/prayer or just a listening ear when I was most frightened for Mum. This is where I begin my thanks because everyone who responed to each and every post carried me like Jesus (footprints) through such dark and traumatic times. I'm certain that without that support the experiences to follow would have been deeply painful and too much for me to bear. Thank you all those who replied to that thread 'My Mummy' you blessed both our lives and many more...
to be continued...
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