Jail and Freedom

[Katzie]

Brothers and Sisters,

I can't even put into words the peace, joy and blessings from God I have been experiencing ever since my daughter got drunk last Thursday, robbed me for the upteenth time, assaulted me for the last time(let's look at it that way) and I called the Police and she was arrested and charged with theft and assault based on the evidence the Police gathered.

Filing the restraining order and asking that the Judge not release her and set the bail high was for her protection as well as mine, my sons and innocent people. Her not being able to contact me is such a wonderful blessing from God.

I feel like because I finally listened to the Lord and stopped enabling her in any way and took away any chance she had of getting around things, He has blessed me abundantly, just in peace alone.

I look in the mirror and I no longer see someone who looks worn down and beat up, but I see someone who is glowing and filled with the Joy of the Lord and enjoying spending my time helping my son get on with his life.
I am able to help my mother more, help myself more, go to many more Church activities. It's like Paradise for me now. Such a burden has been lifted.

I also know that God will not fail her. She knows all she has to do is repent and get herself right with the Lord. She has a Bible, they have Church on Sundays. She'll get to go to N/A and A/A meetings and just maybe finally the Judge will order her into a Long Term Rehab. She will have to do some jail time for violating probation, but for the new charges her attorney said the Judge should order her into Rehab. since this will be her 4th time appearing before her.

Bottom line is brothers and sisters, I don't even have to concern myself with it. All I have to do is go to court June 3rd and make the restraining order permanent and that's that for me. Of course one day I would like to be able to exchange letters with her and I'm putting that in God's hands trusting when the time is right we will be able to do just that.

Last night I got my first full nights sleep 6 hours straight, no crazy waking up every half hour. My health is rejuvinating. After two years of not being able to tolerate food, now all of the sudden I am starving all the time and can eat anything without any stomach problems.

All, I can say is no matter how bleak things look, no matter how dark it seems to be all around you, no matter how beaten down you feel, if you have just an ounce of strength to give to the Lord and every bit of your trust for Him to help you.........HE WILL!!!!!!

Things may not happen they way you think, some of the most mysterious things may occur that never in your wildest dreams would you think, ok this is how the Lord is going to help me with this situation. It happens.

Dream On, Dream On, cause all your dreams will come true if you just believe in the one who Saved YOU!!!!!!!

Katzie

 

[Mike Scott]

Wow Katzie!!!!!!

Praise the Lord that He gave you the strength to say enough is enough. He has started a good works in you that He is going to take to completion. Their are many moms out there exactly like you with being abused. Continue to encourage them to show there is a way out.
Thanks from a son who had to see his mom abused many ways by dad. My mom woke up to the reality that this wasn't normal and the Lord had a better life for her.

Thanks again
Mike
aka grizzly for Christ.

 

[HeLovesYou]

Thank you sister Katzie, for the awesome praise update. The Lord tells us He will bring His children back to Him. Keep praying for her and leave her in the Lords hands and all will be well. Commendations on being strong enough to follow through with tough love on her. She probably hates you now for it, but in Heaven or hopefully sooner, she will admire you and thank you for it.

Blessings

 

[Katzie]

Mike and HeLovesYou,

Thank you so much for your replies. It really blesses my heart to read Mike that you had a mom who was able to stand up for what was right in the name of Jesus!!!!

HeLovesYou, she was never mine to begin with, only on loan from the Lord. I am so thankful that the Lord gave me everything I needed that day to do what I had to do to put her completely in God's hands and to once and for all completely let go of her precious hand.

Now, next Tuesday, the 3rd will be yet again another true test of my faith and dedication to our Lord. I must go to Court, see her there shackled and in her jail clothes and tell the Judge what happened and make the restraining order permanent. The Lord will be my lawyer, my companion, my encouragement and I will do this as I know this is what the Lord wants. He gave me many chances to try to fix things, my way. His patience with me was incredible, but now it's time and I can't wait to see all the great plans He has for her to bring her into the light completely. She will shine where ever she ends up and she will be a testimony to others about the Lord. I know this in Jesus Name!!!


