Greetings,
may i call you Frank?
Glad to pray for you.
PLEASE read your Bible, especially the New Testament at this stage. Make it a continual 'habit'. Daily read and fill your mind with things from Scripture about Jesus Christ. {see that a habit is for you a place where you find your habitation.... and may your habitation be in and with God through Jesus Christ His Son}
Jesus died for you; to save you. As a Christian, you need to be able to believe this. Or, another way around is, a person needs to believe that God sent His Son, Who died for the sin of the world, so that any who believe on Him will not perish but have everlasting life.
Who is this Jesus? This is where you need to start reading the New Testament and start filling your thoughts about Him, Who so loved you that He gave Himself for you.
Please stop giving your thoughts to the things that are bugging you or upsetting you. That is a no-win road. Get your thoughts on Christ Jesus and allow Him to do His work of complete salvation in you.
While you give 'praise' and 'honour' and 'glory' and 'power' to the thoughts that you are being dragged down by, you are in effect placing them above the Lord and allowing them to be your god. Again, a no-win road.
Learn more and more about the One Who loves you and exalt Him always and especially if and when bad stinking-thinking invades and tries to take over your mind and heart.
The Lord is the Prince of Peace and yet so many forget that and yield to bad thinking and forfeit the Peace of God that passes all understanding.
You can do it, with God's help, and i shall and do pray that you begin to see that you can do it through Him Who loves you and wants only ever good for you.
Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.
And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things. Those things, which ye have both learned, and received, and heard, and seen in me, do: and the God of peace shall be with you.
Philippians 4:6-9
Bless you ....><>