Feeling hopeless, sad and broken

[emm12]

So about 5 months ago my relationship with this boy ended and yes I was a little upset but I don't know the break up didn't really affect me, and a I would say about a week later this boy named Evan who is best friends with my best friend named James started to want to talk to me. At first I held back because I was scared, because I just ended a relationship, but. I talked to Evan anyways because I did not expect to have feelings for him. He's different I've never felt this way before we have this connection and its great, he is also Christian which I really liked a lot because my ex boyfriend was not. Anyways it's been 5 months since Evan and I have been talking but we both do not want relationships, however we can't seem to let go of each other. And we've decided to take a 2 week break do our own thing see how it is and then go back to talking. But honestly I feel broken I don't want to lose him. It's as if right person just wrong time. I have these terrible trust issues and I'm really jealous and I don't like that feeling I want to rid myself from the those feelings because I always think the worst I always think bad things and negative will just happen to me for example I think he will just lose feelings for me for some other girl and I'm scared I've never felt this way about a guy before. But I feel like because I'm so negative and because I have absolutely no faith in myself then yes of course these things are going to happen. I would just like some prayer for me please just to help me with the negative thoughts and always saying how "unlucky" I am and the trust issues the jealousy, I don't want to be like that anymore. I want to be confident and have faith in myself, I want to love myself and not think of myself as worthless or not enough. I appreciate, it's so had for me to actually let these things out about myself no one knows this and I've never talked to anyone about it.

 

[stephen]

Hello Emma,

Just read your story and I want you to know that, "committing our way unto the Lord" is always a good start with any sort of relationship that we might want to nourish. I would suggest to continue taking things steady, as you are, and just sharing little things together as they come along in your lives.
Praying for you at this time. .

 

[Brad Huber]

Their is no good luck or bad luck. There is only strong faith and weak faith. Exercise your faith and it will get stronger. If you do, one day you will be strong enough to help others in their faith, and then you will be a true child of God.

 

[emm12]

Hello Emma,

Just read your story and I want you to know that, "committing our way unto the Lord" is always a good start with any sort of relationship that we might want to nourish. I would suggest to continue taking things steady, as you are, and just sharing little things together as they come along in your lives.
Praying for you at this time. .

Thank you so much