She may or may not hate me at this point. I'm pretty sure she knows I saved her life doing what I did because she was going to go get herself as much Heroin as possible and that could have been her last day on this earth. I'm not really concerned about winning any popularity contests. I just want the Lord in charge of my family, always!!!!


Many Blesssings!!!
Katzie

 

[Mike Scott]

Well sister in Christ!

Thank you for your reply.
May our sweet Lord continue to be your strength. May He continue to place His legions of angels around you. May He give you deep and refreshing sleeps that have for so long not happened.
I pray for divine appointments for your daughter while in rehab/jail.
He loves her just as much as you and me so she is in good hands.
Lord willing, there will be a time when we can rejoice together of the returning of the parodical daughter.
I know if it wasn't for my moms faithful prayers, I would probably not be alive today and walking with the Lord.
So continue to pray in faith.

God Bless sister Katzie
Mike
aka grizzly for Christ

 

[Katzie]

The Lord works in mysterious ways. Today was my daughter's sentencing. I was not able to attend due to health problems. I was expecting a call from her attorney to at least let me know what went on. Never heard from him, heard from his secretary telling me the Judge gave her parole and she was being released.

So, I continue praying and praying and reading the word of God and this afternoon there was a strange noise at the front door and our dog starting barking a lot and I don't know why I didn't get up and go look, I think I was in the middle of reading a Psalm and didn't want to stop. Then all of the sudden I look up and there is my daughter standing at the edge of my bed. I thought I was seeing things.

She says to me "didn't they let you know they released me?" She said, I prayed non stop about today and I totally put it in the Lord's hands. The Judge DID order me to go to Rehab, but I have to get myself in. I have to do this and I want to do this myself to prove to you and everyone that I do want to be in the Rehab. If the Judge had just sent me and made all the arrangements then no one would ever know that I am the one who wants to go. She read me what she had written down to say to the Judge and she did tell him that she wanted to get herself into a program.

She knows if she messes up she's going to go to prison now. Honestly I really wanted the Judge to put her in the Rehab because for me it would have been easier. However, I must trust the Lord. For whatever reason, this is the way it went.

I ask for prayer for my daughter that she is able to get into a Rehab quickly and that this not turn into another round of her being rejected everywhere....which is why I wanted the Judge to put her in. She has tried for a long time, has been on many waiting lists and has not been able to get in anywhere.....yet. Maybe the difference is now she has put it in the Lord's hands. Only the Lord knows and His plan is perfect.

Please pray for me to stay strong in my faith. It's hard not to be a little scared, but I won't give into this. I just wish my body would listen to my mind because I have to admit I am feeling a lot worse now. I have Crohn's and it is very much affected by stress. No matter how much I pray and think positive I just can't seem to stop myself from getting sick and this makes me feel guilty. It's like I feel that I'm not being strong enough if I am feeling ill, but that's wrong for me to think that. Just because we are Christian, doesn't mean we are exempt from illness, so please pray for me to stop beating myself up about it.

God Bless all of you!!!!!!
Katzie

 

[R&R OutReach]

Some hope

Hello my dearest sister, I love your testimony now allow me some words of encouragment to you and your family. First know that the word says Seek ye the Kingdom of GOD first and His righteousness and all shall be added. It isn't until we except that; no matter what we go through that we must allow GOD to run our life. You see even our children need a testimony. My mom use to enable me during my time of addiction and as long as she did I wasn't getting better I was getting worse then she got involved with alon. I thank GOD that she did today I have almost 2years clean and sober. I have a Outreach ministry. I'm a licensed minister. I by all of this the grace of God have came to even about to open a Christian sobriety home my GOD what a mighty GOD we serve. Don't let the devil feed you with guilt or shame it doesn't come from GOD when you feel that. You did the right thing and if you ever want to talk or pray I'm there you can even e-mail me. God be the glory. God bless you.

 

[Mike Scott]

Brothers and Sisters,


All, I can say is no matter how bleak things look, no matter how dark it seems to be all around you, no matter how beaten down you feel, if you have just an ounce of strength to give to the Lord and every bit of your trust for Him to help you.........HE WILL!!!!!!

