I love my husband but our relationship isn't always great and I just wanted to let everyone know this.
I am not the Godly wife that i know I need to be. The Lord has shown me things about myself and He is changing me little by little. I believe I have changed somewhat but my old habits raises its ugly head and it isn't pretty. I get frustrated and mad about things and at my husband, we do not communicate well. I am the one who expresses emotions quite easily and sometimes exhuberantly. If I am happy, hey I am singing and bouncing around, if I am mad, well you pretty much know it. I raise my voice and just make a noise. I do not cuss like I use, to Praise the Lord for cleaning my language up, and I never call my husband names. I do not like myself very much when I am angry and resentful. I praise the Lord that my outbursts are alot less frequent and not as firey, but I still have a way to go.
My husband is a 'cool cat', meaning he is a calm guy, very rarely gets flustered about anything. Sometimes it is very frustrating because I do not get the feedback from him that I am looking for. I also look to him for empathy about something and he is not able to give it. As I learned recently men and women are wired differently.
I look to him for encouragement and support about ideas I have and I just don't receive it. I have been very supportive throughout his career and about his things. I know I need to look to the Lord more instead of to my husband.
He is a loving husband but can be distant at times, same with me I am similar. We do not talk about things as much as I would like us to and then I think maybe i talk too much. I am learning to zip it at times but I am not being consistent. My husband isn't very understanding at times about the physical difficulties I face. It is difficult for him to express himself. I know it isn't easy for him and he doesn't know what to do or say.
I often want my way or I think I know best and I do not submit to my husband as I know I should. My husband needs to be the spiritual leader in the home and is not taking that position, and I probably am not helping the situation.
At one time a few years ago, I nearly left my husband for selfish reasons, I wasn't sure if I loved my husband. I prayed to God because I know this wasn't the solution and I asked him to fill my heart with love for my husband And God answered my prayers. I still find him handsome and attractive. He is funny and makes me laugh, he has a hundred good qualities, which I know I must focus on. My husband needs more attention and loving from me.
I understand it is not my job to change him but to change myself by relying on the Lord, through Him I know I can change.
I chose to make this statement to be more honest about my marriage.
I know my husband and I could do with better communication skills, we need to be more open and honest with one another and make God number one.
I don't know if I should have posted this in the help and counsel section but anyway, if you want to offer any thats fine. And if you are willing to pray for us that would be great too.
Calluna
I am not the Godly wife that i know I need to be. The Lord has shown me things about myself and He is changing me little by little. I believe I have changed somewhat but my old habits raises its ugly head and it isn't pretty. I get frustrated and mad about things and at my husband, we do not communicate well. I am the one who expresses emotions quite easily and sometimes exhuberantly. If I am happy, hey I am singing and bouncing around, if I am mad, well you pretty much know it. I raise my voice and just make a noise. I do not cuss like I use, to Praise the Lord for cleaning my language up, and I never call my husband names. I do not like myself very much when I am angry and resentful. I praise the Lord that my outbursts are alot less frequent and not as firey, but I still have a way to go.
My husband is a 'cool cat', meaning he is a calm guy, very rarely gets flustered about anything. Sometimes it is very frustrating because I do not get the feedback from him that I am looking for. I also look to him for empathy about something and he is not able to give it. As I learned recently men and women are wired differently.
I look to him for encouragement and support about ideas I have and I just don't receive it. I have been very supportive throughout his career and about his things. I know I need to look to the Lord more instead of to my husband.
He is a loving husband but can be distant at times, same with me I am similar. We do not talk about things as much as I would like us to and then I think maybe i talk too much. I am learning to zip it at times but I am not being consistent. My husband isn't very understanding at times about the physical difficulties I face. It is difficult for him to express himself. I know it isn't easy for him and he doesn't know what to do or say.
I often want my way or I think I know best and I do not submit to my husband as I know I should. My husband needs to be the spiritual leader in the home and is not taking that position, and I probably am not helping the situation.
At one time a few years ago, I nearly left my husband for selfish reasons, I wasn't sure if I loved my husband. I prayed to God because I know this wasn't the solution and I asked him to fill my heart with love for my husband And God answered my prayers. I still find him handsome and attractive. He is funny and makes me laugh, he has a hundred good qualities, which I know I must focus on. My husband needs more attention and loving from me.
I understand it is not my job to change him but to change myself by relying on the Lord, through Him I know I can change.
I chose to make this statement to be more honest about my marriage.
I know my husband and I could do with better communication skills, we need to be more open and honest with one another and make God number one.
I don't know if I should have posted this in the help and counsel section but anyway, if you want to offer any thats fine. And if you are willing to pray for us that would be great too.
Calluna
