Hello Popples,
well it is nice to know that you can still call for help when you need to. You did not finish your sentence so I assume that you are completely at you wits end, cannot get answers to your problems, and to face a day in this world where everyone seems to dislike you and wants nothing good for you. I hope that you are not considering suicide as this is not the answer, matter of fact it would make your problems absolutely worse!
Depression is a condition that stems from attempting to resolve our own problems and when we do not get any joy then we get dispondent and absolutely discouraged. This is not a good place to be!
Jesus gave His disciples a command "Go ye therefore, and teach all nations ..... Matt 28:19. Well you came to the right place to look for help. You see it is the responsibility of the Body of Christ to go and teach the nations.... that is to make disciples.
To teach the nations what? That there is salvation through the Blood of Jesus Christ shed on the cross. Salvation from what? Our sin, and the results of sin - Judgement. The result of teaching someone the truth of Gods Word is to bring the person or persons attention back to Him who created us in the first place. Romans 1:16 says "For I am not ashamed of the Gospel of Christ: for it is the power of God unto salvation to every one that believeth; to the Jew first, and also to the Greek".
The Gospel is the power of God unto salvation, He brings the person who was once dead (separated from God because of their sinfulness) to life (into a relationship with God again). The Gospel causes us to look back at ourselves and say I am sinful and in need of help! Now because Jesus Christ took all our infirmaties, sins, inquities, etc upon Himself at the cross the Gospel teaches us that through Him there is hope of redemption.
My sister there is hope for redemption out of your mirey pit. In Matthew 6:9-13 Jesus was teaching His disciples how to pray. The very first line reads ... Our Father which art in heaven, Hallowed by thy name ... who should we call upon for our redemption - a Holy and absolutely perfect God! Jesus made this possible that we who are sinful can call upon an absolutely perfect God who is willing to hear our hearts cry and show mercy. Have a look at it this way .. My Father in heaven You are seated in heaven and I a sinner on the earth. Lord God I am in need of salvation from my trouble .... This is the attitude that Jesus was implying we should have when praying to God.
The Psalmist is Psalm 69 shows a man in terrible depression but he did not loose sight of the the faithfullness of God to help him out of that trouble. Read especially verses 13-18 see the attitude of the Psalmist .... humbleness before God and because of this God would answer his prayer.
In closing I want you to see something else. When Adam and Eve sinned God placed them out of His presence Genesis 3:24 SO he drove out the man: and he placed at the east of the garden of Eden cherubim, and a flaming sword which turned every way, to keep the way of the tree of life. The angels and the flaming sword. Fire in the bible is symbolic of judgement and the sword the Word of God. Therefore in order for people to come back to the tree of life, who is Jesus Christ, they must believe the Gospel that judges the heart and turns the sinner back to God. John 3:16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten son, that whosever believeth in him should not perish but have everlasting life. Read another way ... For God so loved Popples, that he gave his only begotten son, that if Popples should believe in him Popples should not perish but have everlasting life.
Remember what I said in the beginning of this reply about depression here is something for you from Matthew 11:28-30 Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.
1. First Jesus says we must come to Him - why?; because
2. In our attempts to overcome our problems we are labouring and we get to the point where we are just too overcome with our burdens. What does He promise? Rest:
3. Rest from our own efforts to take on ourselves His yoke - that is His Lordship over us to lead us and direct our lives again as it was in the beginning, to deal with our problems and solve them Acts 1:8, Malachi 3:1-3.
Jesus said on the cross before He died ... IT IS FINISHED! The work of redemption is finished, He has taken our sins upon Himself and given us the way to salvation. We need not strive anymore but simply come to God in prayer and in an attitude of genuine repentance. Seeking His righteousness in us.
So I hope that I have given you hope in your predicament. Please do not do something stupid but if you want continued councelling please let me know I will be glad to oblige
Yours in Christ
Donald