Hello everyone!
My name is noel I’m going through something really hard right now and I am requesting prayers from the believers. I had someone that I thought was a friend who is going through a supposedly dire need and asked if I was able to help her financially I was hesitant and really didn’t want to do it but I thought it would be best to treat others as I would want to be treated and I’ve been in hard situation financially, and people have been kind to me. The problem is that this situation went on for months, throughout this time she profusely promised to pay me back,
I know it’s my fault I shouldn’t have helped with anything. I feel stupid. I am honestly feeling suicidal. It was a miracle that I even had that kind of money to give in the first place and I don’t see how I could ever get that kind of money again I am angry with myself and with person who I thought was my friend I was never rude to her in any way even when I told her that I didn’t have the money anymore which was the truth, she got upset with me because I couldn’t give her more money and said I didn’t want to help and blocked me. I am bitter that I’m out money I realize she was never my friend too late and honestly I’m bitter that she’s going to go on and live a happy life while I suffer.
I’m just asking for prayers because I really do feel like I’m losing my mind. I’ve always been honorable person. I’ve always pay back my debt and for someone to do this to me. It’s just evil and cruel and I feel like the worlds biggest idiot I am praying for myself and asking God to give me strength and help me to count the blessings that I do have but honestly it’s hard.
Sorry for the rant but thank you for the prayers.
My name is noel I’m going through something really hard right now and I am requesting prayers from the believers. I had someone that I thought was a friend who is going through a supposedly dire need and asked if I was able to help her financially I was hesitant and really didn’t want to do it but I thought it would be best to treat others as I would want to be treated and I’ve been in hard situation financially, and people have been kind to me. The problem is that this situation went on for months, throughout this time she profusely promised to pay me back,
I know it’s my fault I shouldn’t have helped with anything. I feel stupid. I am honestly feeling suicidal. It was a miracle that I even had that kind of money to give in the first place and I don’t see how I could ever get that kind of money again I am angry with myself and with person who I thought was my friend I was never rude to her in any way even when I told her that I didn’t have the money anymore which was the truth, she got upset with me because I couldn’t give her more money and said I didn’t want to help and blocked me. I am bitter that I’m out money I realize she was never my friend too late and honestly I’m bitter that she’s going to go on and live a happy life while I suffer.
I’m just asking for prayers because I really do feel like I’m losing my mind. I’ve always been honorable person. I’ve always pay back my debt and for someone to do this to me. It’s just evil and cruel and I feel like the worlds biggest idiot I am praying for myself and asking God to give me strength and help me to count the blessings that I do have but honestly it’s hard.
Sorry for the rant but thank you for the prayers.