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Not sure where to begin but please keep in mind I'm in a furious mood right now so don't let my words get to you in a negative way. An angry mind is not a healthy mind. But I am who I am.
Last week I found out my 19 yr old cousin (male) started dealing drugs. I felt pretty angry but it didn't really bother me (it did, but not like the way it did today...)
Today, I went to pickup my friend who lives across the street from my cousin, down the block a bit (few houses down). It was night time and my cousin most likely didn't notice me waiting in my car. Well, I surely noticed 4 or 5 cards in front of his house and the dealing in action.
Suddenly I became overwhelmed with an angry feeling inside of me. I felt like walking over there and beating every single one of them to a bloody pulp leaving them lying on the floor to teach them a lesson not to do their dirty drugs in this neighborhood. It was only an hour before that a shootout happened in our same town, not to mention hearing sad news today about a train derailing and the plane crash in CA.
My cousin is such a lazy fool, now what does he do? He's driving a nearly brand new BMW M3 ($35k). Funny isn't it? What angers me so much this easily? Let us top it off with this. His own parents, my aunt/uncle have caused my family lots of grief since '88 / '89. My father literally paid for their house and they lived under my father's expense for 17yrs! Now, they finally bought the house for such dirt cheap rate and then what happens next? My father suddenly has a warrant for lacking a license for the pool in THEIR house which they refused to pay up and acknowledge the renewal (or whatever the case was).
This shows you how utterlly disgusted I am. I used to have pity on my family now I am ready to crush every one of them with my own fist and publicly expose my cousin. They know exactly what their lazy foolish son is doing in front of their house and they do what? Nothing.
GOD is my witness today I felt like a bomb ready to explode and wake up the entire neighborhood. I had a reason to be angry. I am not authority to walk around beating people for dealing drugs in the neighborhood but you get the idea that a strong beleiver like myself who has a past of being short tempered does not take these things lightly one bit or another.
I don't know what to ask for. I feel annoyed to even ask for prayer. I will ask anyway. Pray that GOD exposes him so that he may learn his lesson and have a change of heart. Pray that GOD will calm me down so much that I don't even utter a word and expose my own cousin to the police and publicly. Because I am ready to do more than expose him. I am ready to shatter him on the spot. Enough is enough! We do not need DRUGS and drug dealers sporting their ill gotten luxury car in this neighborhood!
GOD is my witness.
Last week I found out my 19 yr old cousin (male) started dealing drugs. I felt pretty angry but it didn't really bother me (it did, but not like the way it did today...)
Today, I went to pickup my friend who lives across the street from my cousin, down the block a bit (few houses down). It was night time and my cousin most likely didn't notice me waiting in my car. Well, I surely noticed 4 or 5 cards in front of his house and the dealing in action.
Suddenly I became overwhelmed with an angry feeling inside of me. I felt like walking over there and beating every single one of them to a bloody pulp leaving them lying on the floor to teach them a lesson not to do their dirty drugs in this neighborhood. It was only an hour before that a shootout happened in our same town, not to mention hearing sad news today about a train derailing and the plane crash in CA.
My cousin is such a lazy fool, now what does he do? He's driving a nearly brand new BMW M3 ($35k). Funny isn't it? What angers me so much this easily? Let us top it off with this. His own parents, my aunt/uncle have caused my family lots of grief since '88 / '89. My father literally paid for their house and they lived under my father's expense for 17yrs! Now, they finally bought the house for such dirt cheap rate and then what happens next? My father suddenly has a warrant for lacking a license for the pool in THEIR house which they refused to pay up and acknowledge the renewal (or whatever the case was).
This shows you how utterlly disgusted I am. I used to have pity on my family now I am ready to crush every one of them with my own fist and publicly expose my cousin. They know exactly what their lazy foolish son is doing in front of their house and they do what? Nothing.
GOD is my witness today I felt like a bomb ready to explode and wake up the entire neighborhood. I had a reason to be angry. I am not authority to walk around beating people for dealing drugs in the neighborhood but you get the idea that a strong beleiver like myself who has a past of being short tempered does not take these things lightly one bit or another.
I don't know what to ask for. I feel annoyed to even ask for prayer. I will ask anyway. Pray that GOD exposes him so that he may learn his lesson and have a change of heart. Pray that GOD will calm me down so much that I don't even utter a word and expose my own cousin to the police and publicly. Because I am ready to do more than expose him. I am ready to shatter him on the spot. Enough is enough! We do not need DRUGS and drug dealers sporting their ill gotten luxury car in this neighborhood!
GOD is my witness.
