Ever since I was a child, I have been a dreamer, you could say. I always dream about things and envision things. I always have had dreams of things, from what I wanted to be when I grew up to the woman of my dreams. To this day, I still have those dreams as a single 22 year old. I have always desired and dreamed of being in love with someone. One worldly thing that plague that I still haven't even been kissed at age 22. I guess it's silly for me to think about, but I have never had a girlfriend, and it has been a bother to me. I don't know. But I guess I have that desire to have some lovely girl (definitely of noble character) tell me that she loves me and wants to be my wife.
But the problem is that I am not that good/comfortable around women. I get a little nervous around women.
I always picture her and I saying I do and kissing on our wedding day. I picture my first kiss at times and imagine it to be so special. And I seem to look for a wife superficially, only interested in looks most of the time. Vanity. Anyway, I have so longfully wanted to find "my love" that I have basically been foolish with my heart, falling for girls who I didn't really have a relationship with. On top of that, I would be crazy about her really quickly and would fall in love too fast. These "crushes" resulted in getting my heart broken and plenty of pains.
But the thing of the matter is I seem to still fall for some pretty Godly girl and fall quite quickly. I don't want to still fall for her so fast the way I do. Also, I can't seem to get rid of these marriage and love dreams. I want these dreams to go away. They create a little dissatisfaction as a single for me. Something I have struggled with for such a long time. I just want to follow God whether I am permanently single or permanently married.
How do I stop all these dreams and fantasies and just focus on God alone? Please help.
TyC113
But the problem is that I am not that good/comfortable around women. I get a little nervous around women.
I always picture her and I saying I do and kissing on our wedding day. I picture my first kiss at times and imagine it to be so special. And I seem to look for a wife superficially, only interested in looks most of the time. Vanity. Anyway, I have so longfully wanted to find "my love" that I have basically been foolish with my heart, falling for girls who I didn't really have a relationship with. On top of that, I would be crazy about her really quickly and would fall in love too fast. These "crushes" resulted in getting my heart broken and plenty of pains.
But the thing of the matter is I seem to still fall for some pretty Godly girl and fall quite quickly. I don't want to still fall for her so fast the way I do. Also, I can't seem to get rid of these marriage and love dreams. I want these dreams to go away. They create a little dissatisfaction as a single for me. Something I have struggled with for such a long time. I just want to follow God whether I am permanently single or permanently married.
How do I stop all these dreams and fantasies and just focus on God alone? Please help.
TyC113