Hi Me25, I'm really really pleased you've got a career starting. Well done, atta girl!!
The Christian message is all about clean sheets. A clean sheet isn't about ripping up and starting again, it's about saying to God, 'I've mucked up my life, can you please take over?' You need to follow a different path, look for Jesus, He said: “I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me." John 14:6 NKJV.
You see God is in control of your life, But if you're a Christian, you're working with Him, not against Him. Together you can become an amazing force, He can do wonderful things for you and with you. Wonderful for both you and your sweet daughter.
You need to make sure you have a constant line of communication to God through prayer. What God really wants from you is for you to love Him, and to talk to Him like He's your best mate who you were at school together with, because actually He is. Tell Him you love Him because........... Yes, He loves you to ask Him for what you want but let your prayers be much more than just that. After each prayer take time to stop, meditate and think, it's at these moments that God will speak to you through your own thoughts. That's the Holy Spirit, in your head, a go between, between you and God.
Read your Bible. I recommend an app called YouVersion, it's a Bible on your phone or tablet. It's got dozens of different versions, the NIV is a popular one. There's also reading plans for you to follow.
Something else, make sure you go to a really good church with a good pastoral facility. Ask the vicar, pastor, minister if he/she can put you in touch with someone who lives near you who can befriend and support you?
Given all that, God through His Holy Spirit can correct the focus in your life to the two things that are vitally important to her, you and her sweet, gorgeous little daughter. You dear Lord can make all things right, you can bring everything together and into your perfect will., dear God.
From reading your post, rightly or wrongly I'm thinking there's a lot of petty bad things happened to you in the last few years? Poor you. If you want to share more, more of us can pray for you. If instead you'd prefer someone to talk to someone one2one PM me and I'll start the ball rolling.
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Dear Lord God,
We each one of us, no exceptions, started off with a bad choice, a rebellion against you Lord, that was leading each of us to our death, and so you intervened by sending your son Jesus to die in our place and then you called us, each of us under your wing into the safety and love of your caress. Lord thank you for that sacrifice that demonstrates just how much you love us.
Dear Lord, I pray for my sweet sister M25me, thank you God for bringing her thus far through what I'm sure have painfully difficult and traumatic times. I pray Lord for a huge helping of your Holy Spirit for her giving her the strength and wisdom to rise above her situation rather than getting crushed by it.
I pray Lord that you will make her, not self-sufficient but you sufficient, so that she can soon take custody of and become a loving, devoted and stable mother to her daughter, bringing her up in the sure knowledge and eventual experience of you for herself.
I pray Lord for a very special blessing for mum, daughter and Gran.
Amen
