Help please

[Tj_]

I'm in a broken relationship. Me and my boyfriend of two years split up because of my hateful heart he is in the Air Force and before he left he would always lie about other girls and sneak behind my back he would cuss me out and tell me how much I mean nothing to him we would constantly fight and I never felt loved so I would always cry and argue with him to feel wanted he turned his life over to god and told me he was lost but found himself and every since then are relationship was amazing it was just like it was when we first met we were growing in god with one another he was sent away for awhile and when he came home I had an extraordinary experience of being saved it was such a overwhelming joyful moment. After that are relationship seemed to go down hill he was being the same sweet guy but my heart had turned black I was hateful to him I told him how worthless he was how I hated him how I could do better and I'm not sure why I said any of that. When all he did was love me when he got sent over seas he was 6 hours ahead so we had no time to talk and I let all the anger and hate I had inside me from wen he treated me bad come out because I felt as if I didn't get closure I told him I needed more attention and time and when he would go out I always felt as if he was cheating on me when he wasn't when he would do sweet things for me I thought it was to cover something up. I told him I never loved him that he ment nothing to me all out of hate for what he did to me I thought I could make things even and then I would call him back and apologize I knew this was unhealthy but I would always do it for no reason it's like I couldn't stop myself I started really falling out of my relationship with god because I felt as if the devil would attack me more It would make things worse but this past month was when everything got worse we started arguing constantly we never talked we grew apart because we couldn't talk without me crying or screaming and I felt hopeless I broke up with him randomly last week to hurt his feelings like how he hurt mine he said he will always love me and want to he with me but won't be able to come back. We both love each other and know were ment to be. We were supposed to get engaged but that will no longer happen. He has told me countless of times I need to refocus my life on god and has tried to push me there I feel as if every time if try I fail. I need to restore my relationship with god it was once so strong but after these last few months my fear has over powered my faith. And I want to know do you think god can restore a broken relationship?

 

[Brad Huber]

God just so happens to be pretty good at repairing broken relationships. Not sure why you are so hateful toward your husband, you either got some really deep emotional unresolved issues, or you just need to accept that you havent a clue what being a christian is. Its a choice. Start making good choices before you lose your husband.