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just want to testify of the Lord's goodness...
A Dream for Restoration and Reconciliation
It's a gift I think i wish to give to the Lord this season, but more than what I desired He gave it back to me. I wish/planned to make reconciliation with this woman (a youth and member of the music team) whom I have loved so much more than anyone else in the ministry. I grieved a lot for a destroyed fellowship with her which we usually do worship and prayer together, talk and laugh, going fora meal outside lifting up, encouraging one another in our own points of strengths and weaknesses; loosing her totally my life. She has been a great joy to me and I couldn't believe, our fellowship and friendship just ended that way. I dreamed of a day and a place where I could reach her out again and be restored.
I became so distressed in thinking that though I'm no longer around her, I'm still becoming a discomfort to her and she can't hide it. My silence afflicted my soul, I'm being chastened, yet when I speak, the bitterness of the soul is shown, I'm getting angry about it. Greater expectation is expected from me cause I'm older than her, much more matured in every aspect. Yet, better door of opportunity to reach out is not possible yet. Both are still disheartened, confused, and unwilling to give and receive again. I felt so sad in losing her. I grieved because a tough situation and circumstance crossed our path and we need to make a choice though it will hurt both of us. She chose to close the door and I chose to let her go. And indeed, we are being hurt... I got the most chastening.. awww
That silence and coldness between us disturbed both our peace. I can't know how to seek peace and pursue it during those times. The more I seek for her, the more we are displaced in ones life and we are hurt. So I have to surrender. Time can only tell if we will be restored again or not.
After some almost three years of grieving, now she had come back without any effort on my part... I couldn't believe it. ..I don't know what happened... It had just flowed naturally!!! :shock:
Just lately, a phrase that says "we were like them that dream" is flying on my head. I search the Bible on line and found it then posted it in the shout box here at TJ (Psalm 126:1)... :shade: Just made a cool study on the whole chapter this day and I was sooooooo blessed...
It's more than a gift I long to give to the Lord, cause i found my heart ready again, but more than what I could imagine, before going on my way (planning/arranging a date for an act of asking/receiving/giving forgiveness), far greater is what happened today receiving, not giving (hehe) a special gift this season from the Father. I thank the Lord for the restored fellowship. I enjoyed the coffee she prepared this morning!!! Well I requested it.. lol...
May the abundance of God's eternal blessings flow upon as all this happy holy days and year through!!! Amen
Sister in Christ,
Reymielin
Matthew 1:23"The virgin will be with child and will give birth to a son, -and they will call him Immanuel" —which means, "God with us."
A Dream for Restoration and Reconciliation
It's a gift I think i wish to give to the Lord this season, but more than what I desired He gave it back to me. I wish/planned to make reconciliation with this woman (a youth and member of the music team) whom I have loved so much more than anyone else in the ministry. I grieved a lot for a destroyed fellowship with her which we usually do worship and prayer together, talk and laugh, going fora meal outside lifting up, encouraging one another in our own points of strengths and weaknesses; loosing her totally my life. She has been a great joy to me and I couldn't believe, our fellowship and friendship just ended that way. I dreamed of a day and a place where I could reach her out again and be restored.
I became so distressed in thinking that though I'm no longer around her, I'm still becoming a discomfort to her and she can't hide it. My silence afflicted my soul, I'm being chastened, yet when I speak, the bitterness of the soul is shown, I'm getting angry about it. Greater expectation is expected from me cause I'm older than her, much more matured in every aspect. Yet, better door of opportunity to reach out is not possible yet. Both are still disheartened, confused, and unwilling to give and receive again. I felt so sad in losing her. I grieved because a tough situation and circumstance crossed our path and we need to make a choice though it will hurt both of us. She chose to close the door and I chose to let her go. And indeed, we are being hurt... I got the most chastening.. awww
That silence and coldness between us disturbed both our peace. I can't know how to seek peace and pursue it during those times. The more I seek for her, the more we are displaced in ones life and we are hurt. So I have to surrender. Time can only tell if we will be restored again or not.
After some almost three years of grieving, now she had come back without any effort on my part... I couldn't believe it. ..I don't know what happened... It had just flowed naturally!!! :shock:
Just lately, a phrase that says "we were like them that dream" is flying on my head. I search the Bible on line and found it then posted it in the shout box here at TJ (Psalm 126:1)... :shade: Just made a cool study on the whole chapter this day and I was sooooooo blessed...
It's more than a gift I long to give to the Lord, cause i found my heart ready again, but more than what I could imagine, before going on my way (planning/arranging a date for an act of asking/receiving/giving forgiveness), far greater is what happened today receiving, not giving (hehe) a special gift this season from the Father. I thank the Lord for the restored fellowship. I enjoyed the coffee she prepared this morning!!! Well I requested it.. lol...
May the abundance of God's eternal blessings flow upon as all this happy holy days and year through!!! Amen
Sister in Christ,
Reymielin
Matthew 1:23"The virgin will be with child and will give birth to a son, -and they will call him Immanuel" —which means, "God with us."
