c_lugz
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- Sep 8, 2015
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hi so I am going to be really honest and open my heart to whoever sees this ive been a born again Christian for going on 2 ish years god has done many amazing things in my life and this may sound silly but to me it sometimes I feel very desperate being alone I have heard it many times god is with me I know he is but these walk has been one of the hardest think I had to do I would love to have people on fire for Christ I can talk to and hang out with but I don't really so I know if I am alone with just Christ that should just matter cause god is everything but my bestfriend I don't even relly feel she is anymore I have distanice my self away from her because she is a hard core atheist so you can already see where I am going with and I feel like I cant really truly express myself and speak of god on my social media because every once in awhile she has something to say about it and it bothers me like for instance I liked and commented on a video on fb about how we are the only one that serve a real living god and every other god is false and it was speaking on how the ememy attacks the ones that follow Christ because he wants to destroy us and all and when I had got out of work I got like four or 3 messages saying her blood was boilng when I said amen and other stuff I felt so bad and I felt like wow I cant even speak about god and it bothers me because I should be unashame and those feelings are coming back of how I felt I was shaking when I was reading only one of the messages she had wrote and it hurt me because I cant be myself and I can speak of god and that's what I want to do so she was in ny and she moved by here to fl where I am at and we only hung out twice because I didn't want to be around her because that last time she was bringing up all these things that I didn't want to talk about and she was talk again about when the people at work that was an atheist and she love that or something idk her other friends a Christian in fact her other bestfriend is a Christian and I prayed to god about my friendship with her but I just don't get why im being attacked I know she has a stronger friendship with her other friend but I have been pushing this person away and I was so happy she told me she was moving to ny again but I didn't show it lord forgive me but idk I just want to have friends that respect me and don't attack me and I want to have people who are in Christ that are going to lift me up and that we can talk about god and normal stuff im kinda shaking writing this but id I just would trutly love prayer and friends that are in chirst that would reach out and it would be nice to have people to talk to well thank you if you did read this troughly It means a lot and I hope to hear from someone