Yennee
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I am wanting prayer help for guidance. __ You know what? How about we all pray for guidance for one another in this thread! Our Father bless you all, give you discernment, and direct your paths and all your ways, that you all be fruitful in righteous abundance, and abounding in the Love of our Lord. Father help, heal, strengthen, teach, instruct, correct, and Comfort you all in all that you need. In Yahoshua's name, selah / amen.
Honestly, my brother and I had planned for years to move to Israel, only to find you cannot live there unless you are "Jewish" by faith -- meaning giving up on believing our Messiah already came once. So, we, by various revelations, redirected to Jordan, which was and is supposed to be part of Israel. We moved up to Alaska, as it would appear our Father wanted us to, and have been blessed since, though it was hard at times. However, right before the lockdown, and after the announcement, of COVID-19, we felt something to be wrong in the spirit. There's no way we could have known the lockdown would happen, and we didn't, but we felt / perceived something was coming / wrong, even though we had no concern of this "Covid virus". Then, all flights got cancelled. The fear came, then. We had quit our jobs with forewarning, prepared, packed up, and were mostly ready to go, when my brother told me the flights were cancelled. I immediately, felt / feared ? the need to go back to work for money.
We prayed. We rescheduled. We waited at home in quarantine, deciding to trust in our Father to get us through. Cancelled again. This continued with us selecting the closest affordable flights available each time. Our moving savings was getting low, and we had no income, so we applied for Unemployment Insurance, and waited, struggling with our faith, and the stronger trying to bolster the other in believing we would make it to Jordan if it be YAH'S will, and, nevertheless, our ABBA would provide. After six cancellations, we prayed. I was struggling terribly spiritually, mentally, emotionally, and so I didn't affirm with my brother, but he got to refund the tickets. Before we even got the money for them, we received a lump of cash for Covid relief and/or U.I.. . . . After waiting a bit, we tried to get new tickets, and were denied by the airlines due to boarders closures.
We wait, wondering what our Father wants us to be doing. We despair, wondering if we are listening or being led astray. We know our ABBA will provide for us and direct our ways; but, we doubt our own competency to listen clearly, and wonder, are the only Yokefolk who seem to struggle this much with knowing our Father's will for our lives? What is everyone else in the Body of Messiah getting about moving, waiting, working, the U.S. and its increasing perversions (or staying here, or what our God will do), living in the wilderness, fleeing to Edom, or other things mentioned in the Bible? What are we missing or stuck on, or are we misled, at all? Yes, at times, I can personally say I have great and wonderful peace, and joy!; but other times, I am, at times, spirituality assailed and tormented day and night, and fraught with doubts for the future, survival, and nagged with suicidal and homicidal ideations. Other times, I have incredible peace. Our Father will provide, whatever may come; but, what are we supposed to be doing, now, or eventually, in the great plan of our Perfect and Almighty God?
Honestly, my brother and I had planned for years to move to Israel, only to find you cannot live there unless you are "Jewish" by faith -- meaning giving up on believing our Messiah already came once. So, we, by various revelations, redirected to Jordan, which was and is supposed to be part of Israel. We moved up to Alaska, as it would appear our Father wanted us to, and have been blessed since, though it was hard at times. However, right before the lockdown, and after the announcement, of COVID-19, we felt something to be wrong in the spirit. There's no way we could have known the lockdown would happen, and we didn't, but we felt / perceived something was coming / wrong, even though we had no concern of this "Covid virus". Then, all flights got cancelled. The fear came, then. We had quit our jobs with forewarning, prepared, packed up, and were mostly ready to go, when my brother told me the flights were cancelled. I immediately, felt / feared ? the need to go back to work for money.
We prayed. We rescheduled. We waited at home in quarantine, deciding to trust in our Father to get us through. Cancelled again. This continued with us selecting the closest affordable flights available each time. Our moving savings was getting low, and we had no income, so we applied for Unemployment Insurance, and waited, struggling with our faith, and the stronger trying to bolster the other in believing we would make it to Jordan if it be YAH'S will, and, nevertheless, our ABBA would provide. After six cancellations, we prayed. I was struggling terribly spiritually, mentally, emotionally, and so I didn't affirm with my brother, but he got to refund the tickets. Before we even got the money for them, we received a lump of cash for Covid relief and/or U.I.. . . . After waiting a bit, we tried to get new tickets, and were denied by the airlines due to boarders closures.
We wait, wondering what our Father wants us to be doing. We despair, wondering if we are listening or being led astray. We know our ABBA will provide for us and direct our ways; but, we doubt our own competency to listen clearly, and wonder, are the only Yokefolk who seem to struggle this much with knowing our Father's will for our lives? What is everyone else in the Body of Messiah getting about moving, waiting, working, the U.S. and its increasing perversions (or staying here, or what our God will do), living in the wilderness, fleeing to Edom, or other things mentioned in the Bible? What are we missing or stuck on, or are we misled, at all? Yes, at times, I can personally say I have great and wonderful peace, and joy!; but other times, I am, at times, spirituality assailed and tormented day and night, and fraught with doubts for the future, survival, and nagged with suicidal and homicidal ideations. Other times, I have incredible peace. Our Father will provide, whatever may come; but, what are we supposed to be doing, now, or eventually, in the great plan of our Perfect and Almighty God?
