Sorry to hear of the death of your mother. I don't know, when my day of death will come. But I know when my day of everlasting life did came, when God did touch my heart and showed me the way to heaven! I don't know the days I will life on earth, I only know, that they are counted, but I know that my days in heaven are uncountable! I may go through rough hard times on earth, but sometimes I see the Glory of God still on earth, and I know the best part will come!And this joy is filling my heart. The joy of God is my strength and my power. With my God I can jump over walls! Just because I did allready die! Yes, I did die, 15 years ago! I did die when I met Jesus. The old Olli had to die in his sins, by repenting it to the God, but I did get the grand pardon in Jesus, because he took my punishment and my death, wich is the fair judgement for sin! Noone can exist infront of our holy God! Only in Jesus is it possible, he died for me. That's why I got everlasting life! And this is waiting for you too!
May God bless you and comfort you!
Shalom,
Safari-Olli