Things may not happen they way you think, some of the most mysterious things may occur that never in your wildest dreams would you think, ok this is how the Lord is going to help me with this situation. It happens.

Dream On, Dream On, cause all your dreams will come true if you just believe in the one who Saved YOU!!!!!!!

Katzie

Hello again sister Katzie

I've read your quote and now the statement from your daughter.

I know we serve a God who does miracles and wonders way beyond our understandings. So I will keep praying for His divine intervention for the miraculous way He is going to get your daughter not only in to rehab, but to the exact one that will best help your daughter. He wants only the best for her. I pray she will allow Him to touch her life and be changed.

May our good Lord take away your anzietys quickly and restore your rest and health.

Love ya sister Katzie

Mike
aka grizzly for Christ

 

[Katzie]

Thank you S. Ford and Mike!!!

Praise the Lord my daughter and I have been having a wonderful time in fellowship reading the Bible, sharing scriptures we love and praying. We went to Church this morning and it was wonderful. She really has rededicated herself to the Lord completely and is just filled with His spirit and people are coming up to her and asking for her. People are telling her they see a glowing spirit in her and want what she has and she has been helping everyone who asks with scriptures that she finds helpful to memorize. It is such a blessing.

Never in my wildest dreams did I think that she would turn away from sin and back to God in JAIL......they had Bible studies everynight. She was given a wonderful Bible in there, it's called "The Dedication Bible" and it has the 12 steps in it for people with substance abuse problems.

I love the Lord so much I can't even express it. At first when she returned I was a little afraid, but God kept telling me to Trust Him, that even if I couldn't trust her, I could Trust Him and wow.....the wonderful daughter that I raised as a Christian has returned.

Praise God for all that He does for us and that He can do things in ways we can't even imagine!!!!!

God Bless all of you!!!!!

Katzie

 

[Mike Scott]

All I can say is Praise the Lord and Amen sister.

May the good Lord put His seal upon the advancement that has been done. So that nothing will be taken back! Only going ahead in Jesus's name! Amen

Mike
aka grizzly for Christ.

 

[MiZZJuSTiFiED]

LOL! I saw the topic of this post before looking at who posted it and I thought, Wow Jail and Freedom, I can relate to that! Then I saw that my mother is the one who posted it. HAHA!

ANYWAYS, I am "Katzies" daughter Kelly. After my mom telling me about this website 100 million times I decided to join. So, I guess I'll fill whoever wants to hear my side of the story.

I had gotten clean yet again for the 10th time in April..
But, unfortunately I came out of the place and my mind still wasn't right. My thinking wasn't clear, my mind was all over the place, I wasn't at peace, I was so insecure, I had many issues, I just was not at a good place, and I didn't have God in my heart the way I do now.. so I ended up relapsing on May 22nd on alcohol because my disease talks to me and tells me, well you're not doing dope or coke, you can just have a couple drinks, who cares? But, I can't do any of that, cuz the pattern of me drinking = arrests! So, yeah, I got drunk, came home, caused a big fight, and then I got the idea of, you know what, F IT, I'm going to do dope, robbed my mothers purse yet again, and then I really don't remember what happened, I was hammered. All I know is I got picked up by the cops and I woke up in County Jail booking the next morning like, "oh man.. what did I DO???"

