Forgiveness Heals

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We are commanded in Eph 4 to always forgive and get rid of bitterness, anger and resentment before sunfall, in order for the devil to be prohibited from getting a foothold. Now, I grew up in the baptist church so you would think I would have known this.

On Feb. 17, 1991 I gave my heart completely to Christ. I was 30 years old. I had received Christ at age 11 at summer camp but had strayed away from Him, not trusting Him.

Jesus changed me quite drastically right away, and I was very excited about the fact that God loved me! It took me 30 years to figure it out, and now I didn't want to waste any time. In order to serve God and tell people about Him, I would need to be able to make eye contact with people. This was something I was not ready for yet because I was so unbelievably shy and had low self-esteem. So I asked God to help me to be able to look at people in the eyes and talk to them about Him. I so much wanted to share what Jesus had done. continued....

 

[Dreamer]

What God Did!

After a few days of praying about this, the Lord spoke to me clearly and concisely. "Forgive your parents," He said. I rose my fist up and said, "No!":embarasse
For days, I had painful flashbacks of abuse and neglect. One night when I was praying, I said, "Lord, I know I need to forgive, but I can't. So will you please give me the power to forgive?" I wrote a lot of things down about the flashbacks I'd been having and I prayed I'd be able to let go of all of it.
The next morning, I woke early and knelt to pray, forgiving and letting go of all of it. The Lord was faithful to me, a baby christian, by giving me a powerful, wonderful vision at this time....God and Jesus spoke to me personally and told me that they planned for me, wanted me, and accepted me. (I had often been told by family that I was a mistake.)
Praise God, He is so faithful! He is still teaching me now daily, 15 years later, that I need to forgive daily. And that He loves, accepts me and has plans for me.:boy_hug: :girl_hug: Jesus loves me.