prayers

[jessid9]

well all. I need prayer. THe time that I need guidance teh most... is when I feel like a lost sheep. Everything is crashing down beside me. everyone I meet (outside of Talk jesus) abandons me. every door that has opened has closed on me. finances have been getting worse. I started a job last night. I loved it. It felt great to get out there and start working. I got a call from the boss this morning and he said that He needs to let me go. I went through the computer course too fast and he felt there was something fishy about that. If they wont take me at a 711 where else would they take me?

I feel like a lost sheep. I need Gods guidance every step of the way. I need a word from God. do I keep messing everything up? Whats going on? Why is everything getting worse by teh day? I'm so frustrated. the time I need God the most is right now. I know that he'll only let the enemy go so far. But I dont know if I can go any further. I dont want to do anything because I dont want that to crash on me too. I dont want to take another step until God has given teh go ahead. and teh door is stayed open. Forgive me for "complaining". I just need prayer. I feel so lost. More lost than Ive ever felt. All I want to do is Gods will. But I dont know what that is. I cant describe my feelings right now. I dont even know what they are. I think I'm a bit in schock because everything is falling apart. WHAT DO I DO? I feel like theres something that Gods trying to show me but I'm blindfolded. Ive been asking God what that is. I need prayer for guidance. Because thinsg are coming too close. FInancial, emotionally, physically, spiritually... I need prayer. He knows when things are due. I know hes aware of that. collectors have been calling us. people left and right are calling non stop about bills. And I hate this. But what is God trying to show me. Why is he allowing all of this to happen??? Prayer please.

Dont get me wrong, I know Hes a faithful God. But I feel like I'm doing all the wrong things. I need guidance. I need prayer for peace and strength. we dont even have enuogh for groceries this week. weve got so many bills and so little finances. I'm not asking for any help from you guys accept to pray. Because God knows my situation even better than I do. I need to know what to do. I want to be guidded ever step of the way. I want to do His will. But I need to know what that will is for me.

 

[peeps]

aww I believe you just poured your heart out before Him . . . Yes Jess , He knows for sure . . .I cant speak into your life . . .God can, do you have a church where you can be supported . . .does anyone know how you are doing?
what about your family, what about social places, donation programs. . .anything?

We are dealing with unemployment, bills, turning the car of this month due to inspection and 750 bucks repair coming up. .. but in all that. . I know WHY. . .
we turned our back on God!
we thought we could handle our finances well on our own when we cut the tithe *shame*
we had done fine for years. . .then my hubby went selfemployed and had to deal with a lot of private insurances and support from the employment office. . .so we said we cut the tithe and give our 10 percent from whatever orders we are getting in . ..
STUPID!
how would we get orders. . .by stealing from God first. . what kinda blessing did we expect . . .DUH . .. took us a lotta paying for extra messes we would have never had if we wouldnt have done that. . .OH WELL . ..
now all year we have been talking about tithing again . . .talkin . . see ;-)
and everytime something BIGGER than that came up . . .where we were hardly able to survive. ..
and then a couple of month ago we said. . .doesnt matter . . WE WILL TITHE!
and we didnt get the money in at all from the office. . had backfired bills from the bank . . .huge mess . . whatever ok . . next month then. . .and now in August. . the car went to inspection . . .and its like I said buncha money. . .we could pay it in the next three month . . and the mechanic would fix it now. . .BUT . .. that would mean . .NO TITHE! . .

My hubby and I decided now ( and told the kids yesterday and they helped alot by voting for that) that we will turn the car off. . .
and we will tithe in September!
and guess what?
today on the 31. of August our money is not in . . which is a bad sign . . .and sure enough . . . a letter in the mail asked to fill out another form to have further pay . . .shux!
which would mean . . we might or might not have the money for September tomorrow. . to turn the car off and TITHE . . .LOL . .. guess what. . .we will laugh at that stupid liar . . that evil - pull - me - down - in - dumbs - puller. . .and will TITHE anyway. . .we will . . no matter what. . .the devil knows of Gods blessing for us. . .he tries to discourage us by our circumstances. . .we are stepping back in Gods boat full time :thumbs_up

the bible says:

GODS PROMISE in Malachi 3

Robbing God

6 "I the LORD do not change. So you, O descendants of Jacob, are not destroyed. 7 Ever since the time of your forefathers you have turned away from my decrees and have not kept them. Return to me, and I will return to you," says the LORD Almighty.
"But you ask, 'How are we to return?'
8 "Will a man rob God? Yet you rob me.
"But you ask, 'How do we rob you?'
"In tithes and offerings. 9 You are under a curse—the whole nation of you—because you are robbing me. 10 Bring the whole tithe into the storehouse, that there may be food in my house. Test me in this," says the LORD Almighty, "and see if I will not throw open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing that you will not have room enough for it. 11 I will prevent pests from devouring your crops, and the vines in your fields will not cast their fruit," says the LORD Almighty. 12 "Then all the nations will call you blessed, for yours will be a delightful land," says the LORD Almighty.

13 "You have said harsh things against me," says the LORD.
"Yet you ask, 'What have we said against you?'

14 "You have said, 'It is futile to serve God. What did we gain by carrying out his requirements and going about like mourners before the LORD Almighty? 15 But now we call the arrogant blessed. Certainly the evildoers prosper, and even those who challenge God escape.' "

16 Then those who feared the LORD talked with each other, and the LORD listened and heard. A scroll of remembrance was written in his presence concerning those who feared the LORD and honored his name.

17 "They will be mine," says the LORD Almighty, "in the day when I make up my treasured possession. [a] I will spare them, just as in compassion a man spares his son who serves him. 18 And you will again see the distinction between the righteous and the wicked, between those who serve God and those who do not.
. . .

you know Jess . . .somewhere in all the mess . . .there is a key . . .for that door . . .you want to open so bad. . .God doesnt expect perfection - just cooperation

im sooo sorry. . .this got reaaaaaaaally looong. . .i hope there is something for you in there

I will continue to pray for you sister

 

[jessid9]

THank you peeps for your message. I really found it touching. Just feels like everything all at once is crashing and its hard to deal with. the enemy has really been attacking us lately and I refuse that. I refuse to belive the lie that I am a failure. I refuse to believe the lie that God isnt here with me. I refuse the lies. I'm just scared because I feel like were going to lose everything we worked for. you know what... that sounds selfish. Forgive me. My emotions are everywhere.. .so many thoughts passing by. I want so desperatly to Feel God right now. I want so desperatly to know what He wants me to put all of my time and focus into. If I know that I am doing Gods will... and everything else fades away it wont matter. because I know that I am doing what God wants me to do. nothing else would matter. Its been one thing after another. I guesse the main thing is I want to do Gods will. I will not let the enemy win. I have fallen... But I got right back up. Thats how a christian life is. We will fall... but we get right back up. And Ive gotten up.... I'm waiting for God to intervene and say thats enough satan. sorta speak. Because I know that hes been attacking me left and right. so, I will continue to pray as Ive been doing. Continue to focus on God. Continue to search for His will for us and our lives. seek and you will find the word says. I will focus on him. I will not go wrong. He hasnt abadoned me. the enemy has been feeding me lies.. and Ive had enough. THis family is stamped by Christ . We are His. thats the bottom line. Forgive me.. I just needed to let some of this out. I dont have anyone outside here that I can do so with. Bless you all

 

[peeps]

thats good jess thats really good. . .go ahead and get it all out. . . we are here for you and if you fill up too pages alone in this thread . . .get it out! your doing fine. .. remember your babies sweetie . . .they dont get born with a smile on your face . . nope!
lotsa pain and hurt and screams are necessary WHILE PRESSING ON. . .do you hear me. . .you will be fine Praise Jesus God bless Jess and her household and keep them safe and protected I pray right now, Amen

 

[mymakersdaughter]

Jess I am here in Prayer for you. My heart hurts.

Peeps you guys too.

 

[AlabasterBox]

JESS,

You know your in our prayers. When Moses couldn't hold his arms up any longer, God had Aaron hold Moses's arms up for him. We at TJ will help hold your arms up. :girl_hug:

We ya,

Your sister in Christ,
Mary :girl:

:rainbow:

 

[ICHTHUS]

Well after what Dotty posted well yeah you knwo covered all what i was thinkign even so yeah i will just say. i'm in prayer for ya

Love simon!!!

