I am not sure if I will ever be saved

[marie_777]

I have said the payer, over, and over but I am still so unsure and still feel
dead inside. I will start to read to bible but a lot of it will make me really angry
so I will stop. I really want to get my faith back. I fell like this is hopeless.

-maire

 

[sunshine307]

Hi marie, when you pray to God to forgive your sins you have to believe by faith that He has forgiven you. Acts 16 v 31 says "Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ and you will be saved." Then start to read the Bible and ask the Holy Spirit to speak to you as you read. The gospels are a good place to start - read about the life of Jesus. You need to believe His Word.

 

[Chad]

I agree with sunshine. The Gospels of Matthew, Mark, Luke and John are great books to read and learn about Jesus Christ. You will understand GOD's character through Christ. The love, forgivness and power to make great things happen in your life including faith area.

Ephesians 6:10-18

10 Finally, my brethren, be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. 11 Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil. 12 For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age,[a] against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places. 13 Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.

14 Stand therefore, having girded your waist with truth, having put on the breastplate of righteousness, 15 and having shod your feet with the preparation of the gospel of peace; 16 above all, taking the shield of faith with which you will be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked one. 17 And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God; 18 praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, being watchful to this end with all perseverance and supplication for all the saints—

 

[diamarie]

Yeah marie..I understand what you mean completely...You miss feeling close to God...You want desperately to get your faith back....You want to have some sort of relationship with God again...You just feel empty inside because you think you've been living a lie...
I feel like that all the time...Everyone tells me "Keep the faith" "God is there" yet I feel unsure of myself...

 

[sunshine307]

diamarie, as I said to marie_777, when you come to God to forgive your sins He will accept you and He will forgive you. John 6:37 "All that the Father gives Me will come to Me, and the one who comes to Me I will by no means cast out." Jesus accepts you and it's up to you to start believing His Word, and walking in it. He will not force you to walk with Him day by day, it's up to you to make that choice. Faith starts as a grain of mustard seed - Matthew 17:20 "So Jesus said to them, “Because of your unbelief; for assuredly, I say to you, if you have faith as a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move; and nothing will be impossible for you." All He is asking is that you start believing and your faith will grow. You will draw closer to God as you read His Word. What I am trying to say is start believing God.

 

[Jonah2005]

I have said the payer, over, and over but I am still so unsure and still feel
dead inside. I will start to read to bible but a lot of it will make me really angry
so I will stop. I really want to get my faith back. I fell like this is hopeless.

-maire

In order to acknowledge GOD & Jesus Christ, we all also need to believe in GOD & in Jesus Christ. How can we have faith if we don't believe? So the question I would like to ask you is; Do you believe in GOD & in Jesus Christ? And if the answer is yes, then maybe try doing some Bible Studying with some one who knows a lot about the Bible. There are also, Bible tools that help out with Bible studying, books that you can find at your nearest Christian Store.

 

[marie_777]

Hey Guys thanks for replying to my post and it nice to know I am not alone
Diamarie
I sometimes believe and other times I don’t really know what to think.
I should read my bible more but it seems to be in vein.

-marie

 

[sunshine307]

marie, Reading God's Word is never in vain. Reading God's Word is an essential part of being a Christian - it is one way of God speaking to us and us learning more about Him. It's plain and simple, Jesus Christ died on the cross for you, and rose again the third day. You have to make a choice - to either choose God or reject Him, there is no in between.

 

[sweetangel]

heloo,

I just want to encourage you , keep praying all the time and keep reading the bible, coz this is the game of Satan, he wants u to get back to him and leave the grace and joy with god... when u r praying ask lord to protect you in his blood from satan plan

god bless you

 

[BlssdInTheCity]

Surrender

Marie I know I know I know exactly how you feel, I felt like that for years. When I finally let go of my backslidden life I lived as a christian for a while and then something bad happened in my life and I went right back to sinning ..and I began to question whether or not I was ever saved. I began to doubt and it was a scary thing to go through. I felt like I would never truly be saved and everything in the bible looked as if it contradicted itself and I always secretly questioned God's motives for a lot of things. But one day God revealed to me that I was approaching christianity wrong. I learned to surrender my life to him and truly submit to his will and everything begin to fall in place. He is still revealing things to me in the bible that i never understood, and he's showing me answers to things I had questioned for years. Just be honest with God on how you feel ..a lot of the things that makes you angry, he may just feel you're not ready for the revelation yet. Just be patient and let him guide you. ...Just my input based on what brought me out of doubt. ...oh and dont forget to call Satan a liar I will pray for you

 

[ccansl]

Dear Marie,
I think we have all gone through times of questioning and bad feelings. Here is a short summary of things that helped me:
- First of all, realize that feelings are not fact and thus cannot be allowed
to dominate your life. For example, I sometimes feel angry but I have learned to put things in perspective. I am more blessed than it sometimes feels.
- The Old Testament prophecies are solid proof of God's message and love for us. They are listed elsewhere on this site - several hours of studying them
really solidified the life, mission and message of the Messiah (Jesus Christ) for me.
- I recently taught on worship in Sunday School and focused us on the perfect character of God. He does have a monopoly on love, joy, peace, patience..., He is rich and overflows. True worship is not burdensome but is
a rich appreciation of Who He is. God is a treasure and thus satan - the opposite- has nothing left to offer.
- Finally, since God's character is perfect and immutable I can rest assured in my salvation, knowing that it depends on Him and not on my feelings.