I sat in that cell and looked at the paper work and I saw "Assault and Theft" and then I saw that I had a restraining order and I was like OH WOW! I couldn't believe it. I was like, wow they really are mad! But, I was like you know what, I need it man, cuz it wasn't working on the outside for me, God puts you where you need to be. I knew it from the day I got thrown in jail, I wasn't bitter at all. And as I was in that jail, I started to read the word and was trying to do things to change myself, like not gossip, because everyone in jail just gossips and talks about drugs all day long, so I tried not to do that. But, this jail I was in, was a jail I've been in a couple times, so I'm comfortable there, it's like a camp there really. You don't suffer much, ya know..at least I don't anyways, I know tons of the CO's, I have ways of getting special favors, etc etc.. But, on May 30th, I got sent to another county jail because I had other court matters going on in another county. And boy! I never was in this jail before and it was the worst experience in my life. First of all, I was put in a Maximum security pod for the first week, so I'm in there with murders/manslaughter/etc.. people who have been down to state prison a couple times, people who are going to state prison, people who are MISERABLE and hate life and everyone who crosses their path, ya know. And as much as people don't want to think racism is in this world, it is, and in jail it's the opposite, it's blacks against white. And I was one of the few white girls and very out numbered. And everyday, they would mess with the few white girls, including me. I had hot water thrown at me, they would try to take my tray, they threatened to cut my hair off to make a weave out of it, they took this one girl who mouthed off to them and drowned her face in the dirty toliet and messed her face up something nice. It's crazy too because on the outside, all I hung out with on the streets was black people so I was totally not used to be treated like **** by black people, usually everything is cool, so this was crazy to me! So, my first lesson God showed me was humility. I have had an anger problem MY WHOLE LIFE. The old me would have FLIPPED out, I don't care who you are, how many of them are there, I will fight you all. That was my attitude, but this time around, I just sucked it up and shut up. Then finally the jail realized that I was in the wrong pod, and there was an empty pod that was just being done getting painted, and they took girls from all different pods and put them in this pod, and I felt like God hand picked us all. Because every girl that came into that pod was about recovery and God. Everyday we'd have people from Church come and have bible study, and when we'd all pray, the Spirit would be so strong in there, people falling to the ground, speaking in tongues, ya know, really feeling it!

This one lady would come up to me every night and want to read the Bible with me and told me that she thinks I'm very spiritual and she see's a real Godly light in me, etc etc and I was really blown away by that, ya know. So, as my time in that pod went on and prayer and meditation continued, the transformation was happening. Also, there was a book there called "Your self, Your father" which is a book about how your relationship with your father affects you, and your relationship with other people and it totally described a lot of things in my life and really put things in perspective and I feel like if nothing else I'm thankful God sent me to that jail just to read that book because it's totally freed me from a lot of pain I carried about my father and freed me from a lot of insecurities and the BS I used to carry about myself.

So yeah, I'm home now and I'm waiting to get into a program and I'm excited to get into a program because I want to work on these character defects of mine so I can conquer this addiction and just go on with my life already. But, I do notice a change within myself and it is only because of God. My whole life I've had low or no self esteem, always thought I was nothing, and ugly, and this and that, and now I know that I'm not and I think I'm pretty cool actually and also I used to feel that I needed a man to validate my feelings or make me feel better about myself and I don't need that anymore at all and that is blessing in itself because the last thing I need right now is a man/relationship. I need a relationship with God and I need to get to know myself, that's it.

So anyways, thanks for reading my story and anything is possible with prayer and if you truly believe and that's what I did. I didn't pray with half doubting thoughts like "Oh jeez, ya know, I HOPEEEE God does this, I HOPEEEE God helps me" I prayed like "God, I KNOW you're going to help me, and I know you're going to free me." I knew He would, He didn't want me to live like that!! I also didn't pray for things I wanted.. like I wasn't sitting in jail praying to get bailed out, or praying for the judge to rule this or that, I was praying for God to do what is in His will and to give me to the strength to be able to handle whatever outcome it was. And that's all you can do, is follow His will and pray with true belief, true faith and He will give it to you, I know for a fact now.

 

[R&R OutReach]

Just a little hope

Hello my sista' my name is Suprina, I read your testimony. I want you to know that I am African American. I'm sorry about what you had to go through. I'd like to share this I'm in recovery and now I have a outreach ministry. I went through the prison system alot different than jail. The racism is deep. I didn't worry about that, but what I did feel sad about is how I hurt my family. I hear you speak about the racism but what about what we as addicts and alcoholics do to our familys. In some since we are prejudice as addicts we only like people who use. I've learned that in today's world we really do need JESUS now more than ever. God allowed you to do what you did and he heard your mothers prayers. Learn to enjoy your mom,your family you only got one. If for any reason you feel like using e-mail me and I'll send you my number. I know what your feeling. I pray for increase of knowledge of GOD and His word for your life. Be strong and encouraged. I'm glad your home now my sista may GOD shine down on you and your family. I send this with alot of love. Be blessed