I've been battling with spiritual fatigue for years. It grew significantly worse in the recent years and also after I came to God. All of a sudden I find myself "exhausted" or tired or unable to keep my eyes open during prayer and worship. It happens the most when I open my Bible to read or wheh Im ready to pray or when I sing worship music. I'm beyond frustrated that I cry and cry. Am I being hindered? Am I being rejected? I've done all that I could think of according to scripture. The only answer I get from others is have Faith or I need more faith or have faith. Well I'm reading and doing my best to follow what I'm reading because faith comes from hearing right?!!! Why is this happening to me?!!!!
Hi Pry,
I'm really sorry to hear about your situation, that must be so frustrating! Poor you. You don't say in your post whether this exhaustion extends to other areas of your life? If it does it may well be that there's a medical problem here such as chronic fatigue syndrome or ME. In which case a visit to your doctor for a referral would seem to be appropriate. A really healthy diet and a little bit of very gentle exercise wouldn't do any harm either. If not maybe there's some sort of a mental blockage going on. Whatever is the case the last thing you need to do is worry about it. God wants your best even though your best is not very good, and I say that not just to you, I'd say it to Martin Luther, Billy Graham, me and you and everyone else here in TJ. Isaiah 65:6. Nevertheless God wants your best so much that He sent His son to His death in order to get it and that applies equally to Billy Graham as it does to you. We each of us need to give God our best and that's what He expects, no more: no less.
Have a look at the parable of 10 talents Matthew 25:14-30. The guy with one talent had his butt kicked not because he didn't come up with 20 but because he didn't increase at all. In other words, relax, chill out, don't worry, God loves you and will be delighted with your prayers, love, attitude, praise, adoration, worship. And then just gradually increase and improve as you feel able.
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Dear Lord God,
Thank you that you are a God who is so gentle and loving, caring for and providing for our every need. Not demanding, just wanting, wanting each of us to love and adore you as much as we can. Why such a perfect and all-powerful God wants anything to do with a difficult, painful and vexing people is unclear to us; why you would send your son to die for us is completely mystifying, but we accept in faith that it's because you love us so much.
Thank you for that love God. We want to repay it but we simply can't; it would be easier to repay a mortgage on the Taj Mahal! Despite having given us so much Lord, you want but you don't expect, and still you love us dearly. That's love that we struggle to understand Lord.
Still we want to give you more Lord God and for that we desperately need your Holy Spirit to work within us. Give us a purer love, a fonder adoration and a deeper experience of you dear God. I pray Lord for Pry, please give him/her the peace, comfort and reassurance that he/she needs and craves so that he/she can love you back as you want.
Amen.
