In need of prayer

[T Man]

I have not been here for a long time, from the day I stopped talking to God, the day I refused to hear him talk back. I tried going to churches, but it failed me, the lies and weird ideas they had. No church and no God, I can tell ya, its not a life I wish on anyone. Not talking to God all this time is like being blind, I can try to learn to do it a different way, but seeing is better by far. How do I live? I don't I just exist, an empty life without God. I don't trust the bible anymore, nor God, nor church. How does one find the truth, churches only offer their version of the truth, but a version is not truth or is it?
These last few months, the dreams started again, God trying to talk to me again, I don't want the dreams I don't want to know, but I miss God, I miss our talks, I hate my life.
I need your help

 

[rizen1]

Grace and Peace T Man,

I miss God, I miss our talks, I hate my life.

Over the years I've learned the Almighty Creator is never far from us. We may think the distance between us and God is great but the problem have been, me walking in front of God. When I do this I cannot see him, I miss him and my navigation is off. When i turn around he is right there, never left my side. Patiently he walked behind me, waiting for me to turn around and say, " Lord you lead."

Hardest part is turning around, because you come face to face with every wrong turn you made.
I don't know you're personal life, but I wish you peace. I pray you find all the answers you seek.

Matthew 11:28-30
28 “Come to me, all of you who are ·tired [weary] and ·have heavy loads[overburdened; T heavy-laden] and I will give you rest. 29 ·Accept my teachings[L Take my yoke upon you] and learn from me, because I am gentle and humble in ·spirit [heart], and you will find rest for your ·lives [souls; Jer. 6:16]. 30 ·The burden that I ask you to accept [L …because my yoke] is easy; ·the load I give you to carry [L and my burden] is light.”

 

[Brad Huber]

If you seek Him with all your heart, you shall find him. And you cant find Him perfectly in an intellectually way, it must be by FAITH! There are two things God mostly wants you to do, love Him AND love your fellow man as He does. If you despise your fellow man and typically find fault with them constantly, its will anger God enough that it causes some separation.

 

[Fragrant Grace]

I have not been here for a long time, from the day I stopped talking to God, the day I refused to hear him talk back. I tried going to churches, but it failed me, the lies and weird ideas they had. No church and no God, I can tell ya, its not a life I wish on anyone. Not talking to God all this time is like being blind, I can try to learn to do it a different way, but seeing is better by far. How do I live? I don't I just exist, an empty life without God. I don't trust the bible anymore, nor God, nor church. How does one find the truth, churches only offer their version of the truth, but a version is not truth or is it?
These last few months, the dreams started again, God trying to talk to me again, I don't want the dreams I don't want to know, but I miss God, I miss our talks, I hate my life.
I need your help

@T Man

Despite the way that you feel.....I can say rejoicing.....

Praise the Lord!
It is wonderful to know that the Lord will never let you go....no matter how far you stray.
That you still hear His voice....calling you

You miss the Lord in your life.....and even more He misses fellowship with you
He wants to draw you back to Himself. He loves you.

Churches might lie, the world might put a different version on things, man twists the words of the Bible

But the word of God will never ever fail you.

Years ago I went through a period of backslidding.....I sunk into the most worldy behaviours imaginable.
My life was a terrible mess
And throughout that time the Lord's tender voice never left me.....wooing me back

Turning back from the world back into His loving arms was like returuning from the frozen cold into a beautiful warmth.

Don't give up T Man

The Lord is there for you.
He will never leave you or forsake you

He hath said, I will never leave thee
Hebrews 13:5

Come unto Me and I will give you rest
Matthew 11:28

 

[T Man]

I read this and I have tears running down my face. Still even though I hear this and I feel Him knocking on my door, I am afraid of Him, afraid because of leaving Him and afraid of what I have become out of Him, that He will see me as I am. Even though in a dream He said I care not what you were, nor what you are, but what you can become in me. I still have fear, because of what I am and its just a dream.

 

[amadeus2]

Welcome back, T Man! Don't sit there and feel sorry for yourself because you are not yet perhaps all that you can be, but rejoice because the Lord cares enough about you to reach out to you in spite of any failures. All of us have failed, but the answer for us is to never quit. Keep reaching out to Him even when you seem to be or to have been in the very lowest of pits. God sees us even if we really are way below where He wants to be. He won't give us up as unredeemable if we will trust Him.

 

[T Man]

God gave me a dream, I was a judge in a court room, I had a man in front of me who had broken the law. It was my job to make the judgment on this man after taking in all the facts and hearing the stories. Just when I was upset with this man for his crimes, I was ready to judge him and just before I made my judgment, this man looked up at me and to my shock it was me. I feel God is showing me not to judge others as I have done, I feel shame in this, yet happy that I saw my own errors.
Thank you guys for all you have said in your posts, it was like following water to me, I have a long way to go, but step by step I guess from this point on.
In love thanks