sandygloria
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Looking Beyond the Servants Heart
September 15, 2012
I write this note to tell you, the reader, something I encountered… this might get really boring and dragging and might put your patience to a test but I am writing whatever I want to say… and with all your freewill, you can stop reading it just after this period. But,… if you will just give a little time reading this, then maybe, just maybe, you’ll get my point and we’ll agree with me or we’ll might talk it out over coffee (double shot espresso cappuccino and moist chocolate cake for me) to argue things and to hear your side of the issue, but as for me, I am going to exercise my right of expression. I am just being curious and bored and having someone or something to dig upon means LIBERATION…from fear of being dumbfounded all my glorious years. And here is the spoof…
I had the privilege of taking off dreadful days away from my mundane life, away from my dying malnourished plants that are left dependent on rain for water, away from the chaos of quarrelsome stray dogs and away from my serious personal concerns that includes my beloved F***, my F*** and my other F*** that are all important to me …( selfish huh?) and vacation is for free… jackpot! Anyone will grab it both hands widely open to grasp it. But for me, it just dropped on my lap like a gift from heaven. And it’s A-W-E-S-O-M-E… going somewhere for free, shaking-off some burden away from your back…it feels oh so good… and that’s just what I needed…
The trip was short and easy, we did not actually went to places that are exotic to stir up our adventurous side, nor went abroad for a grand vacation… we don’t have enough funds to do that for leisure, what we did was ride on a private car and drove 3 hrs to stay on somebody else’s house, of course me as the “great” chaperon… no biggies… I love just the way it is and I do certainly love being around trying to play “nanny” to a month old baby cousin… and I LOVE IT! What I really need is to get fresh air, new environment, and new perspective… (Char, not that I am lost… of course!).
We spent a week of lazy days in that house doing nothing but to sleep, watch movies, eat succulent sea foods, and laugh-out-loud on nonsense corny jokes, and give commentaries on the “teleseryes” and “news” aired all day. Everyone, has its own views regarding anything except of course for me who just sit there evaluating each ones opinion and digging deeper on each ones soul trying to understand what are those people really felt inside, I was there trying to mingle with them while looking through their eyes, looking for something that could satisfy my curiosity. I was there… scrutinizing every word spoken, every laughter shared, every blink of their eyes… trying to find a person within their soul that shared the same persona as mine… blissful but burdened, serene but troubled, overflowing but empty… happy but melancholic.
Of course the best part of it all was the feast we shared every day, an ordinary meal was transformed to a little feast by the hostess of the house which is very particular with the flatware, silverware and the chinaware used. The hostess serves the best of what her gourmet mind could create, and in fact, she does it astonishingly. But, apart from the foods and the goodies, one thing that captured my interest is the man who is a celebrated servant of God. It was an experience I couldn’t rub out my mind. It is because I saw something in him that triggers my spiritual dilemma and my recent emotional state. This respectable man, did nothing to me he knows but the truth is, he somehow answered certain points that transported me to a place of self worth and contentment.
One thing I learned was; we are in the place we are now because it’s where we grow best. There may be times when we choose to have it the other way but time will always tells us to find the very piece of our soul that completes us. It works like this, before time begun; everything in our lives was already set. The very reason of our existence was already determined; everything was placed in the right way to make our living easy... except that we are given our own will and freedom to choose which way to go. And the only thing that makes us contented with whom and what we are is when we happen to live and love the way we are created. And if we make a wrong turn, destiny will urge us to pick up our broken pieces and face life with new perspective until such time we will make amends with life and carry on with our living until we find the spot which makes us whole and alive. We will never be totally happy unless we learn to accept the reason behind our existence and we live the life of which we are created.
Another lesson learned was, great joy can be found in the simple things around us, a smile from a month old baby can lift up a burdened heart, a laughter from a simple acquaintance can light up an entire room, and a simple “hi” from a stranger is enough to make you feel loved and beautiful. Those where just a few joys of life that purely give your soul an ardent feeling of happiness. It adds color to your world that can’t be found elsewhere.
And lastly, there are no one who could hinder you to soar and reach your dreams except your own fears and disbelief. Success isn’t about reaching the finish line head first; it isn’t about who is on the top or who is the most famous among your contemporaries. The true success is when you realized that the race is not against who you think are your contemporaries but only to yourself. You can say that you are a success when you feel satisfied with what you have, it is when you have little but your happiness and contentment surpasses your ability to think of anything but your blessings.
CHEERS TO LIFE….
