I have a painful physical handicap that began hindering my mobility about ten years ago. I was hit by a car and it caused bone damage to my left leg. It is one of those injuries of which medicine says there is no cure and that it will continue to worsen. There have been times, some lengthy, some short bursts where God has miraculously lifted me and provided respite.
Lately though, it is markedly worse, and I have been unable to keep up my hope. I need a walker, and the pain is affecting my entire body. I'm living from strength to strength as God provides, but no sooner does one trial pass, than another simple task becomes a giant hurdle. I don't know if my discouragement is due to sin of not trusting God or if I am letting the devil get to me.
I also have felt that it should be enough to know that my nearby friends and fellow church members are praying for me. Recently though, I think God is nudging me to bring this as a prayer request to as many as possible. I almost feel ashamed to let show my cries about this. So many in the world have so much worse. I live alone, none of my family are nearby or saved, and they don't want to hear about Jesus as my one source of solace, so this is also wearing me down.
I get up each morning, praise God, and pray, but am still generally feeling no hope for my future. I know the scriptures to apply, but my spirit is blocked by physical pain. I have lost access to the assurance that God could accomplish a miracle healing at any moment or will provide the way out.
Thank you for reading this long explanation for a simple prayer request, and for your prayer as the Holy Spirit leads. I have tears of gratitude that God has opened the door for me to trust and share with you-all as my true family in Him.
Gratefully in Christ
To Christ
Lately though, it is markedly worse, and I have been unable to keep up my hope. I need a walker, and the pain is affecting my entire body. I'm living from strength to strength as God provides, but no sooner does one trial pass, than another simple task becomes a giant hurdle. I don't know if my discouragement is due to sin of not trusting God or if I am letting the devil get to me.
I also have felt that it should be enough to know that my nearby friends and fellow church members are praying for me. Recently though, I think God is nudging me to bring this as a prayer request to as many as possible. I almost feel ashamed to let show my cries about this. So many in the world have so much worse. I live alone, none of my family are nearby or saved, and they don't want to hear about Jesus as my one source of solace, so this is also wearing me down.
I get up each morning, praise God, and pray, but am still generally feeling no hope for my future. I know the scriptures to apply, but my spirit is blocked by physical pain. I have lost access to the assurance that God could accomplish a miracle healing at any moment or will provide the way out.
Thank you for reading this long explanation for a simple prayer request, and for your prayer as the Holy Spirit leads. I have tears of gratitude that God has opened the door for me to trust and share with you-all as my true family in Him.
Gratefully in Christ
To Christ