First welcome to Talk Jesus
@Korina359
Realizing that this is an online Christian Community Forum I'm sure you were going to expect an open arms welcome being you have self identified as an atheist.
It's okay! You're not the first to come here nor I'm sure you won't be last.
First to get to answering your question. Sorry, can't happen. No one here can do what you are asking. If you were converted by man the first time around, which is implied by your topic heading, then you weren't converted the first time either.
Many people who do not know the Lord Jesus Christ as their Savior, and sadly, even some who profess to. Are of the belief that saying a few words is what makes one a believer in Jesus. Maybe, on the surface it may appear to be that way, but inside there is that nagging doubt that all you're being fed is some line by a charlatan, or someone who is under some delusion. I'm sure if you professed to be a believer in Christ Jesus, that this may sound a little familiar or similar to what you have experienced?
The Bible does speak of a person truly converted who goes away from the faith:
For in the case of those who have once been enlightened and have tasted of the heavenly gift and have been made partakers of the Holy Spirit, and have tasted the good word of God and the powers of the age to come, and then have fallen away, it is impossible to renew them again to repentance, since they again crucify to themselves the Son of God and put Him to open shame. Hebrews 6:4-6
But since I'm not really positive that you were a converted, Holy Spirit guided/filled believer. There is still hope!
That is if you are interested?
I'll keep on if you're interested?
I'm sure others here would welcome the opportunity to be helpful.
Otherwise, to the statement below that you made.
What makes you so certain Jesus is real?
Both inside and outside of Christianity it is acknowledged that Jesus or Yeshua Hamashiach existed, and was a real person. These are historians, and even most scientific atheist don't disagree with this. So, if you still don't believe in the existence of him. It might be better to do some research on it. Can't do all the leg work for you
Just realize that the data in historical records are out there.
Once again be welcome to Talk Jesus.
With the Love of Christ Jesus.
Nick
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