Cariad Iesu
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Born and raised in the Welsh valleys of South Wales UK,I went to chapel up to the age of 12,believing in God and His Son,but as my teenage years unfolded I put God to the back of my mind and carried on being a typical welsh valley boy during the late 60s/70s doing the same as my mates smoking weed,drinking,fighting,(a sad Celtic trait),chasing after women and all the rest.Although I was always thought of by my unbelieving mates as a Christian,I in no way was,being a huge sinner and knowing nothing at all about real scripture,Salvation and being born again,not a clue.This sinful,drunken,dope driven life carried on until in 1984 when I was 24 when I met and married my wife.The drinking,scrapping,and weed carried on the same,(how she ever stuck by me God only knows). But by about 1992/3 after losing my job through redundancy,the death of my dad,and obviously the evil weed,I had a full on mental and nervous breakdown and due to suicide attempts was admitted to a mental hospital diagnosed with suicidal depression and being Bi Polar.Then almost 20 years down the line still in the same mental state,although struggling to hold down a welding trade,I had come to the end of my tether,and whilst one night after many attempts at suicide,I realized that the cliff opposite my home would be the best way out.I was sat on my bed,my wife sleeping in the other room with my grand daughter Megan,due to my sleepless nights of crying and so on,I was sobbing my heart out and crying and pleading with God to forgive me of all the wrong doing I had done in my life,hoping He would be there for me when finally I would jump,and the more I begged His forgiveness for,the more flooded into my mind to be forgiven of.At 12am on August the 21st 2008 The Lord came into my life.In an instant literally I had turned from a sobbing wreck into a Holy Spirit filled man with intense joy and peace I had never known before with my arms in the air praising God and Jesus till exhausted by it all by 3am I had passed out sound asleep.6am I awoke wide eyed and smiling,knowing fully 3 blessed words I had no clue about the night before,Saved and Born again,it was as if they had been branded into my mind and heart.I ran into the other room where my wife and Megan slept shouting"mandy,mandy"she jumped up "whats the matter"thinking there was a fire or something,"I'm saved.I'm saved I'm born again"I said,"What are you on about what do you mean"she said,"I dont know,all I know is God has saved me and I'm born again"I said.From that morning till this day I haven't had a glimmer of depression since,praise God,and I had great pleasure going to the psychiatrist explaining I am healed,I am clean by the Blood of Jesus.Needless to say I have not been on medication since that blessed night praise Jesus.I now go to a Spirit filled local Baptist church called bethel.And my life is 100% changed,in fact Now I have a life,before I had misery and caused misery.Praise Jesus,Glory be to God.
Amazing grace,how sweet the sound,that saved a wretch like me.I once was lost and now I'm found,was blind and now I see.Hallelujah and Amen!
Sorry about the lack of paragraphs etc as a good friend pointed out to me.
Amazing grace,how sweet the sound,that saved a wretch like me.I once was lost and now I'm found,was blind and now I see.Hallelujah and Amen!
Sorry about the lack of paragraphs etc as a good friend pointed out to me.
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