Hello! I am a preachers daughter in need of some christian guidance. First, I would like to clearly state that I love my God, he is a wonderful friend and savior to me. However, having grown up in the church for 25 years, my father being the pastor, my mom the secretary and pianist...I have such a bad taste of what the "church" is all about. Let me give you an example of my confusion/frustration...My father's church/my old church (I now no longer go to a church although do teach at a Christian school)...anyway, my old church taught Holiness...being able to say no to sin EVERYTIME you are tempted...Having the freewill to say no to everything Satan throws at us. Being Pure infront of our Savior...They taught being "saved"...however, I rarely saw any of these so called Holy people really living like they believe they can live...Holy. I may have lost some of you by now but for those who are following I am truly confused about living a Holy life...I really don't think it is obtainable...I don't know if people just convince themselves into this state of mind, but I really have never met someone who is Holy as God is Holy...the reason I say that is b/c I have been referred back to the Bible when God says "be ye holy as I am holy" but is that truly possible to do? I mean can someone really say no to sin EVERYTIME they are tempted. I don't believe so. I think we all sin, we all have our struggles and when we overcome one we just end up aquiring a new struggle...it is life. I once questioned an evangalist about this holiness way of life...being "sanctified" as I have been brought up to know it. I asked him if he is holy, he said yes...my life is placed wholly in God's hands...we talked a few more minutes and then he got up to preach...the music had been true worship to God and you could just feel the Holy Spirit in the air...then he gets up, this man who 15mins before just said God has everything...and he broke the spirit of God up by advertising his CDS and Books he had to sell....I thought to myself, if he really trusts God with his life...why can't he trust him to sell CDS?! I guess these are the things that baffle me as a young Christian...I mean why is that the church spends so much time getting the word yet not sharing it with those who need to hear it...I hear people say after church.."I really didn't get much out of the service today..." as if we go to church for ourselves....I guess I thought we go to church to WORSHIP God...not making ourselves feel better....It seems that every church is so worried about activities and music styles...WHAT ABOUT THE LOST? I mean what are we doing to reach them, not the overfeed Christians that take in the services and leave doing nothing with it...but they are HOLY??? I am really being honest when i say the world isn't turning me away from the church...it is the church people that make me want to never come back...
Believe me when I say in college I was a server at a local restaurant and do you know who severs hate most to serve??? You guessed it, the Church-goer-christian....I cannot even begin to count the sunday's I waited on the Family that just stopped in after church and in just hearing their conversation it almost 100% of the time went something like this.."can you believe what so-in-so wore today...her skirt was way too short..." or "Did you hear what so-in-so sang for special...he should have practiced more...it was horrible" and personal favorite..."Did you know that so-in-so asked for prayer today for her marriage...I bet they end up divorced." And to top it all off...they NEVER leave good tips, I used to joke with my fellow servers saying..."they only give their God 10% what did you think they would leave you?" I guess I just know what a Wonderful God I serve, I want to make HIM happy not vise versa...i want to worship him with my life, being honest that I am never going to be perfect...that I do mess up, and sometimes they are biggies...but that I want to make him happy...I am just really confused...Can anyone help?
Believe me when I say in college I was a server at a local restaurant and do you know who severs hate most to serve??? You guessed it, the Church-goer-christian....I cannot even begin to count the sunday's I waited on the Family that just stopped in after church and in just hearing their conversation it almost 100% of the time went something like this.."can you believe what so-in-so wore today...her skirt was way too short..." or "Did you hear what so-in-so sang for special...he should have practiced more...it was horrible" and personal favorite..."Did you know that so-in-so asked for prayer today for her marriage...I bet they end up divorced." And to top it all off...they NEVER leave good tips, I used to joke with my fellow servers saying..."they only give their God 10% what did you think they would leave you?" I guess I just know what a Wonderful God I serve, I want to make HIM happy not vise versa...i want to worship him with my life, being honest that I am never going to be perfect...that I do mess up, and sometimes they are biggies...but that I want to make him happy...I am just really confused...Can anyone help?