I am very worried about my oldest daughter. She is 10 and has ADHD. I think that there is more to it than this. She goes through fits of anger where she wants to hurt people and animals, and destroy things. Anything she can get her hands on. She recently used a razor to cut her hair, just grabbed a handful up front and, swipe, off it went. She doesn't even know why she did this, she says she just felt like it. I am afraid that it will lead to more.
This evening she went through one of her episodes where I have to restrain her so she won't hurt someone or herself, and we talked afterwards. She admitted to me that one of the reasons that she gets so mad at herself is that she will wake up in the middle of the night and have thoughts of going and getting a knife and using it to kill me. She told me, through her tears, that she never wants to because she loves me too much, but there is a "cold hard whisper" in her head telling her to. She says she doesn't know if it's coming from herself or not. She says that she also has thoughts of killing her sister, but instead of strangling her like "her voice" tells her to, she just pulls her hair or hits her.
I never knew that it was this serious, and I am calling the Mental Health Division on Monday morning to set an appointment. Until she is better, please keep her in your prayers. Please pray that she gets the right kind of help that she needs. I love my little girl, I don't want her to feel so angry and afraid.
Thank you all,
Ria
This evening she went through one of her episodes where I have to restrain her so she won't hurt someone or herself, and we talked afterwards. She admitted to me that one of the reasons that she gets so mad at herself is that she will wake up in the middle of the night and have thoughts of going and getting a knife and using it to kill me. She told me, through her tears, that she never wants to because she loves me too much, but there is a "cold hard whisper" in her head telling her to. She says she doesn't know if it's coming from herself or not. She says that she also has thoughts of killing her sister, but instead of strangling her like "her voice" tells her to, she just pulls her hair or hits her.
I never knew that it was this serious, and I am calling the Mental Health Division on Monday morning to set an appointment. Until she is better, please keep her in your prayers. Please pray that she gets the right kind of help that she needs. I love my little girl, I don't want her to feel so angry and afraid.
Thank you all,
Ria