WantToKnowHim
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Good day everyone..
I have a very, VERY, serious problem in terms of my relations to my parents, especially to my mother and also my sister.
Note:I am here to point things my mother and my sister usually do to me. I absolutely has a bad side of the story, but I just want to elaborate my problems, so here it is.
They basically treat me as the most stupid person in our house. It is not that I am angry that I emphasized this. But it was what I could think they are thinking about me because of their treatment,and their painful words towards me.
My mother, since my childhood,was far away from me in terms of relations. My father was my favorite ( unfortunately I have favorites) because he never ceased to ignore nor scold me for my childish fears and problems. This favoritism of mine sparked more when I had panic attacks related to my childhood abuse. When I was having these irregular breathing my mother shouted things like telling me I was crazy and even asked me in a not-so-good way what my problem was. This leads me not to say things that she didn't know happened when she and my father is at work, and thus ruining more our relationship.
From that day I ignored her, and sometimes answered her back even I knew on some things that I was wrong. I can't control it anymore; it was like a habit. I knew that disrespecting your parents is a punishable deed and it almost require a capital punishment, but I really don't know how to end this.
And my sister also plays something in the part. Whenever I do things wrong, my sister will laugh so hard or scold me with a very loud voice (even in public) . I am 18 and I know I can make mistakes; but being publicly humiliated and being called an idiot in front of them is very painful. My mother also do things the same way, where on one incident that I was late on riding a public vehicle she reprimanded me so loud that all the people in the jeepney were laughing and looking at me.
Up to this day, somehow I knew my anger towards them is sleeping inside me, waiting for another bad moments with them. How can I tolerate them?
Any help?
I have a very, VERY, serious problem in terms of my relations to my parents, especially to my mother and also my sister.
Note:I am here to point things my mother and my sister usually do to me. I absolutely has a bad side of the story, but I just want to elaborate my problems, so here it is.
They basically treat me as the most stupid person in our house. It is not that I am angry that I emphasized this. But it was what I could think they are thinking about me because of their treatment,and their painful words towards me.
My mother, since my childhood,was far away from me in terms of relations. My father was my favorite ( unfortunately I have favorites) because he never ceased to ignore nor scold me for my childish fears and problems. This favoritism of mine sparked more when I had panic attacks related to my childhood abuse. When I was having these irregular breathing my mother shouted things like telling me I was crazy and even asked me in a not-so-good way what my problem was. This leads me not to say things that she didn't know happened when she and my father is at work, and thus ruining more our relationship.
From that day I ignored her, and sometimes answered her back even I knew on some things that I was wrong. I can't control it anymore; it was like a habit. I knew that disrespecting your parents is a punishable deed and it almost require a capital punishment, but I really don't know how to end this.
And my sister also plays something in the part. Whenever I do things wrong, my sister will laugh so hard or scold me with a very loud voice (even in public) . I am 18 and I know I can make mistakes; but being publicly humiliated and being called an idiot in front of them is very painful. My mother also do things the same way, where on one incident that I was late on riding a public vehicle she reprimanded me so loud that all the people in the jeepney were laughing and looking at me.
Up to this day, somehow I knew my anger towards them is sleeping inside me, waiting for another bad moments with them. How can I tolerate them?
Any help?
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