All of my life I have been scared of things that had no good motive.
Like if someone asked me to go to the park with them late at night,
and I told them why so late, and they say 'just cuz..' I wouldnt do it.
So when someone like God loves me even though I mess up a lot and
forgives me when I ask of Him, and protects me, I dont understand
why, and I tend to think, 'But why...I wont unless I have an answer'
and then I find myself not talking to Him a couple days.
But I have been able to overcome it with the fact that His ways are
not like my ways, and His thoughts are higher than mine Isaiah 55:8
and that I should not lean on my OWN understanding but on God's. Proverbs 3: 5-6.
I have also learned that shunning Him is not the way to deal with things.
I now talk to Him, and pour out my feelings to Him and ask Him for the
wisdom and answers to my questions that I chase after. Besides, it was Jesus that did say, 'ask and it will be given to you, seek and you will find, knock and the door will be opened to you.' Matthew 7: 7-8.