I feel so lonely. Sometimes I feel I can't take it any more.
I emigrated to NL when I was 17. I feel more or less at home, but often I feel 'different'. I feel I don't fit in. I think and act slightly differently because of my differing background. When people find out they often start to talk down to you thinking I'm stupid, or ask things about England etc. I wish they would just treat me as any other. On the other had I've been away from England so long that I don't belong there either. I'm completly estranged. I'm stuck some where inbetween in limbo.
I come from a broken home. My mother abused me and my father ignored me. He just wasn't there for me. I didn't have any more realtives. My in-laws don't have time for me.Mum-in-law is sweet but is now 80.
My hubby has these mood swings and has moment when he's silent and grumpy. The last bout was the worst ever. Where 6 months on now. I love him to bits but now I feel I don't want him 'back' cos it hurts too much. I can't keep on kissing and making up if he disapoints me.It's just like my father in the past. He just isn't there. He leaves lots of major decisions up to me. I feel like a single parent here. It's so hard having no-one to fall back on.
It's an impossible situation. Only the Father can provide the answer but at the moment He seems so far away too so I ask please pray for me as I hardly have the strength left to do so myself.. It's hard fighting this battle on my own.
I emigrated to NL when I was 17. I feel more or less at home, but often I feel 'different'. I feel I don't fit in. I think and act slightly differently because of my differing background. When people find out they often start to talk down to you thinking I'm stupid, or ask things about England etc. I wish they would just treat me as any other. On the other had I've been away from England so long that I don't belong there either. I'm completly estranged. I'm stuck some where inbetween in limbo.
I come from a broken home. My mother abused me and my father ignored me. He just wasn't there for me. I didn't have any more realtives. My in-laws don't have time for me.Mum-in-law is sweet but is now 80.
My hubby has these mood swings and has moment when he's silent and grumpy. The last bout was the worst ever. Where 6 months on now. I love him to bits but now I feel I don't want him 'back' cos it hurts too much. I can't keep on kissing and making up if he disapoints me.It's just like my father in the past. He just isn't there. He leaves lots of major decisions up to me. I feel like a single parent here. It's so hard having no-one to fall back on.
It's an impossible situation. Only the Father can provide the answer but at the moment He seems so far away too so I ask please pray for me as I hardly have the strength left to do so myself.. It's hard fighting this battle on my own.