Please Pray For me. I am very Depressed.

[Joe]

I am sad and depressed while writing this message. Please pray for me. I always loved Jesus.

At the age of 28, I got married. I had some back pain but after marriage, it just got increased. As I really believed in God, I didn't wait for my first baby, as others do. They enjoy for sometime, then try for baby. But we didn't do like that. The next month of my marriage, my wife was conceived. In my heart I prayed to God that I wanted a boy baby. After 9 months, God gave us a Girl baby. I was sad but after some days I thought, that because of my sins God didn't listen to my prayer. I started loving my daughter, which I do now also. My back was hurting me lot. Then I started praying daily. Stopped all my sins, like drinking, watching porn, using abusive language and all.

As me and my wife were not prepared for next baby at that time, with some mis calculation, my wife was conceived again. As my wife was preparing for IELTS. So both of us decided to abort the child. But my love to Jesus was not allowing me to do that. I prayed to Jesus and requested him to please give me a boy baby. And I told my wife that we will deliver this baby. For the last 9 months, I prayed very sincerely, attended morning mass whenever I was able to. Get up early to pray. I was full confident that Jesus will hear my prayer and he will give me a boy baby. Last week my wife delivered a Girl Baby again.
I am very sad and depressed. I am not able to understand why my God does not listen to my prayers. I cried lot. Daily morning when I get up and have the same feelings. I m not able to pray properly. And even I started thinking that Jesus doesn't love me. I want a boy. With sad feeling, I and my wife are going to stop the child birth. Because if I get another Girl baby I will die with depression.

I know kids are gifts of GOD, but still I am very sad. Please pray for me.

 

[amadeus2]

My dear friend. As you have already indicated, you know that kids are God's gifts. Having a preference of boy over girl was not an evil thing, but when God has decided against you consider who you are and who He is. When Jesus knew he was going to suffer and die, his flesh cried our to his Father, God,

"O my Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me:..."

Then in spite of his own desire not to suffer so, he added these words:

"nevertheless not as I will, but as thou wilt." Matt 26:39

Are you better than God? Are you better than Jesus? Is not you depression coming from a very selfish motive. You wanted a boy and received a girl. Consider the fathers or mother who wanted a child but did not get one at all. Give God the glory for what you have received and ask Him to help you move on with Him.

I will be praying for you.

 

[Brad Huber]

And why do you need a boy? Are girls less worthy in your eyes? As Amadues says, it sounds as if you are a bit selfish, thinking if you obey some commands to do good, you should get whatever you want. Never the less, I am glad to pray for God to reveal Himself to you and give you purpose.

 

[Joe]

Thanks @Amadeus.

Thanks @Brad Huber.

Please do pray for me, so that the holy spirit show me the way.

 

[Brad Huber]

Glad to do so Joe!

 

[amadeus2]

Continuing to pray...

 

[LordKnows]

I will pray for you also Joe.

I do have to ask or mention rather as Brad has. Why a boy so badly? Your daughters need YOU MORE than anything. I have NEVER had the honor of having a father daughter relationship EVER in my life. I don't even know my biological father & the "dad" my mom lied to me about was in & out of prison & when he wasn't in prison he was drunk & beating her & when he wasn't drunk, beating here he was running around with some other woman while us three kids got to witness that garbage. I will promise you this, God isn't getting back at you for ANYTHING you've done Joe, He LOVES YOU BUT you have to remember that it is GODS WILL, NOT YOURS or MINE, or OURS - GODS ONLY!

We may roll the dice but GOD DETERMINES HOW THEY FALL!

God is running this show NOT us. Oh how I wished I could kick myself for asking God to do it MY way & not his all them years back. I was a fool for that. You see Joe, God knows where you will be 50 years from today. He knows the very hairs on your head. But never limit him to just those facts. God knows EXACTLY what you NEED for your life & what it's going to take to get YOU closer to HIM. GOD IS VERY JEALOUS & HE want's us ALL to himself. Having daughters will take up so much of your time that you won't have time to do much else. Without sounding judgmental here you have said you want a son more than a daughter. A life is a life no-matter what the gender is. Love them as if they were sons & watch how less depressed you become.

Think about your post like this for a moment if you will: If your daughters were to read your post in 17 years how would they feel?

I will be praying for you Joe & I pray that God shows you how much he loves you. It's NOT about what we want, it's ALL about what God wants for US!

 

[Br. Bear]

I am sad and depressed while writing this message. Please pray for me. I always loved Jesus.

At the age of 28, I got married. I had some back pain but after marriage, it just got increased. As I really believed in God, I didn't wait for my first baby, as others do. They enjoy for sometime, then try for baby. But we didn't do like that. The next month of my marriage, my wife was conceived. In my heart I prayed to God that I wanted a boy baby. After 9 months, God gave us a Girl baby. I was sad but after some days I thought, that because of my sins God didn't listen to my prayer. I started loving my daughter, which I do now also. My back was hurting me lot. Then I started praying daily. Stopped all my sins, like drinking, watching porn, using abusive language and all.

As me and my wife were not prepared for next baby at that time, with some mis calculation, my wife was conceived again. As my wife was preparing for IELTS. So both of us decided to abort the child. But my love to Jesus was not allowing me to do that. I prayed to Jesus and requested him to please give me a boy baby. And I told my wife that we will deliver this baby. For the last 9 months, I prayed very sincerely, attended morning mass whenever I was able to. Get up early to pray. I was full confident that Jesus will hear my prayer and he will give me a boy baby. Last week my wife delivered a Girl Baby again.
I am very sad and depressed. I am not able to understand why my God does not listen to my prayers. I cried lot. Daily morning when I get up and have the same feelings. I m not able to pray properly. And even I started thinking that Jesus doesn't love me. I want a boy. With sad feeling, I and my wife are going to stop the child birth. Because if I get another Girl baby I will die with depression.

I know kids are gifts of GOD, but still I am very sad. Please pray for me.

Greetings,

thank you for sharing your need with us.

Depression is not fun.

May you know the Peace of God in Jesus Christ the Lord.

Bless you and your family ....><>

 

[Chopper]

Hi Joe. I'm a Christian Psychologist as well as a Baptist Preacher. Depression, as Br. Bear says, "Depression is not fun". I suffered from a deep depression due to ongoing pain in my spine and two failed spine surgeries. I have taught for almost 40 years that "we are what we dwell on" and that is what fuels depression if what we dwell on is negative.

With God, He examines our hearts before He answers prayers many times. Heart motives may just be what God looks at. When you and your Wife have children, to God, each one is a gift to you both. Girls usually love their Dad's with an unspeakable love. Why? Because they are "Daddy's little girl." When my Daughter got married, she and I danced to "Because she's Daddy's little girl."

O Joe, if you only knew what a special relationship you'll have with your girls, you would come out of that depression in a hurry. Guess what? God may never give you a boy until you ask Him for forgiveness for thinking your girls weren't as good as a Son.

Remember, you are what you dwell on. Start praising the Lord Jesus for your precious girls, love them with a true love, be good to them because they are very alert to your feelings about them. If the Lord becomes pleased with the attitude of your heart concerning whoever is born to you and your Wife, Who knows, He just might give you a boy.

 

[Disneyfan30]

I am sorry to hear of your pain I will prey for you I don't know my father I was brought up by my grandfather I have been through depression myself so I know your pain. But trust me know your Heavenly Father is looking after you I