Greetings,
thank you for sharing as you have.
I could send you kisses and say everything will be alright but i would rather give you a slap or two to wake you up and get your attention.
First, do not go saying that you are a christian and Jesus won't help you and satan is too strong. Why? Because that is a lie.
You need to get a hold of such stupid thought and talk and throw it out the window! First off, satan is NEVER too strong for Jesus. Full stop.
If you are a Christian, do NOT believe the lies about anything that renders you a powerless victim of evil.
OK, you did some stupid stuff. So, do you want a medal or do you want to move on and start living the life you have in Christ? Don't accept the lies. Resist the devil and he will flee from you. Says so, so do it!
Don't get sad or angry about me and what i write to you. Get free and stay free by putting Jesus first.
Can i ask, when you say you are a Christian, what do you mean? How or what and when did you become one? Let's take it from there, NOT from your past stupidity. You see, God is faithful. You might not be all the time BUT He is, ALL THE TIME. You really have to get your focus on the LORD which is why i ask what makes you a Christian? I am not judging you. Trying to help, if you really want help.
I know that the Lord will not let you perish if you really believe in Him. Do you know that? (please answer)
Get back to me and in the meantime, know that the lovingkindness of God is not shed only on the ones you might think deserve it, meaning if you think you don't, remember that you are not God! Draw near to Him.... and stay there.
Grace and Peace
Jesus is Lord
Bless you ....><>
I am an orthodox christian, I was born and baptized as an orthodox christian, but nobody pointed me to God, it's God's call that lead me to read the Bible from a very young age.Nobody will ever take this from me, not even Satan, I was, I am and I will always be a beliver in Christ.In my family, nobody cares about Christ, yet we are all orthodox christians, I am the only one seeking God, because of me we have the Bible in our house, because of me, sometimes, they also talk about Christ.
This is my sin, I thought that I can found God this way, yet I found Satan and His demons, almost ready to take my soul, but they could not do it, they only kept my body paralyzed, floating in air.Now, that I became aware of my sins, I ran towards God with all my being, I am completely changed, believe me, I have no words to describe what it feels to see evil face to face, it's horrible, horrible.Many other people prayed for me, I asked the angels and the saints to pray for me, but most importantly, I asked Christ, I repented of my sins, now I know, now I truly know, I was that close to lose my soul forever.God is good, from that moment on, I started reading the Bible again, God is pointing me to the Psalms, yesterday I fasted all day long, no food, only a glass of water ( I fasted many times in past so I know the power of fasting, the flesh becomes weaker and the spirit grows stronger ).The prayers of all the people who prayed for me were of great help for me, I slept 12 hours and I slept like a baby, no nightmare, nothing, it was one of the most peaceful sleep I ever had.
Now, before actually sleeping, I tried several times to sleep in another room, while almost being close to fall asleep, I heard strange knocks on my door, they came in cycles of three, like knock, knock, knock... pause.. knock, knock, knock ... knock, knock, knock, again 333, another mockery against Christ.Yesterday was the 40th day, the last day of Christ on Earth ( that when we, orthodox christian, celebrate His ascending to Heaven ), when He ascended to Heaven, hence the fact that I was attacked by demons just right on this day.This time, they had no power to enter in my room, my cry of help was heard by God.I could not stand more torture from them, blessed be God!! This is what it happens when you turn your back to God again and again, envetually you go in a very extreme situation, where your very own life is in danger...
I am so changed that I gave up everything, no more video games, no more movies, no more empty music, I say it again, stay as close as you can to God, Satan is really looking to devour people.I could not call for Christ help as I did in past ( in past, I used these words while I had nightmares: "My God, Jesus Christ, Son of God, save me!"; and He was there, instantly I would wake up) this time, I could not even cry for His help, I was paralyzed of fear... This is my lesson and I have to share it with many people as possible so that they may know that if evil is real, then God is also very real!!!
My faith was diminished by the things I've done, I felt alone, I felt that God left me alone, His Word was not into my mind, my suffering brought me in such a low state, it's not easy to endure pain every single day, it's not easy to live in an environment consumed by evil and negativity, every day is a fight, now I am not anymore alone, now I am with Christ, I would not be here, talking with you, without His help, I would not...
I was neither hot nor cold, I was in between, thinking about Christ and His Word, but doing things against His Word at the very same time, I had it coming, this was the only way to wake up me, I had to face evil face to face.Years ago, I fell from a moving train, survived without a scratch, when trying to find help at a bar, I saw three demons, they were laughing at me because of my suffering, their bodies were like smoke, their eyes were black and void, then, after I ran from that place, I shouted the Psalm 23 with all my being, I praised God and thank Him that he first save me from that fall and later on he saved from those demons.. Even more years ago, I woke up in the middle of the night, completely paralyzed, my eyes were wide open, I was sleeping on my stomach so I could only see the window that was near my bed.. Then, suddenly, I felt a cold hand on my neck, instantly I knew its intention, I tried to strungle me, it was horrible, horrible ( I was like 15 back then, at 16-17 I truly started my journey with God, that's when I first started to read the Bible, the New Testament on my own ) Thanks to my grandma that she woke up exactly at that time and instantly that hand disappeared and I could move.. You see, Satan tried to take me out even before coming to God, I was and I am target but my sins made me to be even in a greater danger.I now truly know that Christ was always with me, even when I was not with Him, otherwise, I would not be here, blessed be His Holy Name!!
God made me humble, I feel humbled by Him, just like it's written in His Word - Matthew 23:12 "And whosoever shall exalt himself shall be abased; and he that shall humble himself shall be exalted.".I exalted myself thinking that I am better than God and God brought me down like a tree is brought down, He cut my prideful roots and now I am down, being humbled and feeling the Fear of the Lord.The fear of the Lord is the beginning of the wisdom, it's truly!! When you fear Him, you truly start to know Him!!!
I belived Satan lies, every single one of them and he had the right to attack me, God let me go my own way and my own way was close to bring my own destruction...
Pray for me so that I may go stronger and stronger in His Word!!