 

[lll3]

Marie,
It hurts me to hear you are going through this. I struggled with that same doubt for years. If you sincerely gave yourself to Jesus, He is yours and you are His. The devil absolutely hates your guts and he wants to cause whatever trouble he can to steal your joy. Tell God exactly how you feel and get real with Him. Lean on Him and ask Jesus to give you that rest He told us about. Everything will be OK. As soon as I post this I will pray for you until I know there is breakthrough.
Be blessed!

 

[SpiritLedEd]

I have said the payer, over, and over but I am still so unsure and still feel
dead inside. I will start to read to bible but a lot of it will make me really angry
so I will stop. I really want to get my faith back. I fell like this is hopeless.

-maire

Marie: I'm curious to learn what you have been reading in the Bible that
makes you angry. That information might provide the key to solving your problem.

I would suggest that you meditate on Romans 3: 21-24 where Paul talks about the salvation that is freely given to us.


SLE

 

[Sucat]

Let me tell you how I got saved.

Hey Marie, I just want you to know how much I care about you.

I, being raised in a Christian atmosphere, have always been told how Christ died for sinners and that all we need to do is say a prayer and accept him into our lives---and there I'm saved! But...I wasn't.

Oh sure, I said a prayer, I believed---but there was nothing in my life. I was dead. No life was in me. My taste buds were dead. People would say, "Come taste the Honey...it's so sweet." But I tasted and there was no sweetness. "What--What," I whispered with silent sadness, "What does it mean really?"

So one day I happened upon a radio program explaining what sin was and how terrible Hell was.
They brought up the Ten Commandments. Have you ever lied? What does that make you? Are you aware that God says that all liars will have their part in the lake of fire? Have you ever stolen? The value of the article is irrelevant. Have you ever hated someone? God sees that as murder. Have you ever lusted? God sees that as adultery. Have you ever complained? That is the same as blasphemey.

When I saw that I was a lawbreaker---it broke my heart. I had true godly sorrow--2 Corinthians 7:9. I sinned against God and God alone. Then I repented---said sorry and turned from my wicked ways---and put my trust in Christ---who died for me on the cross---to save me from the wrath to come. I wasn't a fear-filled convert. Christ went through such measures to save me...I was a tear-filled convert. Having been a sinner all my life...He came off His throne and endured pain to pay the punishment that my sin rightly deserves. He died for me! Oh, yes, tears filled my eyes. I cried, "YOU-ARE-MY-SOUL'S desire! Where else could I go? To whom else could I turn?You saved me from myself."

Now, the Holy Spirit inside me convicts me when I'm falling asleep or when I sin. I fear failing God. That godly fear helps me not to back-slide. That is the Holy Spirit working inside me. Fearing being a hypocrite---that is what helps me to know that I'm saved. Also, having this Holy Spirit given fear gives me unspeakable JOY. It assures me that God is changing me. I have JOY in Christ. I taste the sweetness. I didn't have fear getting saved. I had tears. But when you get saved God puts a godly fear in you to change you to Christ-likeness. God doesn't want you to just get saved and keep on living like the devil. He wants you to look to HIM and desire HIM and be changed like HIM. That's what gets me on fire for Christ. No more apathy. No more looking back.


Sucat

 

[SpiritLedEd]

Hey Marie, I just want you to know how much I care about you.

I, being raised in a Christian atmosphere, have always been told how Christ died for sinners and that all we need to do is say a prayer and accept him into our lives---and there I'm saved! But...I wasn't.

Oh sure, I said a prayer, I believed---but there was nothing in my life. I was dead. No life was in me. My taste buds were dead. People would say, "Come taste the Honey...it's so sweet." But I tasted and there was no sweetness. "What--What," I whispered with silent sadness, "What does it mean really?"

So one day I happened upon a radio program explaining what sin was and how terrible Hell was.
They brought up the Ten Commandments. Have you ever lied? What does that make you? Are you aware that God says that all liars will have their part in the lake of fire? Have you ever stolen? The value of the article is irrelevant. Have you ever hated someone? God sees that as murder. Have you ever lusted? God sees that as adultery. Have you ever complained? That is the same as blasphemey.

When I saw that I was a lawbreaker---it broke my heart. I had true godly sorrow--2 Corinthians 7:9. I sinned against God and God alone. Then I repented---said sorry and turned from my wicked ways---and put my trust in Christ---who died for me on the cross---to save me from the wrath to come. I wasn't a fear-filled convert. Christ went through such measures to save me...I was a tear-filled convert. Having been a sinner all my life...He came off His throne and endured pain to pay the punishment that my sin rightly deserves. He died for me! Oh, yes, tears filled my eyes. I cried, "YOU-ARE-MY-SOUL'S desire! Where else could I go? To whom else could I turn?You saved me from myself."

Now, the Holy Spirit inside me convicts me when I'm falling asleep or when I sin. I fear failing God. That godly fear helps me not to back-slide. That is the Holy Spirit working inside me. Fearing being a hypocrite---that is what helps me to know that I'm saved. Also, having this Holy Spirit given fear gives me unspeakable JOY. It assures me that God is changing me. I have JOY in Christ. I taste the sweetness. I didn't have fear getting saved. I had tears. But when you get saved God puts a godly fear in you to change you to Christ-likeness. God doesn't want you to just get saved and keep on living like the devil. He wants you to look to HIM and desire HIM and be changed like HIM. That's what gets me on fire for Christ. No more apathy. No more looking back.


Sucat

Sucat,

Thank you for your awesome testimony in your post. I would just like to add one point on the use of the word "fear".

I read in a study Bible that "fear" as it is used in Scripture most often means "reverential respect" as opposed to our everyday interpretation of the word.

Once again, thanks for the post.

SLE

Thanks again for the post.

 

[Yeshua]

Believe...

Be not double minded, believe what the LORD says and lean not on your feelings of doubt.

Come now, and let us reason together, saith the Lord: though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be as white as snow; though they be red like crimson, they shall be as wool. Isaiah 1:18

I have said the payer, over, and over but I am still so unsure and still feel
dead inside. I will start to read to bible but a lot of it will make me really angry
so I will stop. I really want to get my faith back. I fell like this is hopeless.
-maire

 

[Sucat]

Sucat,
Thank you for your awesome testimony in your post. I would just like to add one point on the use of the word "fear".
I read in a study Bible that "fear" as it is used in Scripture most often means "reverential respect" as opposed to our everyday interpretation of the word.
Once again, thanks for the post.
SLE
Thanks again for the post.

Thank you for clearing that up. It is a reverential respect or, in my own words, an intense love that hates to sin against God. Maybe I just meant that I fear failing the one I love--God!


Sucat

 

[Jonah2005]

I have said the payer, over, and over but I am still so unsure and still feel
dead inside. I will start to read to bible but a lot of it will make me really angry
so I will stop. I really want to get my faith back. I fell like this is hopeless.

-maire

Dear Marry, can you explain to me, why you feel this way? And why does it make you angry when you read the Bible? If you could explain to me - maybe then I can help you gain your faith back.

 

[pottershands]

Marie,
Thank you so much for your openess. I understand what you are saying. I have also been there. If you didn't read sucat's post please do. The information in it is a real lifesaver.
Marie, I would like to share something about myself that may help you. For 15 years I had false assurrance of my salvation. You see, I , like you, had believed in my mind in the Bible and it's contents, felt conviction in my heart and said "The Sinners Prayer". I had a few years of being excited about God, but then nothing. Looking back I see that I never really understood scripture when I read it or desired to read it. :embarasse
I didn't want to be in the House of God after those first few years, and I felt like all my infrequent prayers just hit the ceiling and fell back down on me. I lived in sin, all the while counting on the fact that I would go to Heavan one day because I had said a prayer and I was taught not to question my salvation.
I began to realize something was wrong with my relationship with the Lord, as you have also realized. I had been studying the true Gospel of Jesus Christ as presented by sucat earlier. I felt the Lord call out to me the same way He did 15 years before, but this time I felt Him ask me, "Are you willing to do anything for me?" I examined myself against the evidences given in the Bible to show we are true Christians and failed the test. (See the fruits of the Spirit vs. the sypmtoms of sinfullness in Gal 5:19-26) mg:
What I lacked was repentance. I didn't turn from my sins and to God because I didn't have Godly sorrow, just fear of Hell. When I saw myself through God's eyes according to His perfect standard of Holiness I saw myself for the wretched sinner I was. I was willing to follow Him and His ways even if I didn't wind up in Heavan one day. (I know I will, though!)
You see, the "Sinners prayer" isn't magic words that change you, and understanding the Gospel with your mind isn't enough. A change of the Spirit must come from a belief within your spirit, not your emotions or mind. A study of 1 John shows us what to look for in someone loves God or loves the world. Please consider studying it as it helped me tremendously!
You are in my prayers that God will give you conviction where needed and reassurrance where needed.
I thank God for you! :girl_hug:
Melissa