Two Years ago this month i stumbled across Talk Jesus. I remember typing Jesus into Google search engine, and browsing through the results, i came across Talk Jesus.
At this stage i just wanted to know more, i think more than anything i wanted to know why my sister and her family had such a love for this man Jesus and why my sister felt no fear of tommorow, something i was frozen with fear at the very thought of.
At this time i had been praying all those prayers i had been raised on the Hail Mary, and a hundred others all to different saints all for different reasons, but i wasnt getting any better if anything i was getting worse.
I had become so paranoid and restless at that time, i could not bring myself to sleep at night ,and leaving the house was becoming a struggle for me, i was always so scared and now i look back im not even sure what i was so scared of.
I was here only a few days, when i entered into the chat room, and started talking to a member called JustJesus for days he spoke to me for hours on end, i guess i was so thirsty for more information and the more i got the more i knew i needed.
In the early hours of the morning i agreed to pray with JustJesus, and as i did it began to dawn on me this Jesus guy was not only what i wanted but what i had been craving and searching for. That night i took my first step by asking Jesus to come into my life.
Although i was on a high i had never before experienced, everyone around me was far from happy about my new found faith. I was born and raised by a firm Catholic family and they were not about to let me go without a fight. The only other christian i had was my sister who lived in a different country and i really did not want to bring my sister into this as my parents had just started to rebuild their relationship with her again, due to her choice to follow Christ over ten years previous.
Being raised Daddys little girl ,my Father was the one who really tore me up inside. For my Daddy to tell me i was so very wrong, put some major doubts in my head. I was made to feel i had betrayed those who claimed to love me the most. It took some time for me to stand back and see it was the ones i loved who were wrong and not me. My faith grew and became stronger, my family took a step back and instead of trying to convince me i had joined a cult, they took the path of denial. To this very day my parents answer to my Faith is- she was born and raised in the catholic church she is a catholic.
Although i had found Christ i payed a large price, losing friends i had my entire life, to being mocked and laughed at for being a Jesus Freak. Girls i had known my whole life who had stood beside me through life and death situations turned away at the mention of Jesus Christ. I wont say it didnt hurt it tore holes in me for some time, but it also made me stronger for everytime i recived a blow from one of their cruel taunts ,i have become closer to Christ.
Over two years i have witnessed so much, from the wonderful grace and merci of Jesus Christ , the pure joy a session of praise can give you to have Jesus heal your body and soul, to the pain those closest to you can cause and the isolation of being a follower of Christ can bring. All of which i can sit back now and say has made me stronger and more determind to be a follower Christ for as long as i have breath in me.
I want to say a huge Thank you to JustJesus, Faithful Son ,Chad ,Dreamer and Stephen all of who encouraged and prayed with and for me when i first arrived here.
I could add another ten pages of how Jesus has worked wonders in my life but lets just say Jesus Rocks.
God Bless and Much Love All xoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxooxxooxoxx
At this stage i just wanted to know more, i think more than anything i wanted to know why my sister and her family had such a love for this man Jesus and why my sister felt no fear of tommorow, something i was frozen with fear at the very thought of.
At this time i had been praying all those prayers i had been raised on the Hail Mary, and a hundred others all to different saints all for different reasons, but i wasnt getting any better if anything i was getting worse.
I had become so paranoid and restless at that time, i could not bring myself to sleep at night ,and leaving the house was becoming a struggle for me, i was always so scared and now i look back im not even sure what i was so scared of.
I was here only a few days, when i entered into the chat room, and started talking to a member called JustJesus for days he spoke to me for hours on end, i guess i was so thirsty for more information and the more i got the more i knew i needed.
In the early hours of the morning i agreed to pray with JustJesus, and as i did it began to dawn on me this Jesus guy was not only what i wanted but what i had been craving and searching for. That night i took my first step by asking Jesus to come into my life.
Although i was on a high i had never before experienced, everyone around me was far from happy about my new found faith. I was born and raised by a firm Catholic family and they were not about to let me go without a fight. The only other christian i had was my sister who lived in a different country and i really did not want to bring my sister into this as my parents had just started to rebuild their relationship with her again, due to her choice to follow Christ over ten years previous.
Being raised Daddys little girl ,my Father was the one who really tore me up inside. For my Daddy to tell me i was so very wrong, put some major doubts in my head. I was made to feel i had betrayed those who claimed to love me the most. It took some time for me to stand back and see it was the ones i loved who were wrong and not me. My faith grew and became stronger, my family took a step back and instead of trying to convince me i had joined a cult, they took the path of denial. To this very day my parents answer to my Faith is- she was born and raised in the catholic church she is a catholic.
Although i had found Christ i payed a large price, losing friends i had my entire life, to being mocked and laughed at for being a Jesus Freak. Girls i had known my whole life who had stood beside me through life and death situations turned away at the mention of Jesus Christ. I wont say it didnt hurt it tore holes in me for some time, but it also made me stronger for everytime i recived a blow from one of their cruel taunts ,i have become closer to Christ.
Over two years i have witnessed so much, from the wonderful grace and merci of Jesus Christ , the pure joy a session of praise can give you to have Jesus heal your body and soul, to the pain those closest to you can cause and the isolation of being a follower of Christ can bring. All of which i can sit back now and say has made me stronger and more determind to be a follower Christ for as long as i have breath in me.
I want to say a huge Thank you to JustJesus, Faithful Son ,Chad ,Dreamer and Stephen all of who encouraged and prayed with and for me when i first arrived here.
I could add another ten pages of how Jesus has worked wonders in my life but lets just say Jesus Rocks.
God Bless and Much Love All xoxoxoxoxoxoxooxoxoxooxxooxoxx