Sandy =)
September 15, 2012
I write this note to tell you, the reader, something I encountered… this might get really boring and dragging and might put your patience to a test but I am writing whatever I want to say… and with all your freewill, you can stop reading it just after this period. But,… if you will just give a little time reading this, then maybe, just maybe, you’ll get my point and we’ll agree with me or we’ll might talk it out over coffee (double shot espresso cappuccino and moist chocolate cake for me) to argue things and to hear your side of the issue, but as for me, I am going to exercise my right of expression. I am just being curious and bored and having someone or something to dig upon means LIBERATION…from fear of being dumbfounded all my glorious years. And here is the spoof…
I had the privilege of taking off dreadful days away from my mundane life, away from my dying malnourished plants that are left dependent on rain for water, away from the chaos of quarrelsome stray dogs and away from my serious personal concerns that includes my beloved F***, my F*** and my other F*** that are all important to me …( selfish huh?) and vacation is for free… jackpot! Anyone will grab it both hands widely open to grasp it. But for me, it just dropped on my lap like a gift from heaven. And it’s A-W-E-S-O-M-E… going somewhere for free, shaking-off some burden away from your back…it feels oh so good… and that’s just what I needed…
The trip was short and easy, we did not actually went to places that are exotic to stir up our adventurous side, nor went abroad for a grand vacation… we don’t have enough funds to do that for leisure, what we did was ride on a private car and drove 3 hrs to stay on somebody else’s house, of course me as the “great” chaperon… no biggies… I love just the way it is and I do certainly love being around trying to play “nanny” to a month old baby cousin… and I LOVE IT! What I really need is to get fresh air, new environment, and new perspective… (Char, not that I am lost… of course!).
We spent a week of lazy days in that house doing nothing but to sleep, watch movies, eat succulent sea foods, and laugh-out-loud on nonsense corny jokes, and give commentaries on the “teleseryes” and “news” aired all day. Everyone, has its own views regarding anything except of course for me who just sit there evaluating each ones opinion and digging deeper on each ones soul trying to understand what are those people really felt inside, I was there trying to mingle with them while looking through their eyes, looking for something that could satisfy my curiosity. I was there… scrutinizing every word spoken, every laughter shared, every blink of their eyes… trying to find a person within their soul that shared the same persona as mine… blissful but burdened, serene but troubled, overflowing but empty… happy but melancholic.
Of course the best part of it all was the feast we shared every day, an ordinary meal was transformed to a little feast by the hostess of the house which is very particular with the flatware, silverware and the chinaware used. The hostess serves the best of what her gourmet mind could create, and in fact, she does it astonishingly. But, apart from the foods and the goodies, one thing that captured my interest is the man who is a celebrated servant of God. It was an experience I couldn’t rub out my mind. It is because I saw something in him that triggers my spiritual dilemma and my recent emotional state. This respectable man, did nothing to me he knows but the truth is, he somehow answered certain points that transported me to a place of self worth and contentment.
One thing I learned was; we are in the place we are now because it’s where we grow best. There may be times when we choose to have it the other way but time will always tells us to find the very piece of our soul that completes us. It works like this, before time begun; everything in our lives was already set. The very reason of our existence was already determined; everything was placed in the right way to make our living easy... except that we are given our own will and freedom to choose which way to go. And the only thing that makes us contented with whom and what we are is when we happen to live and love the way we are created. And if we make a wrong turn, destiny will urge us to pick up our broken pieces and face life with new perspective until such time we will make amends with life and carry on with our living until we find the spot which makes us whole and alive. We will never be totally happy unless we learn to accept the reason behind our existence and we live the life of which we are created.
Another lesson learned was, great joy can be found in the simple things around us, a smile from a month old baby can lift up a burdened heart, a laughter from a simple acquaintance can light up an entire room, and a simple “hi” from a stranger is enough to make you feel loved and beautiful. Those where just a few joys of life that purely give your soul an ardent feeling of happiness. It adds color to your world that can’t be found elsewhere.
And lastly, there are no one who could hinder you to soar and reach your dreams except your own fears and disbelief. Success isn’t about reaching the finish line head first; it isn’t about who is on the top or who is the most famous among your contemporaries. The true success is when you realized that the race is not against who you think are your contemporaries but only to yourself. You can say that you are a success when you feel satisfied with what you have, it is when you have little but your happiness and contentment surpasses your ability to think of anything but your blessings.
CHEERS TO LIFE….
Sandy =)
