michelledan
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- Joined
- Mar 18, 2008
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I've settled, been hurt, through a divorce, endured trials...have finally got to the point in my life where I won't settle for less anymore, yet I think I'm humble enough to have reasonable expections of a spouse, but I'm really struggling with feeling like I'm not worthy of a godly man. Then I say, "perhaps God wants me single, so I'll focus on Him more." If that's the case, why won't He take this strong desire to have a lifelong companionship/husband away from me! People say I'm attractive, I'm a good woman, and my faith lifts them up.Then why can't I find a godly man? I'm getting angry over this. From the time I was 16 yrs old, that's all I ever wanted...was a husband. I don't want money. I've had it. It doesn't buy happiness. Happiness only comes from the Lord. I just want a husband, and perhaps someone who will love my son. I'm reading Job right now. In a lot of ways I feel like Job. I've lost a lot, but my relationship with God has only gotten stronger. I'm just really wish if God won't answer this prayer, that He'd take the desire away.