I am not entirely sure where to begin this post , so please forgive me if it goes on too long .
My journey has been a long one , but Im thankful that I have finally been set free through Jesus !!
I grew up in a not so religious home , although i spent my a few of my elementary school days in Catholic school through a voucher program . My parents wanted better for us kids I suppose and got us into the school , but usually did not go to church with us . ( we had to go to church to keep the program at the discounted rates )
I always knew there was God , but felt something missing from the relationship . Through most of my early teens I went to different types of churches looking for what was missing . I never did find it in any of them , through no fault of the Churches really . It was missing from myself . I knew nothing really of being saved and accepting Jesus as my saviour and into my heart .
I went through my life , feeling that missing thing and muddled through , pretty roughly at times .
I got married and divorced and remarried . I had 2 children . I moved a few times . I worked , all the normal stuff .
One day at work in early 2007 , we got a new manager at work . He was pretty cool and was genuinely a nice guy . Everyone enjoyed talking to him . I was talking to him one day about keeping an eye out for some of the Left Behind books that may come into our store . I had looked at these books a few times and passed them by , thinking "Oh these are just some Jesus books , wont be any good " I finally read the first one right before we were talking about them , and was shocked . I had no idea about anything to do with the book of revelation , or the rapture or being saved . I was talking to him about it , and found out he had been saved when he was about 19 . After that we pretty much talked every day , he was/ is so full of information . Thats when my journey really began towards walking with the Lord . I started looking stuff up on the internet , found this site and joined and began getting some of the information i was looking for all along . This is also when i really started having my life attacked by the enemy !!!
I wanted to be saved , but was scared at the same time . I had done and was still doing some things in my life, that i knew were wrong , but didnt really want to let go of . I felt like I had been too bad for the Lord to accept me . I figured there was no saving me ! Oh for once , im glad to have been wrong LOL
I kind of backed off of the Lord for awhile , and just went on about life . Still talking with my friend at work , but not doing much else . He started getting me more and more books to read , and a Bible and stuff like that , my husband was getting scared i was becoming some Jesus freak ! That made me back away some too .
We started having a hard time of things in every aspect of our lives , marriage , the kids , the bills , the house ! The enemy left nothing untouched , and attacked hard and strong , to keep me from accepting Jesus .
Ok i can see this post is already way longer than i wanted it to be , so ill try to sum it up faster LOL
My son got in trouble with the law , and is currently in a program run by the state . He just left a few weeks ago and will be there about a year .
My home has been foreclosed on , and will be up for sale at the end of November .
My husband left , and stated he did not want to work on our marriage anymore .
I was a mess , and in a big way ! I just had to find someone that could help me , and I did , Jesus .
I started coming back on to TJ , and making new friends and talking about the Word ! I learned so many things and came to my own conclusions about my life and Jesus . I finally accepted Jesus into my heart and life last month . I kept struggling with handing things over to Him though . Being a control freak I kept taking things back that i had handed to HIM already . Nothing was getting better , in fact I was making them worse , especially with my husband . The harder i pushed to save our marriage the more he grew angry !
I was talking in the chat room here one night , and was crying and soo upset , and i was being given the words to give it all up to the Lord . Not to worry but to let Him sort things out . I could no longer handle things on my own , I was so worn down , and weak emotionally and physically . I said ok i can not do this , Lord I am giving it to you today , and not taking it back , Your will will be done and i will accept it even if it isnt what i think i want . Give me the strength to get through whatever is coming in my path !
That was Friday night that just passed . Saturday I had to work , and i met my husband to drop off my daughter , and headed on to work . I was feeling a peace i had not yet experienced . At some point during the day a bracelet came into work , and on it was Proverbs 3:5-6 , Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him , and he will make your paths straight . I instantly felt this was the Lord sending me a message , to stay with the decision i had made , and continue to trust in Him . I got that bracelet and put it on right away !
On my way home from work to a lonely home , i had to stop for gas . I got a text message from my husband asking me if i was hungry and he invited me to come and eat . He told me he wanted to spend time with me . This was a complete turn around from where he had been . I went and we talked and he has never been so open with his feelings before . He was telling me all the things i had been saying to him before . He said that we COULD save our marriage , and that he wanted to try . It was just going to take time .
This was all the Lords doing .
Thank you Jesus , Praise God !!
I was awestruck ! Still am really LOL
My husband is still not at home , but he is sepnding a few nights here a week and we are going to take things slowly and work them out .
I pray daily , to give thanks and praise to the Lord , and for guidance to be the wife that the Lord wants me to be .
I love my husband , but I will put the Lord first now as I should have always done . He will make me a better wife , and through my actions i will also be able to bring my husband to the Lord .
so there in a not so short story is my testimony .
lol
Praise Jesus
The Lord is great , and through him ALL things are possible
Thank you Lord for all the many blessings I have received through you
Thank you for sending into my life friends and this site and all the things I needed to become Yours .
