truthreigns
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- Oct 11, 2009
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:shock:Retirement was a big adjustment I had to make when I quit working and moved to a high rise. I never dreamed I would be back in my old home town again. The high rise was situated along the river with a beautiful park across the street from the building. I spent many hours sitting on a bench meditating and wondering how I would spend my time. When I got tired of that I walked up and down the street where I took in the beauty of the river scene.
There is no transportation to be able to go shopping or visiting anyone. There used to be a good bus service and trains I could ride but that all disappeared. If you did not have a car you were stuck. While I worked, I lived in an area with good bus service. There were stores nearby to supply my needs.
I had a hard time getting acquainted with the other residents. I sat in my apartment for almost six years except when I had to get out. I did not join in any of the activities. After working so many years as a waitress, I decided I needed a rest. All day I sat and watched my favorite videos, mostly musicals and Pride and Prejudice. While I did this I got hooked on making plastic canvas items. I gave most of them away. Then I got into making crocheted Afghans.
God took advantage of the situation. Now He got me where He wanted me. I never sat still long enough to listen for His voice. The movies got boring. I just turned them on for the noise. I went into a depression filled with guilt and remorse for the stupid, dangerous and sinful things I had done. I pushed God out of my life. I realized it was God chastising me before He could get me to admit where I had gone wrong. He could then restore me to when I first got saved.
Gradually I began to go in the front room where people gathered. One day there was only one lady in the room. I told her about the Mini-Sermons I used to write in 1987 & '88. Even though I was not following His path at all times, He let me write the sermons and pass out 100 A week copies at the restaurant where I worked as a waitress in a large department store. I knew God was in it for no one tried to stop me. It was the happiest time I have ever had. I was in God's perfect will.
Shortly before this, I was ready to get into the New Age Movement... The Holy Spirit stopped me. It was like I was being told I had to make up my mind whether I was going to serve God or Satan. I could not sit on the fence any longer. The first set of sermons was for those who don't know the Lord and what they had to do to get saved. The rest of the sermons were instructions on how to live a Christian life after Jesus Christ became their Lord and Savior.
I believe now that God had me write them for my own benefit even if no one else got anything out of them. After reading them, one 98 year old Jewish man got saved shortly before he died. I was in awe when I heard that. I will never know how many others have done the same. Sad to say I got off path again. I was like a yo-yo.
I still gave copies to anyone who wanted them. Not many did. After the lady read them, she said she was moving to Colorado. She would get her daughter to put them on the web. That was something new to me. I did have a computer before but I wasn't on the internet. It sounded too complicated for me.
She was not in Colorado very long when we got the news that she died. She had put the idea into my head that it was what God wanted me to do and it stuck there. It haunted me day and night. I told people I was going to do it. They laughed at my boldness for even thinking that was God's will for me. I did not have enough money to buy a computer or connect to the internet. It was impossible. God is the author of impossibilities.
I was told it cost a lot of money to have a web site. I did not even know what it entailed. The thought would not let go. I got tested when my daughter told me about a computer a woman wanted to give away. She was going to Colorado and wanted my daughter to leave her husband and children and go with her. Of course she refused. The woman was still going to let me have the computer. I refused her offer. I had the feeling she was part of a cult. By accepting the gift I would be condoning her actions.
In 2001 I got a letter from my life insurance company. They were opening to the public a chance to buy stock in the company. They did not have to buy insurance with them. I was shocked when they also told me I had a certain amount of stock and they were sending me a check for that much. God did not let me be aware that I had stock. He knew I would blow it if I cashed it in sooner. It was the exact amount I needed to buy a Gateway Computer and printer. That is just like God to do what you may think is impossible.
It took me about a month to learn to halfway use the machine. I surfed the web to see what I could find on it. I looked for Christian sites. I was pleased to learn that they accepted writings from their readers. If accepted the items would be published. I did not have to have my own site and this did not cost a cent! I would not know how to use it anyway. My mind was technically illiterate.
The first place I found they made me their featured author for a short time and did not accept any more. A featured writer, Me? I was always a background type of person. No one ever seemed to notice I was there. I was ignored.
There is only one thing wrong with the site. A professional journalist gave me the advice that I needed white space between the lines to make it easier to read. I did have some space but they jammed it all together. At least it got my foot in the cyber space door.
