Deep3Sheep
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May I write you not just recent events with my mom, but little about her background?
Anyway...
My mom has a narcissistic mother herself. For me my grandmother is also very toxic and energy vampire in a way, although I still love her still. But I prefer not to speak to her daily over the phone, because you never know in what mood is she or what she is going to say next.
Anyway...
My mom as a child felt abandoned and abused by her mom. She was raised by her grandmother (fathers) side mostly. Her grandmothers sister was also helping to raise my mom.
As far as I can remember myself, she always told me all the hurt she went through with her mom. Her grandmother actually adopted her father, so they weren't actually related and when she got to know this, she felt even more alone.
Her grandmother held some sort of christian beliefs or values, they went to church, but all my mom sees that all the beliefs are for sheep because they are all fake in nature, all because she does not have any faith since she thinks then you are under mind control and brainwashed because she sees people who proclaim faith, but they aren't true christians. Those people are two faced.
As her grandmother said to those old ladies who came and worshiped an image of Jesus that they pray to God, but believe in Satan.
Same time her grandmother did some sort of witchcraft too, like with new moon she said and did something to remove moms salt wart permanently.
Anyway...
As you get it, my mom always has said- she is not a sheep and never will be!
Alongside with my grandmother, she has a new trigger- and it is me, because I am born again christian. She carelessly uses words like I am such a fool and stupid who does not think for herself who believes in something that does not exist, in her words the end time prophecy is pure fairytale. My experience with God is not real, I am crazy, he does not exist.
The Bible is made up by men so they can control you. She says!
When she hears the name Jesus Christ, she beats me!
I do see the spiritual warfare behind it, but you know. God has told me two things, He will not save her and He does not know such a smart person as I am.
When you are born again, you see things better and abstain from certain things to be more filled with the Holy Spirit. Even such thing as caffeine, but for my mom it is a trouble and she hates to drink coffee alone and is happy if someone else is going to drink coffee with her. She needs company! Yet she needs to be alone by herself. She is quite easily getting angry at me because of my changes.
She feels that I betrayed her and I do not care about her. I just love God with everything I have and I fear him, but my mom sees that I am stubborn in my life changes, I cannot be so stiff, like true to God.
I'd like to end this message with this that my moms friend saw she is healing now, because she opens up with her pain to many more souls. I see a never ending cycle what concerns her mom. She is not healing, but is more frustrated more than ever, because of her past with her mom and now the present problem is me, because I serve God not man. Yet I love my mom as well and am grateful for the gift of life she gave me.
Anyway...
My mom has a narcissistic mother herself. For me my grandmother is also very toxic and energy vampire in a way, although I still love her still. But I prefer not to speak to her daily over the phone, because you never know in what mood is she or what she is going to say next.
Anyway...
My mom as a child felt abandoned and abused by her mom. She was raised by her grandmother (fathers) side mostly. Her grandmothers sister was also helping to raise my mom.
As far as I can remember myself, she always told me all the hurt she went through with her mom. Her grandmother actually adopted her father, so they weren't actually related and when she got to know this, she felt even more alone.
Her grandmother held some sort of christian beliefs or values, they went to church, but all my mom sees that all the beliefs are for sheep because they are all fake in nature, all because she does not have any faith since she thinks then you are under mind control and brainwashed because she sees people who proclaim faith, but they aren't true christians. Those people are two faced.
As her grandmother said to those old ladies who came and worshiped an image of Jesus that they pray to God, but believe in Satan.
Same time her grandmother did some sort of witchcraft too, like with new moon she said and did something to remove moms salt wart permanently.
Anyway...
As you get it, my mom always has said- she is not a sheep and never will be!
Alongside with my grandmother, she has a new trigger- and it is me, because I am born again christian. She carelessly uses words like I am such a fool and stupid who does not think for herself who believes in something that does not exist, in her words the end time prophecy is pure fairytale. My experience with God is not real, I am crazy, he does not exist.
The Bible is made up by men so they can control you. She says!
When she hears the name Jesus Christ, she beats me!
I do see the spiritual warfare behind it, but you know. God has told me two things, He will not save her and He does not know such a smart person as I am.
When you are born again, you see things better and abstain from certain things to be more filled with the Holy Spirit. Even such thing as caffeine, but for my mom it is a trouble and she hates to drink coffee alone and is happy if someone else is going to drink coffee with her. She needs company! Yet she needs to be alone by herself. She is quite easily getting angry at me because of my changes.
She feels that I betrayed her and I do not care about her. I just love God with everything I have and I fear him, but my mom sees that I am stubborn in my life changes, I cannot be so stiff, like true to God.
I'd like to end this message with this that my moms friend saw she is healing now, because she opens up with her pain to many more souls. I see a never ending cycle what concerns her mom. She is not healing, but is more frustrated more than ever, because of her past with her mom and now the present problem is me, because I serve God not man. Yet I love my mom as well and am grateful for the gift of life she gave me.