Amen
My journey has been a long one , but Im thankful that I have finally been set free through Jesus !!
I grew up in a not so religious home , although i spent my a few of my elementary school days in Catholic school through a voucher program . My parents wanted better for us kids I suppose and got us into the school , but usually did not go to church with us . ( we had to go to church to keep the program at the discounted rates )
I always knew there was God , but felt something missing from the relationship . Through most of my early teens I went to different types of churches looking for what was missing . I never did find it in any of them , through no fault of the Churches really . It was missing from myself . I knew nothing really of being saved and accepting Jesus as my saviour and into my heart .
I went through my life , feeling that missing thing and muddled through , pretty roughly at times .
I got married and divorced and remarried . I had 2 children . I moved a few times . I worked , all the normal stuff .
One day at work in early 2007 , we got a new manager at work . He was pretty cool and was genuinely a nice guy . Everyone enjoyed talking to him . I was talking to him one day about keeping an eye out for some of the Left Behind books that may come into our store . I had looked at these books a few times and passed them by , thinking "Oh these are just some Jesus books , wont be any good " I finally read the first one right before we were talking about them , and was shocked . I had no idea about anything to do with the book of revelation , or the rapture or being saved . I was talking to him about it , and found out he had been saved when he was about 19 . After that we pretty much talked every day , he was/ is so full of information . Thats when my journey really began towards walking with the Lord . I started looking stuff up on the internet , found this site and joined and began getting some of the information i was looking for all along . This is also when i really started having my life attacked by the enemy !!!
I wanted to be saved , but was scared at the same time . I had done and was still doing some things in my life, that i knew were wrong , but didnt really want to let go of . I felt like I had been too bad for the Lord to accept me . I figured there was no saving me ! Oh for once , im glad to have been wrong LOL
I kind of backed off of the Lord for awhile , and just went on about life . Still talking with my friend at work , but not doing much else . He started getting me more and more books to read , and a Bible and stuff like that , my husband was getting scared i was becoming some Jesus freak ! That made me back away some too .
We started having a hard time of things in every aspect of our lives , marriage , the kids , the bills , the house ! The enemy left nothing untouched , and attacked hard and strong , to keep me from accepting Jesus .
Ok i can see this post is already way longer than i wanted it to be , so ill try to sum it up faster LOL
My son got in trouble with the law , and is currently in a program run by the state . He just left a few weeks ago and will be there about a year .
My home has been foreclosed on , and will be up for sale at the end of November .
My husband left , and stated he did not want to work on our marriage anymore .
I was a mess , and in a big way ! I just had to find someone that could help me , and I did , Jesus .
I started coming back on to TJ , and making new friends and talking about the Word ! I learned so many things and came to my own conclusions about my life and Jesus . I finally accepted Jesus into my heart and life last month . I kept struggling with handing things over to Him though . Being a control freak I kept taking things back that i had handed to HIM already . Nothing was getting better , in fact I was making them worse , especially with my husband . The harder i pushed to save our marriage the more he grew angry !
I was talking in the chat room here one night , and was crying and soo upset , and i was being given the words to give it all up to the Lord . Not to worry but to let Him sort things out . I could no longer handle things on my own , I was so worn down , and weak emotionally and physically . I said ok i can not do this , Lord I am giving it to you today , and not taking it back , Your will will be done and i will accept it even if it isnt what i think i want . Give me the strength to get through whatever is coming in my path !
That was Friday night that just passed . Saturday I had to work , and i met my husband to drop off my daughter , and headed on to work . I was feeling a peace i had not yet experienced . At some point during the day a bracelet came into work , and on it was Proverbs 3:5-6 , Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him , and he will make your paths straight . I instantly felt this was the Lord sending me a message , to stay with the decision i had made , and continue to trust in Him . I got that bracelet and put it on right away !
On my way home from work to a lonely home , i had to stop for gas . I got a text message from my husband asking me if i was hungry and he invited me to come and eat . He told me he wanted to spend time with me . This was a complete turn around from where he had been . I went and we talked and he has never been so open with his feelings before . He was telling me all the things i had been saying to him before . He said that we COULD save our marriage , and that he wanted to try . It was just going to take time .
This was all the Lords doing .
Thank you Jesus , Praise God !!
I was awestruck ! Still am really LOL
My husband is still not at home , but he is sepnding a few nights here a week and we are going to take things slowly and work them out .
I pray daily , to give thanks and praise to the Lord , and for guidance to be the wife that the Lord wants me to be .
I love my husband , but I will put the Lord first now as I should have always done . He will make me a better wife , and through my actions i will also be able to bring my husband to the Lord .
so there in a not so short story is my testimony .
lol
Praise Jesus
The Lord is great , and through him ALL things are possible
Thank you Lord for all the many blessings I have received through you
Thank you for sending into my life friends and this site and all the things I needed to become Yours .
Amen
