I need God ***TRIGGER WARNING***

[PreciousQueen]

I have been straying away from God. A lot of things have been happening to me in 2015. Earlier this year, I was kidnapped/sexually assaulted. I managed to get away and was picked up by my boyfriend. He did help me for a bit, then got tired of my inability to heal. He said I was too stressful. He raped me on Halloween. Ever since, I have been struggling with trust issues. It has been hard to cope with those events. Will you pray for my peace/coming back to God and his salvation?

 

[Christ4Ever]

@PREC
I will be praying for you Little Sister.
Not many would desire Salvation for the one who has done them wrong. That this happened to you by him and you still want him saved, speaks greatly of Christ in you!

Yet I'm sure that this has taught you much. You are precious to God as He is to you in Christ Jesus. If or when you find a man whom you love in the future. Make sure he is first a man of God who treasures His love of Christ Jesus, even above the love he would have for you. Just as I hope and pray that it would be the case for you with him. Christ first then him. Also, look to not just his words, but his actions as well. As you have found out there are many wolves out there who look to take advantage of those who call Jesus Lord and Savior.

When we put things of the world before the things of God, we will find ourselves in trouble or even straying from the things that God would want for us. Don't let this happen. Rededicate your life to getting closer to Him and not the world. Seek the things that are pleasing to God and you will find that your life becomes a joy, you'll be comforted, find peace, and the things that you seek will be found through the love He has for you.

So stay faithful, and pray much. As we will here.
YBIC
C4E
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Blessed [be] God, even the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies, and the God of all comfort; [4] Who comforteth us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God. 2 Corinthians 1:3-4

 

[PreciousQueen]

@PREC
I will be praying for you Little Sister.
Not many would desire Salvation for the one who has done them wrong. That this happened to you by him and you still want him saved, speaks greatly of Christ in you!

Yet I'm sure that this has taught you much. You are precious to God as He is to you in Christ Jesus. If or when you find a man whom you love in the future. Make sure he is first a man of God who treasures His love of Christ Jesus, even above the love he would have for you. Just as I hope and pray that it would be the case for you with him. Christ first then him. Also, look to not just his words, but his actions as well. As you have found out there are many wolves out there who look to take advantage of those who call Jesus Lord and Savior.

When we put things of the world before the things of God, we will find ourselves in trouble or even straying from the things that God would want for us. Don't let this happen. Rededicate your life to getting closer to Him and not the world. Seek the things that are pleasing to God and you will find that your life becomes a joy, you'll be comforted, find peace, and the things that you seek will be found through the love He has for you.

So stay faithful, and pray much. As we will here.
YBIC
C4E
<><

Blessed [be] God, even the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies, and the God of all comfort; [4] Who comforteth us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God. 2 Corinthians 1:3-4

Thanks again Christ4Ever. I am still very unhappy that I could pray throughout the entire relationship that he would really come to know Christ and not just say I know he exists, and it would end like this.
I do wish for that in the future. Right now, it will be hard with my newly developed trust issues.
I am trying to put God first. I was looking for a site to talk to people and hopefully "get back on my feet."

 

[Ceptor]

I haven't had the exact same experience, but I have had a very similar one and know the feelings and the pain.

You most certainly have my prayers. Incredibly sincere prayers. One thing I have learned about God, is that even though our suffering often seems unbearable, He has things for you that you couldn't imagine. He can and will wipe the pain and memories we endure daily away one day.

There aren't words that will fix things like this, but you are not alone and you will be in my thoughts, prayers and my heart. Time will help, and so will trying to read the Bible. God hurts when you hurt. I know these things aren't really words that will change feelings, but they are nevertheless true and maybe they will mean something some day in future thoughts or after new life events.

When the storms are the worst, and life was hell, I used to turn from God. One day, I decided He is the only true friend I had. He had never done me wrong, even though people had. Ever since then, with my own personal trust issues, God is the one I trust. Hell on earth or no hell.. God is my one true friend.

Maybe I am writing too much, but I know you will be ok if you will keep Jesus near. He suffered a horrible death for us. For you. He won't ever leave even when life is hell. He is there, and loves you. He hasn't left me either. I'm sick right now, and have been since I was a child, and can't get medication. Not even positive there is medication that will work. But I still trust Him. Not people, but I do trust in Him.

I will be praying a lot for you.

 

[PreciousQueen]

Thank you Ceptor. It does help to know that I am not alone and that God still does care about me.

 

[Ellie]

2015 was a very rough year for you! It is unbelievably difficult to see God in things that hurt so very much..... You are not alone. Words might just be words at this point in your healing. I could echo what others here have posted to you, but do not want to seem repetitive.

For now, just know that you are being covered in prayer, in many ways. And welcome to the thread. ((((hugs))))
Ellie

 

[PreciousQueen]

It was a rough year. Talking does help somewhat. I haven't been able to really speak to people in person. It does make me uncomfortable and I , now , have trust issues. I did come to this site hoping to find a way to completely trust and follow God again. There's a huge difference between secular and biblical support. (((Hugs)))

2015 was a very rough year for you! It is unbelievably difficult to see God in things that hurt so very much..... You are not alone. Words might just be words at this point in your healing. I could echo what others here have posted to you, but do not want to seem repetitive.

For now, just know that you are being covered in prayer, in many ways. And welcome to the thread. ((((hugs))))
Ellie

 

[margoeli]

I am praying for you! I once went through a situation similar, the Lord will heal. It is important that you find yourself a good community of Christians, and perhaps a private Christian counselor. Someone you feel safe sharing with. I will definitely be praying for you. I am so sorry that this has happened to you. Most importantly know that you are loved, God loves you and sent his only Son to die for you! There is hope and there are people out there that will care for you. The first step is the hardest. I will pray that the Lord will bring good strong Christian women into your life, to support you and uplift you, you don't have to do this alone.

 

[Brad Huber]

My mother was raped multiple times and it left a scar on her for many years. Its in many ways more terrible than being stabbed mulitple times. Know that God loves you and seeks your healing. Men cannot heal you of this trust issue through interaction, only time and the Lord can. You might want to see a counselor about this, or a pastor, both would help. I am glad to pray for you sister, sorry for your pain.

 

[Treymadd36]

I'm praying for you as well stand firm in the word of God the battle is already won in the name of Jesus

 

[Br. Bear]

Greetings @PreciousQueen

How are you? Please write and let us know how you are and please keep in touch with us.

Grace and Peace to you in Jesus name.

Bless you ....><>

 

[Jesus_is_LORD]

Keeping you in prayer my sister in Christ. May God continue to heal you like only you can.

Don't listen to the voice of the enemy who will try to blame you, it was not your fault.

 

[Hellomynameis___]

Hi Precious Queen. I am so sorry that you had to go through that. I have been through many traumas, and the only way for me to make sense of it, is to know that God is going to take that horrible experience and use it for good. You may not feel it now, but one day your going to be able to tell your story to someone that is experiencing that same pain. And the fact that you got through it, will be enough hope for them.
Feel free to message me, I would to chat with you, and be a support. I understand the trust issues. I've had them. I still have some. As years go by and you grow more in the Lord, the pain will diminish and God will make something beautiful out of it. I don't know if your a reader but there are some great books out there of people's testimonies that have survived something traumatic as you have. It has helped me greatly to know that I am not alone.