mabarrow12
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- Joined
- May 2, 2006
- Messages
- 7
I feel like I am falling. And this is not good for the type of person I am. Hi my name is Mitzi and I am a perfectionist. I don’t know how that can be because I am not particularly neat. I am not always on time and I tend to be lazy if there is no work or if given half a chance. Now with all that said I am when it comes to me and my faults tend to be really hard on myself. Rationally I know I am not alone in feeling this way, but that does not help the way I feel. God help me.
I know and believe everything the Holy Spirit has told me and with that said there should not be a “but”, but there is. I don’t always listen to the Holy Spirit. I know I’m not the only one. God help me. This is where the perfectionist part comes in. The Word tells me that since I have accepted Christ I will begin a transformation by way of the Holy Spirit and yes I will still sin, but the change is still going on inside of me. It wont be all an over night change. It will take time and not my time but Gods. I get that, I really do. God help me. What I am about to say is most likely a sin because I am trying to work by my time table and not Gods. I WANT TO BE PERFECT FOR GOD NOW!
It seems like I never do what I say I am going to do (I am going to go into prayer about this). This makes me very mad at myself all the time and it feels like a constant cycle of saying I will do something and then not doing. God you’re the only one who can help. God said to help this I will have to learn discipline. This will be a very long road for me and I mostly feel like I’m falling all the time. However, in my falling I must get up and keep moving. That is HARD!
I know and believe everything the Holy Spirit has told me and with that said there should not be a “but”, but there is. I don’t always listen to the Holy Spirit. I know I’m not the only one. God help me. This is where the perfectionist part comes in. The Word tells me that since I have accepted Christ I will begin a transformation by way of the Holy Spirit and yes I will still sin, but the change is still going on inside of me. It wont be all an over night change. It will take time and not my time but Gods. I get that, I really do. God help me. What I am about to say is most likely a sin because I am trying to work by my time table and not Gods. I WANT TO BE PERFECT FOR GOD NOW!
It seems like I never do what I say I am going to do (I am going to go into prayer about this). This makes me very mad at myself all the time and it feels like a constant cycle of saying I will do something and then not doing. God you’re the only one who can help. God said to help this I will have to learn discipline. This will be a very long road for me and I mostly feel like I’m falling all the time. However, in my falling I must get up and keep moving. That is HARD!
