Stylez4Christ
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Hello everyone.
Hmmmmm…. How I’m going to start this, well I’ve been having a tough week and I’ve been praying to the LORD about being set free from what ever the problem I’m having and it getting a little out of hand right now, I’m also praying to be more spiritual as I use to be before and It is so hard to get back on a right track.
Well, for right now for some of you know or may have already know that I’m still having issues with my lustful nature or my masturbation habits that I hope I’m not offending anyone here by saying it but really from Sunday to now my flesh is gone out of control. I also got to tell you that last year on this mouth and I was not a Christian and is about to be one year in April 9 the day I got save and not have changes much on my habits accept from when I was a Christian for 4 week but when I first started to be Christian for 2 week or about 2 times I did fall but then after 4 weeks and from close to the end of July I did not have no problem like I was really set free from masturbation and I wish I was in that time because I did not had that masturbation issues and I could still remember march of last years that I was very very VERY lustful and it was out of hand but some how or some reason on April 9, 2006 when my second time going to that church that I go to right now really touch’s me because I know everybody who go to my church get touch from God and really I had that bi-sexual issue back in march of last year and it is trying to come back in my flesh right now because I usually fall into masturbation of every 1 to 3 week when I masturbate and now it started to be every 2 days and that is scary thought but I don’t know why is doing that but it is so hard and I know is because is the people who I’m hanging with in school but that why I did not had that problem that hold 3 mouths because I had a vacation in some point and even last July I fall back to that habits but that was the day that I left town I was going down south for one mouth so I’m must of have had meet somebody who had that habits.
And I repented this so many times like it is so crazy for right now. :embarasse
I also got to add that my thoughts are of control to, like I be hearing voice in my head that I’m not even saying it and it sound bad and also I get like day dream or some sort of vision and it bad to and I get anger also so my flesh is a bit to much right now and somebody please tell me what I should do to stop this mess!! And what really make it worse is that I don't live in a Christian family but a worldly house hold so that's one of it so its not just school I go to and my school is very worldly with 3,000 student in their.:shock:
Somebody please pray for me and keep to your prayer list because it sure dose look like I need a lot of that
Hmmmmm…. How I’m going to start this, well I’ve been having a tough week and I’ve been praying to the LORD about being set free from what ever the problem I’m having and it getting a little out of hand right now, I’m also praying to be more spiritual as I use to be before and It is so hard to get back on a right track.
Well, for right now for some of you know or may have already know that I’m still having issues with my lustful nature or my masturbation habits that I hope I’m not offending anyone here by saying it but really from Sunday to now my flesh is gone out of control. I also got to tell you that last year on this mouth and I was not a Christian and is about to be one year in April 9 the day I got save and not have changes much on my habits accept from when I was a Christian for 4 week but when I first started to be Christian for 2 week or about 2 times I did fall but then after 4 weeks and from close to the end of July I did not have no problem like I was really set free from masturbation and I wish I was in that time because I did not had that masturbation issues and I could still remember march of last years that I was very very VERY lustful and it was out of hand but some how or some reason on April 9, 2006 when my second time going to that church that I go to right now really touch’s me because I know everybody who go to my church get touch from God and really I had that bi-sexual issue back in march of last year and it is trying to come back in my flesh right now because I usually fall into masturbation of every 1 to 3 week when I masturbate and now it started to be every 2 days and that is scary thought but I don’t know why is doing that but it is so hard and I know is because is the people who I’m hanging with in school but that why I did not had that problem that hold 3 mouths because I had a vacation in some point and even last July I fall back to that habits but that was the day that I left town I was going down south for one mouth so I’m must of have had meet somebody who had that habits.
And I repented this so many times like it is so crazy for right now. :embarasse
I also got to add that my thoughts are of control to, like I be hearing voice in my head that I’m not even saying it and it sound bad and also I get like day dream or some sort of vision and it bad to and I get anger also so my flesh is a bit to much right now and somebody please tell me what I should do to stop this mess!! And what really make it worse is that I don't live in a Christian family but a worldly house hold so that's one of it so its not just school I go to and my school is very worldly with 3,000 student in their.:shock:
Somebody please pray for me and keep to your prayer list because it sure dose look like I need a lot of that
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