Just a little prayer request...actually its quite big

[morethandiamonds]

In case some of you don't know, I used to be known as Cricket. Anyways, as alot of you know, starting in May I went through alot the past few months. Everything is wonderful now, by the grace of God. The strange thing is, I don't really remember much about the things that happened. Well, the past few weeks, even stranger things are happening. I am having dreams of being in the hospital, I'll be sitting there thinking and all of a sudden a thought about being in the hospital pops into my head. I asked my mother, "Did this happen or did that happen?" and she will ask me if I'm just now remembering these things. It has gotten to the point that I am kinda stressed out a bit. A couple weeks ago, I started losing my hair a bit. I know that alot of women do this, but it is getting to the point that when I part my hair, you can see my scalp!mg: This is starting to scare me. My dialysis center wants me to go see a counselor. The social worker says that when I got sick, it was like my body went into auto pilot and because of that, I experienced a sort of memory loss. Now, because it's all over, my body is like in shell shock and I am experiencing a sort of post traumatic stress. Above all of this, I can't seem to read the Bible. I sit there, with it open, and nothing seems to speak to me. On top of that, my prayer life is struggling. The whole time I was going through my trials, I questioned God. I know that is normal, but I feel ashamed for it. I keep feeling that I would have gotten through it quicker had I just shut my mouth and let God help me through it. I haven't prayed in tongues in months and months, and I miss that too. I know this is alot to chew on, but I feel like this is my church right now, and I need your support. Thank you in advance for any prayers that you lift up for me. God bless

 

[Faithful Son]

Hi morethandiamonds I bet you don't remember me, but I remember you!

I prayed for you as you went to hospital and through surgery, I'd like to share an experience I had about a year and a half ago, if I sound vague, excuse me, but I don't want to share the whole experience as it has a negative impact on people.

About a year and a half ago, something happened to me pshychologically, I was in severe pain and I had stress that I had never had. I had a pshychological break and was hospitalized for 2 weeks, including 3 days in another hospital. I am only 22 years old. That's the short version.

Since my experience last year I have had the worst memory ever, I felt closer to God, unlike you, but I have also forgotten everything that happened. There's about a six month period of my life I have forgotten.

I have learned to cope, I truly live day by day. I don't think in the least, most slightest way about yesterday or tomorrow, I do have stress about future events, but I don't think about them. Ask God to help you, whatever you feel like you need. I asked for my memory retention back, I received some of it back, like pc's, I am good with computers, for about 2 months after I got back home, I was incable of using the computer like I always had, it frustrated me. That part is fixed, I am my old self on a pc again, not where I'd like to be yet, but it's improving.

I have no clear, concise advise to give you, except pray to Jesus, ask Him for what you need, He will give it to you, in due time.

I will pray for you. Keep well, keep strong, don't force yourself to do things, and just be content in God.

much love
teraside

 

[calluna]

Hi there Morethandiamonds, I remember you very well, we share the same interest in photography we both like taking photos of nature. And I kept you and your mom in prayer during all the surgery time and home recovery.

I want to praise the Lord for the courage and faith that you show, and what a testimony you are to God's love for His children. I give praises and thanks to the Lord, that you are alive, you survived and you are here. Let us all start with giving the Lord praises for His mercy grace and love.

I may not understand what it is like to have the problem you are now having. But our Almighty God knows everything, He knows you more than any of us. As we may know as Christians, we have to go through some trials, fire to purge us, and to refine us, so each day we can be more holy and be pure before our King.

Do not feel ashamed of the natural tendency that we all may have to question God. If you feel that you need to confess any sin, because of thoughts or attitudes, even if you do not remember things, make sure you are free from any burden, we all sin daily, but confession everyday brings us peace and freedom, to ask for our Lords forgiveness and cleansing of our hearts, brings us closer to Him.

The Lord gave me a scripture to give to you.

2Peter 1:13
"I think it is right to refresh your memory
as long as I live in the tent of this body"

None of us should forget the foundation our faith, where we started and how far we have yet to go. I would say go back to the book of 1John, His love letter to us all. If you do not seem to be able to read, why not listen to the Word of God on bible cd. Also listen to some praise music. I believe the Holy Spirit will rise up in you and your mind and spirit will be restored. Believe and Trust in Jesus.

You dear sister are an inspiration to us all, and have an incredible testimony for Jesus Christ. I will renew my prayers for you once again. May the Lord pour his spirit upon you and heal your mind and bring your body back into balance.

and :girl_hug: to you
your friend in Christ
Calluna

 

[Snowrose]

Hello Diamonds,

I am somewhat speechless and I am sorry to hear of the struggles that you have & are going through. I would like to say that I have appreciated your friendship (and still do) - you have always blessed my heart with your kindness. I just wanted to let you know that you will always be in my prayers and my heart. God bless you my dear friend. See around.

Love,
Snowrose