You are not causing us any bother daer sister - we are all united in fellowship.Unfortunately we cannot escape from the "firsts" in the year following a person's death - Christmas, Valentines Day, Birthday, Father's Day and anniversaries.This is all part of the grieving process we all endure when we lose a loved one.Only those of us who have lost a parent can truly understand.My Dad's birthday is December 23rd and he loved the simple things of Christmas - joy, happiness and goodwill and though its been 12 years since he passed on we still remember him with affection.Gradually it will get easier, while never forgotten the memories will find their own place in your heart and mind and though sometimes a song or the smell of food or some other happening will make you feel sad and perhaps a tear or two will fall but in the main you will look at his memory with affection and thank God he has left you with many happy memories.Dont feel at all as if you are bothering people - these are early days and you are entitiled to feel as you do and we are here to listen, pray and understand what you are going through.Let it all out and remember your Dad is safe in the arms of Jesus, experiencing a peace and happiness that is promised to all who believe in the Father.May God comfort and console you and give you the courage and fortitude to cope with your loss today and always.Father hear our prayer.Amen.