To anyone out there who may be hurting from sexual abuse. I am writing in hopes to encourage someone to take care of their need and bring forth this great pain.
You are not alone and if you haven't gone forth about being abused please do. Im not saying that it will be easy to do or that going through the process of police and family services, then court will be an experience you would want, but it is necessary.
I feel that it is necessary at this point in time to introduce myself. I am 16 and am about to become a high school senior. I am really rather quiet and dont say whats on my mind too often, but I care for people with such a capacity that its unexplainable. That is why I am coming forth today, I feel that since these things have happened I can do something about it and take this very thing that SATAN intended for harm and use it as a tool to help others find healing, acceptance, love and joy once again in the arms of the lord.
I have gone through 3 incidents with 2 not reported and one that has just ended. The two unreported happened when I was younger, one at age 7 and the other lasted from age 8 to 12, the third one happened when I was 13 1/2 and was done by someone I considered a father since mine was not around growing up.
All that has happened filled me with fear and hate, anger, low selfworth, and thoughts of suicide. I still think sometimes about suicide when the memories flood back, but I am stronger then that, just look how far I have come already. I wouldn't have made it these last 2 years if it wasn't for the christian friends that I reached out for or without GOD.
I will tell you about going to a cop, its not that bad. It took me two tries until i was able to get through the whole story. The officers were patient and very comforting. This is also how Family service workers were as well.
Court was ok, because I had my friend there with me and I knew that whatever happened she would be there to support me. AT the sentencing I read my victim impact statement and it was tough because my uncle the perpitrayer was only 5 feet away staring at me. I got through my statement and then he made a statement. He looked directly at me and in my eyes but I couldn't look at him so i turned my head away and he stopped. but gradually continued, what he said made me cry because I always though of him as a father and trusted him. I faced my friend on my left and a tear rolled down my face and that was the first time she had ever seen me cry, and we sat there letting the tears fall. Crying was something I dont do because i had it drilled into my head that it showed weakness and was bad so all I ever knew was to bottle up my emotions.
You can take hold of your future and your life once again, all you have to do is decided to do it.
You are not alone and if you haven't gone forth about being abused please do. Im not saying that it will be easy to do or that going through the process of police and family services, then court will be an experience you would want, but it is necessary.
I feel that it is necessary at this point in time to introduce myself. I am 16 and am about to become a high school senior. I am really rather quiet and dont say whats on my mind too often, but I care for people with such a capacity that its unexplainable. That is why I am coming forth today, I feel that since these things have happened I can do something about it and take this very thing that SATAN intended for harm and use it as a tool to help others find healing, acceptance, love and joy once again in the arms of the lord.
I have gone through 3 incidents with 2 not reported and one that has just ended. The two unreported happened when I was younger, one at age 7 and the other lasted from age 8 to 12, the third one happened when I was 13 1/2 and was done by someone I considered a father since mine was not around growing up.
All that has happened filled me with fear and hate, anger, low selfworth, and thoughts of suicide. I still think sometimes about suicide when the memories flood back, but I am stronger then that, just look how far I have come already. I wouldn't have made it these last 2 years if it wasn't for the christian friends that I reached out for or without GOD.
I will tell you about going to a cop, its not that bad. It took me two tries until i was able to get through the whole story. The officers were patient and very comforting. This is also how Family service workers were as well.
Court was ok, because I had my friend there with me and I knew that whatever happened she would be there to support me. AT the sentencing I read my victim impact statement and it was tough because my uncle the perpitrayer was only 5 feet away staring at me. I got through my statement and then he made a statement. He looked directly at me and in my eyes but I couldn't look at him so i turned my head away and he stopped. but gradually continued, what he said made me cry because I always though of him as a father and trusted him. I faced my friend on my left and a tear rolled down my face and that was the first time she had ever seen me cry, and we sat there letting the tears fall. Crying was something I dont do because i had it drilled into my head that it showed weakness and was bad so all I ever knew was to bottle up my emotions.
You can take hold of your future and your life once again, all you have to do is decided to do it.
Thank you for the courage of describing what you have to go through formally with police and courts and stuff. . .you really might make way for someone who doesnt know how to go about . . .great job! Thank you again 
