TheWidowsOffering
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When I was in grade school i remember our father asked us his three siblings about what would we like to be when growing up. My elder brother said "I want to be an accountant or engineer". My younger sister said she want to finish mass communication. Then father said to me "how about you?" I want to be a NUN someday doing God's work in the church and orphanages. My father said "NO!" authoritatively. I ask him why. He said if you do you will be deployed in a very far place and they would no longer see me even a just a tip of my fingernails. And my mother agreed. Then I said to them if that's the case let me be a lawyer. Again no. Ok an engineer. Another no. Last let me just be a doctor. Lastly they say if you do, you have to bury us neck depth below the ground because we're a very poor family.
But my very desire to serve God someday keep burning within me and i said myself i will study first finish a degree do some help to my family after that i will become a NUN without my parents knowing what's in my mind. Almost a year after entering college I've come to know the Lord Jesus Christ in my life and after that encounter I've become very insatiable to His Word. The desire to know him more grew stronger and stronger everyday until after one year i committed myself in His Ministry (I've been deeply in touch with my pastor that time and wherever she goes I'm with her). At early age of my Christian life i was exposed greatly to the need and burden of the ministry. And i stood behind my pastor praying about them till finish college and one year more i committed myself staying in that town away from my family.
Three more years came and I got a lot of struggle in fulfilling my dreams for my family. During those years i remember moments that i would be crying out to the Lord "Lord please let me just finish everything for them. After this i'm giving my life to You as i promised before." But promise is a promise so it must be fulfilled. Due to adverse circumstances coming along my way in fulfilling my desire to my family and i got no choice but to surrender to God. This last June i remembered God's faithfulness in my life in sustaining me and providing for me and in keeping me though many trials i faced in giving my life to Him but it is He who gave me strength to follow Him continually. I'm now on my fifth year of being a full time staff of our church working voluntarily with the Lord. Only then I realized that my highest dream - that is to be in God's service is now being fulfilled- not in the way i think to be but in His own very special way. Though i was not able to do all the things i wanted to do for my family but I know God has His own way in fulfilling them all for me. To God be the glory.
Isaih55:8 For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the LORD. 55:9 For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts. "
But my very desire to serve God someday keep burning within me and i said myself i will study first finish a degree do some help to my family after that i will become a NUN without my parents knowing what's in my mind. Almost a year after entering college I've come to know the Lord Jesus Christ in my life and after that encounter I've become very insatiable to His Word. The desire to know him more grew stronger and stronger everyday until after one year i committed myself in His Ministry (I've been deeply in touch with my pastor that time and wherever she goes I'm with her). At early age of my Christian life i was exposed greatly to the need and burden of the ministry. And i stood behind my pastor praying about them till finish college and one year more i committed myself staying in that town away from my family.
Three more years came and I got a lot of struggle in fulfilling my dreams for my family. During those years i remember moments that i would be crying out to the Lord "Lord please let me just finish everything for them. After this i'm giving my life to You as i promised before." But promise is a promise so it must be fulfilled. Due to adverse circumstances coming along my way in fulfilling my desire to my family and i got no choice but to surrender to God. This last June i remembered God's faithfulness in my life in sustaining me and providing for me and in keeping me though many trials i faced in giving my life to Him but it is He who gave me strength to follow Him continually. I'm now on my fifth year of being a full time staff of our church working voluntarily with the Lord. Only then I realized that my highest dream - that is to be in God's service is now being fulfilled- not in the way i think to be but in His own very special way. Though i was not able to do all the things i wanted to do for my family but I know God has His own way in fulfilling them all for me. To God be the glory.
Isaih55:8 For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, saith the LORD. 55:9 For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts. "
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