I'm probably going to try (something not acceptable soon)

[twcstp111]

I've been taking psychiatric drugs since I was young and I've had mood disturbances for most of my life. Truthfully, I've had more terrifying experiences come to me as a direct result of psychiatric medications than anything else, and I found little to help me apart from an amphetamine (Dexedrine). Since then, I've been stuck to the drug, trying to get to it however I could through doctors and psychiatrists despite the multitude of difficulties that came with the drug, because it helped me more then it didn't. I'd be on it for a couple years, go into crisis, and then I'd lose it--rinse and repeat. I'd be well off for a couple years, then wham, stress kicks my ass and I'm in the hospital. This has happened to me multiple times already, and now I'm coming face to face with my desperation and difficulty.

I've been thinking so frequently about buying street amphetamines (meth) and cleaning it up, using magnesium fillers to manage doses in milligrams, and to use it as needed for adhd and depression. Granted, I've had psychosis a couple of times already, and so that is a risk. However, the state that I'm in right now is not livable, but completely miserable. I've had major depression for over 15 years and nothing rid me of it. I will not also that I've never abused drugs and I have no intentions of doing so, but I've been living so desperately for so long and the only drug out of dozens which gave me some rest was an amphetamine.


I don't know how to get out of this. I don't know what to do. I do not feel good, but desperate and restless. I'm ready to go forward with this idea.

 

[Anthony Kyle]

Don't do meth dude. I understand you need something to help. I believe the plants and herbs that God created is here for medicine for us. Example, cannabis, it can be a extremely useful medicine. Yes people abuse it but when used properly as medicine it is extremely beneficial for certain people. I'm not sure what plant or herb would help you but start with all natural medicine . Man made meth is a killer. Diet also plays a very important role in our body. We're not suppose to eat fast food garbage, if you're not already, get on a good diet. Lots of fruits and veggies. And of course stay in prayer, God will provide a way.

 

[twcstp111]

Thanks.

I will be able to get through this.

 

[Mara]

I am sorry you going through such a hard time. I have zero experience with drugs legal and illegal, so I have no words of wisdom to offer in that regard. Better suffer with something you know, that get into an unkown that can possibly be much worse. Ask Jesus for wisdom and clarity. I would like to offer you some of the verse that are a confort to me. I am going thru a very hard time myself. Each of this verses were given to me by a different friend. I truly hope you can find peace. You shall be on my prayers friend.
-For I know the plans that I [a]have for you,’ declares the Lord, ‘plans for [b]prosperity and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope. (Jeremiah 29:11)
-You who [e]fear the Lord, trust in the Lord; He is their help and their shield. (Psalm 115:11)
-6 Do not [e]be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and pleading with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. 7 And the peace of God, which surpasses all [f]comprehension, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus.
8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is [g]lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, think about these things. 9 As for the things you have learned and received and heard and seen in me, practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you. (Philippians 4: 6-9)
-And we know that [q]God [r]causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose. (Romans 8:28)
-My soul, wait in silence for God alone,For my hope is from Him.6 He alone is my rock and my salvation,My refuge; I will not be shaken.7 My salvation and my glory rest on God;The rock of my strength, my refuge is in God.8 Trust in Him at all times, you people;Pour out your hearts before Him;God is a refuge for us. Selah (Psalm 62:5-8)
-and my fav
“Do not call to mind the former things,
Or consider things of the past.
19 Behold, I am going to do something new,
Now it will spring up;
Will you not be aware of it?
I will even make a roadway in the wilderness,
Rivers in the desert. (Isaiah 43:18-19)

 

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Here is a positive uplifting testimony from a sister in the Lord who was healed from depression by the power of God through the Holy Spirit
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Cheryl - delivered from depression - YouTube

 

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Healed of Depression - YouTube

 

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