rhymarhyma poetry 9

[rhymarhyma]

Mental suicide


Once upon a time, once upon a rhyme
in a land so close yet very far away
there lived a young man, who came up with a plan
to catch tomorrow without living in today

He felt right from the start, and felt it in his heart
that where he was today was just no good
so he promised in a letter, that tomorrow would be better
and he jumped from the rooftop where he stood

As he started falling, he heard a soft voice calling
asking why he was so full of sorrow
The young man could only say, that he hated yesterday
so today he was jumping towards tomorrow

The soothing gentle voice, offered him a choice
and stopped the man mid-way through his fall
but to the voice's dismay, the young man simply turned away
and refused to listen to the call

Though he eventually hit the ground, every day he walked around
wondering why his body hadn't died
and as tears rolled down his eyes, he would finally realize
physical death beats mental-suicide

The voice would only say, "Just be grateful for today
for the time you live is mine for you to borrow
and should you change your mind, I'm not very hard to find;
I am yesterday, today, and tomorrow"

 

[rhymarhyma]

Growin' up dyin'


Live by the sword, die by the sword
so I traded my pistola for a QWERTY keyboard
A life on the run pays little reward
I don't need a gun, son, if I rely on the Lord...

Anytime I'll change a rhyme with a line-swap right there
but I never could make a bullet stop right there
I watched a grown man belly-flop right there
and I shoulda, coulda, woulda closed shop right there
You ever laugh at the time, but later on you cried
'cause you finally realized that a person had died
Two things you can't take back, homicide and suicide
Growin' up dyin'...livin' in the East Side

C'mon baby-girl, we can make a new start
You're the only one I love, I never wanna be apart
I'll always play my role if you always play your part
Never will I ever be the one to break your heart
You ever cool at the time, but later on you feel ill
'cause you know you took advantage of somebody's goodwill
Didn't physically hurt 'em, more like an emotional kill
Growin' up dyin'...livin' in Capitol Hill

Thank you, Lord, for turnin' me around
for pullin' me up before I finally drowned
for helpin' me stand before I'm put in the ground
and for allowing me to hear salvation's beautiful sound
You ever glance at yesterday and the way you were livin'
and wonder why those cards were the ones you'd been given
and know you did wrong, but doin' right keeps you driven
Growin' up dyin'...but I know I'm forgiven

 

[rhymarhyma]

the end of the show


Time speeds ahead, when time used to stand still
and I can't catch time when I'm runnin' uphill
and I can't make up time that I threw away
The only time I have is this moment, this day
I've got time to die or I've got time to grow
because when the music fades...it's the end of the show

I have to remember that yesterday's gone
and I can't forget I might not see another dawn
but it seems to me, and this is just the way it seems
that if I'm happy right now, then I'm livin' my dreams
and why shouldn't I shine, why shouldn't I glow
because when the curtain falls...it's the end of the show

All my little babies, on earth no one gets put above you
I will love you forever, and forever I will love you
This life is but a moment and you only get one shot
but don't think for a moment that it's all that you've got
It doesn't matter where you're at in life, but where you're gonna go
because when the lights go out...it's the end of the show

 

[rhymarhyma]

GODISNOWHERE


A cold, blank stare from my electric chair...GODISNOWHERE

How did I ever get there, how'd I get caught in that snare...GODI SNOWHERE

Discarded teddy bear in need of repair...GOD ISNO WHERE

One bullet to share or one bullet to spare...GODIS NOWHERE

A game of solitaire turns to a love affair...GODISNO WHERE

as a curse and a swear turn to a whisper of prayer...GOD ISNOWHERE

A love true and sincere has always been right here...GO DIS NOWHERE

Through each fear, each tear, it becomes more clear...GOD IS NOW HERE

 

[rhymarhyma]

Last man standing


I sent 50 invitations to 50 different people

people who I love, friends and family

I asked them to meet me on a Friday afternoon

at my favorite park, under my favorite tree

The heading of the letter read "If things get tough

how many of you would truly be there for me?"

On the day of the meeting, 47 showed up

and already I knew I was abandoned by 3



As I glanced at my loved ones underneath the tree

I looked each and every one eye to eye

and I read the first question that I wrote on a list

"How many of you would leave me if I told you a lie?"

For a not-so-brief period there was an awkward silence

and I watched a plane as it raced across the sky

By the time that airplane had flown out of sight

9 from my group had said goodbye



I started second-guessing as I went back to my list

but I knew this was something that I had to do

I had to find out, I had to have no doubt

out of all of these people, whose love was true

I took a moment and then I read the next question

"Who would stay if I stole from you?"

I knew this one was tough, but I wasn't prepared

when 16 walked and I was down to 22



As the questions grew harder and my group got smaller

I knew right there and I knew right then

that for the right reason they were all going to leave

I didn't know who for what and I didn't know when

but I knew I'd find out as I presented more questions

to these 22 children, women and men

"If I betrayed you right now, who of you would leave?"

Just over half, and all that stood were 10



These were the ten who I could count on the most

The ten that I thought would surely never run

and as I looked out across my suddenly small circle

I saw those who truly who loved me, right from day one

I saw my mom, standing tall, holding hands with my brothers

and all of my kids, down to my youngest son

Then I noticed a man who I didn't quite know

as I reached down in my bag and pulled out a gun



I held the gun up over my head

"Bang!" "Bang!" "Bang!" I fired three in the air

then I watched the confusion run through my family

and I cried as I watched them scatter everywhere

My mom screamed for my brothers to gather up the kids

and I'll never forget each tear-filled stare

as they, too, left because we all have our limits

and all that remained was one man standing there



He didn't seem nervous and he didn't seem scared

he just reached in his bag and pulled out some bread

I screamed "Are you crazy?! Don't you see this gun?"

Then I aimed the barrel straight at his head

I was full of anger that this stranger was the last man standing

when everyone else had already fled

and just at that moment I viewed my entire life

inside a single teardrop that he shed



I didn't know who he was or how he got invited

so I yelled "Who are you, and why didn't you leave me, too?"

and he just stood there in the park as it started getting dark

and the words that I screamed it seemed weren't getting through

Then he slowly put away his bread and he opened up his arms

and I walked up to this man that I didn't think I knew

He said "I am your Father, your Savior, your Lord

and this love is unconditional, this love I have for you."



He put his arm around my shoulder and offered me these words

"There is nothing you can do, my son, that would make me walk away

and out of all the times you've left me, I've always kept you close

because my love is absolute, it knows no other way

My love serves two purposes, it exists for two reasons

to love you, of course, and to save you today

Now sit with me, Michael, just for a moment..."

and he bowed his head and he began to pray



I knew right then, as my anger disappeared

that this man lost in prayer, lost in concentration

was more than a man who didn't leave me this day

he was a man of truth, a man of true dedication

and I knew he'd never leave, as he whispered his prayers

"...trespass against us. Lead us not into temptation...."

He was the only one that stayed, the only one that prayed

He was my light, my life...my true salvation