Furious_Love
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- Aug 23, 2005
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Testimony
Prior to the year 2000 - in 1995 I traveled to Border town to hear a preacher Randy Clark, I experienced another psychotic episode. In part of his sermon he stated he could smell sulphur on people who were possessed by demons. As I was psychotic I thought I was possessed which drove the episode deeper. After the sermon I went and lay in the middle of the road not fearing anything.
Since 1995 I have had 6 psychotic episodes; 2 episodes were spent in a psychiatric ward. In the year 2000 I experienced a psychotic episode on Boxing Day. I terrified my family not knowing what I was doing even knowing they were scared of me. I lost all reason. whilst watching a movie I vividly remember the television tell me you are going to die. I spent nearly a month in a psychiatric ward for my safety and my family. I was diagnosed with Bi-Polar and Schizoaffective disorder. Looking back over the years I can see traits I was Bi-Polar before my diagnosis.
August 2012 was my final admittance to a psych ward, this time when I was sleeping I awoke with fear a banshee had invaded my soul. Hence I was fearful I was going to die. The Mental Health Triage came to my house to hear what had happened. It was decided I be admitted to a psych ward. Seeing my wife crying as I left hurt me so much.
Back to the year 2000 is another chapter in my experience. For 3 years after the year 2000 I did not drink alcohol or take drugs. A close friend offered me alcohol and marijuana seeing how I was coping, I said yes I will give it a try. After smoking it I felt like it was a relief from my malaise. I took some more smoko and liked how I felt. I began to get hooked on alcohol and marijuana, the more I smoked the more I wanted it. Alcohol was a close second.
I came across Talk Jesus in August 24th 2005; I found the site so uplifting and full of love which caused me to join. I became an addict to alcohol and dope in 2003. I was a poor Christian because what I was doing to myself and family.
I believe I fell from grace hence the username fallen I used through my addictions. I remember when I was going out to get my drugs and alcohol there were sometimes tears as I went to get my fix.
My username fallen reflected how my life was headed with the drugs and alcohol.
I wish I could change my username but it is who I am now. I gave up dope 5 years ago and alcohol 2 years ago. I feel at ease knowing I am free from the scourge of my addictions.
I feel so free, free from what ailed me. God is good, He has protected me and my family. I feel close to God once more. I love seeing my wife happy once more, it is beautiful.
Blessings…
Prior to the year 2000 - in 1995 I traveled to Border town to hear a preacher Randy Clark, I experienced another psychotic episode. In part of his sermon he stated he could smell sulphur on people who were possessed by demons. As I was psychotic I thought I was possessed which drove the episode deeper. After the sermon I went and lay in the middle of the road not fearing anything.
Since 1995 I have had 6 psychotic episodes; 2 episodes were spent in a psychiatric ward. In the year 2000 I experienced a psychotic episode on Boxing Day. I terrified my family not knowing what I was doing even knowing they were scared of me. I lost all reason. whilst watching a movie I vividly remember the television tell me you are going to die. I spent nearly a month in a psychiatric ward for my safety and my family. I was diagnosed with Bi-Polar and Schizoaffective disorder. Looking back over the years I can see traits I was Bi-Polar before my diagnosis.
August 2012 was my final admittance to a psych ward, this time when I was sleeping I awoke with fear a banshee had invaded my soul. Hence I was fearful I was going to die. The Mental Health Triage came to my house to hear what had happened. It was decided I be admitted to a psych ward. Seeing my wife crying as I left hurt me so much.
Back to the year 2000 is another chapter in my experience. For 3 years after the year 2000 I did not drink alcohol or take drugs. A close friend offered me alcohol and marijuana seeing how I was coping, I said yes I will give it a try. After smoking it I felt like it was a relief from my malaise. I took some more smoko and liked how I felt. I began to get hooked on alcohol and marijuana, the more I smoked the more I wanted it. Alcohol was a close second.
I came across Talk Jesus in August 24th 2005; I found the site so uplifting and full of love which caused me to join. I became an addict to alcohol and dope in 2003. I was a poor Christian because what I was doing to myself and family.
I believe I fell from grace hence the username fallen I used through my addictions. I remember when I was going out to get my drugs and alcohol there were sometimes tears as I went to get my fix.
My username fallen reflected how my life was headed with the drugs and alcohol.
I wish I could change my username but it is who I am now. I gave up dope 5 years ago and alcohol 2 years ago. I feel at ease knowing I am free from the scourge of my addictions.
I feel so free, free from what ailed me. God is good, He has protected me and my family. I feel close to God once more. I love seeing my wife happy once more, it is beautiful.
Blessings…