Later a woman wanted me to write for her on a woman's ministry. She made me Leader/Director. That surprised me. I was never a leader or director of anything; not even my own miserable life. God seems to choose the least likely for the job. He enables them so it's not under their power. This lasted a short time. She had to close the site down because of poor health. God showed me He can open doors and shut them. He continues to do that.
I got on another site in 2002.I was their top writer with 87 articles. That site too was closed! Did God really want me to write? Surprise! I ended up writing about 100 items in 3 years from 2000-2003. The Lord giveth; the Lord taketh away. I can’t write anything under my own power. I have to be inspired. I went into a slump period for 6 years. In 2008 I found out that I had sleep apnea and put on oxygen. . All I wanted to do was sleep. I thought I was getting alzheimers---I couldn’t remember anything. I was going into a deep depression. It all was a blessing in disguise!!! In that dark abyss, God was erasing all of the negativity in my mind. I thought I had a terrible life but it was all a lie. MY Dad told me I was stupid and crazy and couldn’t do anything right. I believed him until a couple years ago. I am now 79 years old.
Like God said in Jeremiah 4:4 (KJV): "Before I formed you in the belly I knew you and before you came forth out of the womb, I sanctified you, and I ordained you a prophet unto the nations." In these times, with the web, it is much easier to reach more people all over the world.
Jeremiah was limited. Don't let the word prophet scare you. In the dictionary it means an inspired preacher, a person who speaks for God under divine guidance. It can be an inspired leader or teacher; both male and female.
God knows all of us before we are born. He has our whole life planned. It is up to us whether we follow His plan or not. A writer is the same as a preacher or teacher but on paper and through the air. It is amazing how far it reaches by way of a few key strokes. It reaches people who have never set foot in a church before.
God always inspires people to do even the simplest task if they believe that is what God wants them to do. No one is left out when they are willing to obey and use the talent they have. God gives us gifts but we have to accept them whatever they are or He will give them to someone else. No way could I get up in front of people and sing or play an instrument. Neither could I be a nurse or able to cook and feed the hungry. You will know what your gift is. None are too small.
My cyber space ministry keeps growing. I take no credit. God led me all the way through it. I just obeyed. He stops me at times too and I have a long dry spell. But that is my learning time.
Praise the Lord for loving us so much to trust us to take care of His business. I can look back now and see all the good things that were in my life. He was right there with me and never let me down
Never give up no matter how hard the task seems to be. God will enable you!
God bless you.
There is no transportation to be able to go shopping or visiting anyone. There used to be a good bus service and trains I could ride but that all disappeared. If you did not have a car you were stuck. While I worked, I lived in an area with good bus service. There were stores nearby to supply my needs.
I had a hard time getting acquainted with the other residents. I sat in my apartment for almost six years except when I had to get out. I did not join in any of the activities. After working so many years as a waitress, I decided I needed a rest. All day I sat and watched my favorite videos, mostly musicals and Pride and Prejudice. While I did this I got hooked on making plastic canvas items. I gave most of them away. Then I got into making crocheted Afghans.
God took advantage of the situation. Now He got me where He wanted me. I never sat still long enough to listen for His voice. The movies got boring. I just turned them on for the noise. I went into a depression filled with guilt and remorse for the stupid, dangerous and sinful things I had done. I pushed God out of my life. I realized it was God chastising me before He could get me to admit where I had gone wrong. He could then restore me to when I first got saved.
Gradually I began to go in the front room where people gathered. One day there was only one lady in the room. I told her about the Mini-Sermons I used to write in 1987 & '88. Even though I was not following His path at all times, He let me write the sermons and pass out 100 A week copies at the restaurant where I worked as a waitress in a large department store. I knew God was in it for no one tried to stop me. It was the happiest time I have ever had. I was in God's perfect will.
Shortly before this, I was ready to get into the New Age Movement... The Holy Spirit stopped me. It was like I was being told I had to make up my mind whether I was going to serve God or Satan. I could not sit on the fence any longer. The first set of sermons was for those who don't know the Lord and what they had to do to get saved. The rest of the sermons were instructions on how to live a Christian life after Jesus Christ became their Lord and Savior.
I believe now that God had me write them for my own benefit even if no one else got anything out of them. After reading them, one 98 year old Jewish man got saved shortly before he died. I was in awe when I heard that. I will never know how many others have done the same. Sad to say I got off path again. I was like a yo-yo.
I still gave copies to anyone who wanted them. Not many did. After the lady read them, she said she was moving to Colorado. She would get her daughter to put them on the web. That was something new to me. I did have a computer before but I wasn't on the internet. It sounded too complicated for me.
She was not in Colorado very long when we got the news that she died. She had put the idea into my head that it was what God wanted me to do and it stuck there. It haunted me day and night. I told people I was going to do it. They laughed at my boldness for even thinking that was God's will for me. I did not have enough money to buy a computer or connect to the internet. It was impossible. God is the author of impossibilities.
I was told it cost a lot of money to have a web site. I did not even know what it entailed. The thought would not let go. I got tested when my daughter told me about a computer a woman wanted to give away. She was going to Colorado and wanted my daughter to leave her husband and children and go with her. Of course she refused. The woman was still going to let me have the computer. I refused her offer. I had the feeling she was part of a cult. By accepting the gift I would be condoning her actions.
In 2001 I got a letter from my life insurance company. They were opening to the public a chance to buy stock in the company. They did not have to buy insurance with them. I was shocked when they also told me I had a certain amount of stock and they were sending me a check for that much. God did not let me be aware that I had stock. He knew I would blow it if I cashed it in sooner. It was the exact amount I needed to buy a Gateway Computer and printer. That is just like God to do what you may think is impossible.
It took me about a month to learn to halfway use the machine. I surfed the web to see what I could find on it. I looked for Christian sites. I was pleased to learn that they accepted writings from their readers. If accepted the items would be published. I did not have to have my own site and this did not cost a cent! I would not know how to use it anyway. My mind was technically illiterate.
The first place I found they made me their featured author for a short time and did not accept any more. A featured writer, Me? I was always a background type of person. No one ever seemed to notice I was there. I was ignored.
There is only one thing wrong with the site. A professional journalist gave me the advice that I needed white space between the lines to make it easier to read. I did have some space but they jammed it all together. At least it got my foot in the cyber space door.
Later a woman wanted me to write for her on a woman's ministry. She made me Leader/Director. That surprised me. I was never a leader or director of anything; not even my own miserable life. God seems to choose the least likely for the job. He enables them so it's not under their power. This lasted a short time. She had to close the site down because of poor health. God showed me He can open doors and shut them. He continues to do that.
I got on another site in 2002.I was their top writer with 87 articles. That site too was closed! Did God really want me to write? Surprise! I ended up writing about 100 items in 3 years from 2000-2003. The Lord giveth; the Lord taketh away. I can’t write anything under my own power. I have to be inspired. I went into a slump period for 6 years. In 2008 I found out that I had sleep apnea and put on oxygen. . All I wanted to do was sleep. I thought I was getting alzheimers---I couldn’t remember anything. I was going into a deep depression. It all was a blessing in disguise!!! In that dark abyss, God was erasing all of the negativity in my mind. I thought I had a terrible life but it was all a lie. MY Dad told me I was stupid and crazy and couldn’t do anything right. I believed him until a couple years ago. I am now 79 years old.
Like God said in Jeremiah 4:4 (KJV): "Before I formed you in the belly I knew you and before you came forth out of the womb, I sanctified you, and I ordained you a prophet unto the nations." In these times, with the web, it is much easier to reach more people all over the world.
Jeremiah was limited. Don't let the word prophet scare you. In the dictionary it means an inspired preacher, a person who speaks for God under divine guidance. It can be an inspired leader or teacher; both male and female.
God knows all of us before we are born. He has our whole life planned. It is up to us whether we follow His plan or not. A writer is the same as a preacher or teacher but on paper and through the air. It is amazing how far it reaches by way of a few key strokes. It reaches people who have never set foot in a church before.
God always inspires people to do even the simplest task if they believe that is what God wants them to do. No one is left out when they are willing to obey and use the talent they have. God gives us gifts but we have to accept them whatever they are or He will give them to someone else. No way could I get up in front of people and sing or play an instrument. Neither could I be a nurse or able to cook and feed the hungry. You will know what your gift is. None are too small.
My cyber space ministry keeps growing. I take no credit. God led me all the way through it. I just obeyed. He stops me at times too and I have a long dry spell. But that is my learning time.
Praise the Lord for loving us so much to trust us to take care of His business. I can look back now and see all the good things that were in my life. He was right there with me and never let me down
Never give up no matter how hard the task seems to be. God will enable you!
God bless you.
