Let down, question my faith

[pinkangel44]

I had to go into hospital to have a gall bladder removed,my daughter came to stay to care for her son(whom i have care order for)she was good and did not worry to much about her odd behavior,after all a couple of weeks wouldn't harm plus give her a chance to be a mum again.The weeks went into months
and I'd several times mention about them returning home which my daughter got very angry so i left it.They told me they had no money,wanted me to take out a loan of £900(thankfully i didn't).I began to realize things were not right.I had worries concerning my daughters boyfriend whom would hide a bag when he come in.When he got arrested i questioned it.I was told it was over a cat.

Then last Friday it was my daughters birthday,we had a nice day and i said" she should go out in the evening to finish her day".That night i came across the bag in my grandsons bedroom and i probably was wrong to look inside but when i did i found syringes. I was horrified.When i questioned by phone they told me they found them and returning them to a chemist.They never came home so the next day i searched some more and found two more used syringes in my grandsons wardrobe,letters to say they had received benefits and the boyfriend was arrested for shop lifting.

I didn't know what to do so i turned to my family, neighbours and friends.I have sinned truly as thats a part of gossip and i realize i should of prayed on the situation.My vicar has asked me to meet her but i can't. I have so many mixed feelings but thank God my grandson wasn't harmed. I now question my faith as instead of turning to Christ i turned to people whom could make this situation worse.I ask myself Why? i get it so wrong plus i hate myself for what i have done.

 

[ladylovesJesus]

Dear sister

We all make mistakes and sin. When you sin, just confess as 1 John 1.9 says He forgives us our sins. You are not the only one who gets it wrong and goes to people instead of to God for help so do not beat yourself up about it. You were concerned and rightly so about the boyfriends behaviour. Seek God first as Matt.6.33 says. God loves you no matter what. Nothing you do or say will make Him love you any more or any less as God is love.

Father I pray that You will help my sister to draw close to You as You are waiting for that relationship that she had with you to be restored. Help her to see You love her. I pray that she will be led by Your Holy Spirit to make the right decisions and I pray that You will help her as she does her best in bringing up the grandson. Show her that You are merciful and gracious. Thank you that Your grace and mercies are new every day. I pray that she will grow in her walk with You and learn by listening to Your Word in Jesus' name amen.

God bless you

LLJ :rainbow: :rose:

 

[pinkangel44]

Thank you so much for your kind words and your prayer. These couple of days have been hard, being strong for my 4yr old grandson whom is full of questions i find differcult to answer.you have given me strength to keep going.God Bless you and thank you.