 

[jessid9]

well I have a praise report. God opened a door for a job for me. Full time in the evenings that way I dont have to pay childcare. I start tomorrow! I'm very excited. It feels like a new start. Matt also got a second job today. he will work weekends and some evenings there so that will help definitly. Thats a total of $1600 a month more than what we did have. God is our provider. I feel more peace. I dont feel such a heavy load on me right now. I feel horrible because I felt like I almost doubted him. Like there was too much for me to take. So I told God...God you know what I can handel. I ask that you be my strength through this. That you open doors , the right doors.

And he did. It feels so great. God is so good. I feel like I dont deserve it in anyway. for His blessings. Non of us are deserving of his blessings. But yet he still blesses. Glory to God!!

THank you for all your prayers. Prayer is a very powerful thing. Praise God!!

I have learnt many things through this. I have learnt how to let him handle things that are out of my control. to lay my burdens at his feet. I have learnt how to be stronger in faith. Even when it seems like things cant get any worse. I have learned to be thankful when I have none or when I have lots. God is given me strength. God is preparing us for the things that we will do for Him. I will go down to the grave praising His name. HALLELUJAH!! despite everything that happens in this world.. God is still King!

 

[jjkirk]

Praise God!,
Congratulations on your new Job.

Peace be with you,
Your Brother in Christ,
John.

 

[peeps]

YAY Jess Congratulations to both of you God is good . . .ALL THE TIME

 

[ICHTHUS]

i am in an Accord with Peeper's. God is Good and great, God is AWESOEM all the time. even if you dson thgink it...

Love Simon!!!

 

[Chad]

Thank you for sharing sister God bless you and glad to see God working in your life like this. God has more for you so keep your faith strong. Do not limit your faith or else you will limit God's work in your life.

well I have a praise report. God opened a door for a job for me. Full time in the evenings that way I dont have to pay childcare. I start tomorrow! I'm very excited. It feels like a new start. Matt also got a second job today. he will work weekends and some evenings there so that will help definitly. Thats a total of $1600 a month more than what we did have. God is our provider. I feel more peace. I dont feel such a heavy load on me right now. I feel horrible because I felt like I almost doubted him. Like there was too much for me to take. So I told God...God you know what I can handel. I ask that you be my strength through this. That you open doors , the right doors.

And he did. It feels so great. God is so good. I feel like I dont deserve it in anyway. for His blessings. Non of us are deserving of his blessings. But yet he still blesses. Glory to God!!

THank you for all your prayers. Prayer is a very powerful thing. Praise God!!

I have learnt many things through this. I have learnt how to let him handle things that are out of my control. to lay my burdens at his feet. I have learnt how to be stronger in faith. Even when it seems like things cant get any worse. I have learned to be thankful when I have none or when I have lots. God is given me strength. God is preparing us for the things that we will do for Him. I will go down to the grave praising His name. HALLELUJAH!! despite everything that happens in this world.. God is still King!

 

[andrewnicholas]

Dear Sister, it appears that life is a cycle.This type of crisis happens to all of us and we reach the point of despair. We know that God is with us no matter what and the reasons for this sequence of events in your life are a mystery but in time all will be revealed in line with God's plan for you.I too feel my world is collapsing around me with marriage and health problems that have almost pushed me too far. I am all too aware that despair can lead to depression and sometimes we need to use those provided by God to help us. I urge you to seek help so that things will not overwhelm you and you will be able to think clearly.This is a very tangible way for God's work to become apparent to you.Supported by your faith find a service that will help you find the answers.You may need specialist advice or even medication that will take the edge off your very real anxiety and help you plan your way out of the difficulty. This will end for you with God's help.The wheel will turn in your favour but you must work with the Lord to achieve your goal.I am heartfully sorry for your distress but I pray that you will be guided to a Christian support service and a sympathetic counsellor who will help you gain perspective. May God grant you comfort today and may it be the start of a new chapter in your life.Amen.

 

[Aimz]

yay!

u got another job!!

congratulations, an may God bless an use u in that job!!

good luck!!

(just trust in God)!!