JenaPatton
Member
- Joined
- Apr 3, 2007
- Messages
- 3
I am sure this is going to get long and I dont really know how to start or what to say, so im just going to start writing whats on my heart, i hope this all makes sense and as you are reading this I ask that you pray for the things you read, pray to god as your reading... thanks!
My husband and I have always had a rocky relationship even when we first met. We didnt have christ at the center at the beginning of our relationship. We knew all the things we were suppose to do. We knew how to get closer to jesus. Sometimes we tried but we always failed. We ended up having a beautiful baby together, however, we werent married at the time. After a month of being a family, we decided to get married. It was a quick descion, and a quick wedding. Now, I am left living with my inlaws and very frusterated. For awhile I had terrible feelings and thoughts. We have had a lot of ups in downs with jobs and schooling. Nothing so far has worked.
I have had my gmlipse of being on fire for jesus but nothing has ever sticked. I wasn't raised in a christian family home, infact my parents were alcoholichs and there is a lot of depression in my family. Right before Jack, (my son) was born, my brother, todd went through a terrible eposide and he was diagnosed with manic depression. Ontop of all this I have been struggling with food and exercise. I have never been able to lose weight the healthy way and keep it off.
However, recently, I have started getting back to my faith. About a week ago, around the time I joined, I have been getting right with God. I have been feeling better about myself and my marriage, it still is from perfect and my weight is from from being off. But I am starting to feel good again. Not feeling so terrible everytime I have put my head to my pillow. It truly is a wonderful thing how when we remain in our savior he will remain in us. That has been so evident in my heart. I felt God has been truly blessing me this week. I work with some great girls that are taking me under there wing. The past two days I have eaten healthy, and I went on a long walk with Jack today. I am trying to get my faith back and having an on fire relationship with jesus that reflects from the inside out.
Lastly, what I need prayer for is my career and deciding whether to go to school. I have never been good in school but when I graduated I thought I would go to college like everyone else. I didnt do poorly, but i wasn't doing great. I left school and ended up nannying for a wonderful family. But now I have moved and have a family. I love photography and would love to make a living doing it. I started working at JCPenny Portrait studios recently and really enjoy it. I want to do freelance work and just deciding if i should go to this really good photography school. It costs a lot of money. And It would be all loans. I am just afraid the outcome wont make a huge difference. I am at this point on my way to starting classes in 2 weeks but I am having serious doubts.
I know this is all a lot and only the funny part is its only this short story. Thanks for reading my prayer requests. If anything, please pray for my faith, my family, my life.
thank you, God bless,
Jena
My husband and I have always had a rocky relationship even when we first met. We didnt have christ at the center at the beginning of our relationship. We knew all the things we were suppose to do. We knew how to get closer to jesus. Sometimes we tried but we always failed. We ended up having a beautiful baby together, however, we werent married at the time. After a month of being a family, we decided to get married. It was a quick descion, and a quick wedding. Now, I am left living with my inlaws and very frusterated. For awhile I had terrible feelings and thoughts. We have had a lot of ups in downs with jobs and schooling. Nothing so far has worked.
I have had my gmlipse of being on fire for jesus but nothing has ever sticked. I wasn't raised in a christian family home, infact my parents were alcoholichs and there is a lot of depression in my family. Right before Jack, (my son) was born, my brother, todd went through a terrible eposide and he was diagnosed with manic depression. Ontop of all this I have been struggling with food and exercise. I have never been able to lose weight the healthy way and keep it off.
However, recently, I have started getting back to my faith. About a week ago, around the time I joined, I have been getting right with God. I have been feeling better about myself and my marriage, it still is from perfect and my weight is from from being off. But I am starting to feel good again. Not feeling so terrible everytime I have put my head to my pillow. It truly is a wonderful thing how when we remain in our savior he will remain in us. That has been so evident in my heart. I felt God has been truly blessing me this week. I work with some great girls that are taking me under there wing. The past two days I have eaten healthy, and I went on a long walk with Jack today. I am trying to get my faith back and having an on fire relationship with jesus that reflects from the inside out.
Lastly, what I need prayer for is my career and deciding whether to go to school. I have never been good in school but when I graduated I thought I would go to college like everyone else. I didnt do poorly, but i wasn't doing great. I left school and ended up nannying for a wonderful family. But now I have moved and have a family. I love photography and would love to make a living doing it. I started working at JCPenny Portrait studios recently and really enjoy it. I want to do freelance work and just deciding if i should go to this really good photography school. It costs a lot of money. And It would be all loans. I am just afraid the outcome wont make a huge difference. I am at this point on my way to starting classes in 2 weeks but I am having serious doubts.
I know this is all a lot and only the funny part is its only this short story. Thanks for reading my prayer requests. If anything, please pray for my faith, my family, my life.
thank you, God bless,
Jena
:rainbow: :rose:
