supersport
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- May 10, 2006
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Hi all... I am a new Christian and it's great to find this site!
I've gone through my whole life with the gut feeling that there was a God. But since I was a kid I used to watch other people pray and it just never made sense to me. I used to try to pray but it never really seemed like anyone was listening. I always used to look at Christians and envy them to an extent because they seemed so genuinely fulfilled. But on the other hand I never could grasp what they were feeling. It's not that I didn't believe them, it's just that I thought it was something self-manifested that I didn't have in me.
This may sound strange, but I had a dream a few months ago where I believe the Lord showed me His presence. I won't get into the details of the dream at the risk of sounding unbelievable, but I was asked in my dream why I wasn't SEARCHING for Him. Interestingly, the next 4 months I slowly became consumed with Him. At first I had opened just a little sliver of my heart for Him. But before long He cracked my heart completely wide open. I simply had no idea the love and power that the Lord has.
I used to think that God was looking down from space (or wherever He resides) and overseeing the universe from that standpoint. But now I know that God is everywhere...and He's not merely living in space, but He's living in our hearts. This is such a simple concept...but it just always evaded me.
The main problem I have now is I look back at my life with guilt. All I see is wasted time that I could have been shining His light. I'm know He forgives me, but it just saddnes me because I could have accomplished quite a lot for the Lord (in myself and in others). But I know that hope lies in the future. S
I've gone through my whole life with the gut feeling that there was a God. But since I was a kid I used to watch other people pray and it just never made sense to me. I used to try to pray but it never really seemed like anyone was listening. I always used to look at Christians and envy them to an extent because they seemed so genuinely fulfilled. But on the other hand I never could grasp what they were feeling. It's not that I didn't believe them, it's just that I thought it was something self-manifested that I didn't have in me.
This may sound strange, but I had a dream a few months ago where I believe the Lord showed me His presence. I won't get into the details of the dream at the risk of sounding unbelievable, but I was asked in my dream why I wasn't SEARCHING for Him. Interestingly, the next 4 months I slowly became consumed with Him. At first I had opened just a little sliver of my heart for Him. But before long He cracked my heart completely wide open. I simply had no idea the love and power that the Lord has.
I used to think that God was looking down from space (or wherever He resides) and overseeing the universe from that standpoint. But now I know that God is everywhere...and He's not merely living in space, but He's living in our hearts. This is such a simple concept...but it just always evaded me.
The main problem I have now is I look back at my life with guilt. All I see is wasted time that I could have been shining His light. I'm know He forgives me, but it just saddnes me because I could have accomplished quite a lot for the Lord (in myself and in others). But I know that hope lies in the future. S
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